she slipped away
running from my form
as i locked my heart back in it's cage
throwing away the key

just like a creek
a stream of water
slipped through my fingers

she's gone
again

i held you for a night
and now things are different

what changed?

and yet in the span of an hour
my heart has started up again
longing for someone it once beat for

for you said it was your favorite sound
with your hand against my chest
as i sobbed in your arms.

you've put me in
to cardiac arrest

i think i'm still in love with you
but i'm scared
because there's someone new

for once in my life i'm mad at you
i'm mad that you got me to love you,
when you knew it was going to end.
i'm mad at you for keeping secrets
and lying when i first asked.

i'm mad that I'm still in love with you,
and that i miss the taste of your lips
and sound of your voice.

i'm mad that i crave your touch
and give up the anger when you call.

i hate you.
i hate that i need you.