it always seems Christmas
is going to be the time of year
though i wont celebrate cause
you're the only one i know
our birthdays clash im born
on the 7th of sunday my friend
it's march now and you say you'll
be here in july but i know its a lie
then you'll say december and i'll
be waiting till that time
then all the while there will be the whole
i'll come before december which wont happen either
then i say my birthday or you'rs or New Years Night.
and if all those dates pass bye there is always
VALENTINE !
and so i'll think that's what was said in 2015
and i'll be like
**** this game will never end

life seems almost robotic at what i do
i go to work and chill at home
i read n write poetry
and smoke **** some days
got my ps4 locked away
i work nights and sleep
during the day
i sip coffee and go out for dinner
i hang out with friends
and attend A.A
i talk to my parents
i see the same news repeat all over
different titles different names different numbers
i long for love to open the door
i been standing outside for a while
and she knows
im waiting patiently for it has become my only virtue
while she puppets me to everything she pleases
i cant cut the string that i cant see
in the matrix awake but still not free
like a secret they forgot to mention in the scripts
even when you are free
you're still a Puppet

It is better for Queens to rule
and Kings to serve them
from the hive to the colony
and onto chess boards
Queens seem to rule the World
so rather than the mother of god
Mother God

she was the black widow
he was the god of flies
he was in her web
in her mind
his wings plucked off
his hands and feet tied
They looked at each others Eyes,...
*It was Love at first sight

words rhyme one with the other
like they were meant to be
just like you n me
like a plan from the start
starting from the stars
ending all the way between you n me
lets meet under a starry night
and speak in rhymes me n you
play with each other with words
and have conversations that would
be pleasant to the ear
I am that I am and I'm meant to be
this world this universe everything
it beholds is just you and me

Come with a thorn
if you are a rose
come with a fire
if you are desire
come with desire
if you are love
come with love
if you are real
come with truth
if you are holy
come with forgiveness
if you are holy
come with beauty
if you are heart n soul

But most of all
come soon
cause im dying here alone!

Constant in my mind she remains
etched on my soul for eternity
there is no escape there is no winning
she controls it all
She's the black widow who wears the earth on her ring
she's the puppet master she's got everyone in control
she's the masked magician the Queen of Dawn
She's the cosmos and space
she's the stars she's fate
she's a witch she's a cat
she's the one who pulls bunnies out of hats...........
(to be cont)