I wish I could not speak.
Maybe then,
The things I wish to say would be more meaningful
And I would say so much more.

I wouldn't say
"I love you".
I would show it.

And I wouldn't recite poetry,
I would act it.

And I wouldn't tell jokes.

*I would be them.

It's twisting with time
knotting my insides
like a diamond in the rough
that's too tough to find.
The potion wearing off
covering my eyes with the cloth
of sins and sinister thought
feeling finally caught.

My mind won't rest
so why lie with the best?
Clear skies will never clear these eyes
and silver linings only shine
somewhere in the back of my mind.
A fool is the beholder
of this comedy, divine.

I listen to our music,
My cell phone on my shoulder
Waiting to buzz and give me your words.

But I will drift soon.

And when I do,
I will not respond to you.
But you will know I am dreaming of you.

Because I always am.

for you i would be
anything, even me
if you want me as myself
because your always your amazing self

to be yours,
i would fight all wars
for you to be mine
if only for a moment, would be divine,

you are a angel, a blessing
and i am a demon, cursing
a little to much,
and craving your touch

guys this is goodbye in my own way
just cause i am dumb and don't know what to say
this is all cause someone, reminded me
that trust, is something that just can't be

something for me, cause in the end
everyone is the same, and i can't have a friend
i am meant to be alone
so guys bye, and don't call cause i am turning off my phone