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Sadie Dec 2015
Thinking about life from
my bathroom floor.
My carpeted bathroom floor
that I can't get all the
dirt and mildew and rot from.
Just like my mind and soul,
filled with all the deplorable **** that
I can't forget.
     Bad memories, and
     past mistakes, and
     all the wrong people, and
     destitute trains of thought.
I'm trying not to hate myself from
my bathroom floor.
I don't think it's working.
From a bit away,
I look fine,
          just like my bathroom floor.
Up close,
I'm a melting *** of mess,
          just like my bathroom floor.
Copyright @ Sadie Whitney
In 6 and a half months, I've made more mistakes, and caused myself and others more pain than I ever hoped.
  Dec 2015 Sadie
Sia Jane
By late July,
  I’m counting sheep again.
    I find an unknown land
        to gather the remnants

of my lucid dreams.
  Each night I’m walking alone
     across deserts where
        nothing ever grows.

Years of rainfall
   have left them barren.
     By late July,
         the deserts are beginning

to fear the sun once again.
   I talk to them, and say;
     ‘Don’t be afraid. I hear
          a thunder storm approaching.

El Niño will flood
   the riverbeds close by
      and you will, once again,
         flourish; a beautiful oasis

blossoming with life.’

   I am consoled by my own
      inability to sleep.
         The empty spaces ahead,

no longer phase me.
   As the desert is brought to life,
       a flower lies below each
          step I take through my nights.

If I look deeply enough
   the faces on the flowers
       begin to tell
          their own stories.

They tell of years underground,
    a seed in the desert soil
       still, motionless,
          waiting patiently;

the awakening
    of sleeping beauty
       comes slowly
           then suddenly.

I consider how they grow,
    they neither toil nor spin;
        they simply be.
           I stood silently.

All night, I waited.
    I watched them;
        how they trust all
           they need, will come.

They neither toil nor spin –
    for all they said  
        was shown to them.
           ‘You see,’ they say

‘one day you’ll finally know,
    all you needed to do.
         You must not fight,
            just be.’


By late July,
    I stop counting sheep.

© Sia Jane
Sadie Nov 2015
acid rain trip
down the blip
of my life.
glitching internally,
gone is the gurney
down down
that rolling rolling
hallway.
won't you let
me stay?
Inspired by Acid Rain by the Growlers.
Copyright @ Sadie Whitney
Sadie Nov 2015
You are lovely.
love-ly
love-lie
love-lies
You just have
the prettiest
love-lies,
and I don't mind
being gullible
for a bit.
This one is ****.
Sadie Nov 2015
You are the Devil
and you make me feel
like an angel
draped in black and red
and sin-ister kisses.
God, I worship you.
let's play a game called find the irony.
Copyright @ Sadie Whitney
Sadie Nov 2015
What can I say?
I'm a player
with a knack
for being played.
No further comment.
Copyright @ Sadie Whitney
Sadie Nov 2015
Daddy, people have been saying
I don't look alive.
Daddy, do you think it's true?
Daddy, do you think I'm dead inside?
I don't feel alright.
Daddy, there are so many things
that are hurting me.
Daddy, where are you?!
You were my first heartbreak.
Daddy, please help me.
~ ~ ~
Daddy, the pills, they're not working.
I can't sleep. I can't breathe.
Daddy....
Yes sweetie?
Nothing. Good night, Daddy
I have daddy issues, and my therapist said I have severe attachment issues, plus my depression is back full force.
PS. she dies at the end.
Copyright @ Sadie Whitney
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