Sadie

Sadie Feb 2016

Roadlust

"It's getting to be dark,
you sure you want to keep going?"*
Yes, because then I
can see the stars.

Sadie Feb 2016

I started shooting up
when you shot me down.
The high in my veins
is better than the voice in my ear.
All those times we drove together,
you as my passenger
as we tried to map out which
direction I was going in.
Now I know where I'm going,
and it's straight off this cliff.

Best high of my life was the night I died.

Sadie Feb 2016

Baby boy

Baby boy, baby girl.
Dreams of a future I'm not sure of.
Maybe there will be a wedding,
then what would I say?
It's always going to be this way
with me.
Consistently unsure of me
and even more so of you.
Sadness and rain drops and tea
go together like milk and coffee
in me.

To one of my ex boyfriends. Wrote it while we were still together, and he told me he loved me/wanted to marry me one day.

Sadie Dec 2015

Speed

I've tried praying
but I lost my faith
        going down on my knees
Pushing myself a little further
                             a little faster
on this dirt road to living
       Or is it dying?
I'm getting tired of keeping
up this persona.
The partier, worker, student,
and lover.
I can't remember the last time
I slept more than 4 hours.
Just a little further,
        a little faster.
Keep it up.
I'm running top speed
but fuel is running low.
Can I keep up?

Finally figured out what I wanted to do with this.
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Sadie Dec 2015

pray. version 2

I've tried praying
for my soul
but I lost my faith
going down on my knees,
worshipping all the wrong people.
Placing their body as holy to my eyes,
while mine was a place of sin
that they abandon when
I start to turn to ruin.

I couldn't decide which version I liked better.
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Sadie Dec 2015

pray. version 1

I've tried praying
for my soul
but I lost my faith
going down on my knees

Religion seems to be a big theme for me, even though I've been an atheist/agnostic for years.
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