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Rubyredheart May 20
Midnight aches
My body shakes
Stifled tear
to hold you near
Pleading ask
Remove the mask
Say truthfully
If you love me
All I know
I need you so!
Yet, sad these sighs
Hope only lies
Rubyredheart May 20
I considered another
Something only you
A hidden clue—connector of hearts
Our secret

I picture you as A hawk n me a phoenix
(I do like a bit of worddplay)
I imagyne majestic raptors
Soared the vast blue ether of your hometown...
& I remember as a child
searching Southern skkies for a red-tailed hawk...
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I alwayz loved this symbol of you
before we even met

I can’t decide where your bird might reside:
maybe as a guardian perched atop a shoulder?
I would like to see it often
not have it hidden as so much else must be...
Should it rest a reminder on my wrist
of how my pulse beats to rhythms of your memory?

As a symbol, I prefer an abstract drawing...
Perhaps a single line?
or geometric design
reminiscent of Cathedral glass?
(Metaphor of our lives)
Should I incorporate the ampersand?my constellation?
The hawk could be a water-brush design
Unfinished?

...possibilities

I wonder
what you might suggest
as an image of your memory
Buried ‘neath my skin
must be annoying...it would be to me
Rubyredheart May 14
Ceaseless obsession to break through
Passionate to see, hear, find, know you
To have a breath escape the cold hard stone
Insatiable longing that won’t be left alone
Won’t waste away and fade with time
This sweet addictive poison in the mind
Will not, cannot fade or find
An antidote, a palliative or final death
To ease this panting, gasping breath
Fool I am, more fool with age
When heart won’t hear of logic sage
But rages on irrationally
Inventing dreams, a fantasy
Where you, unknown since long ago
Emerge, recapturing our dormant glow
The sense in me yells, “NO! No! no.”
Foolish heart to dream the ludicrous!
When no path exists for the two of us.
Now hammered, torn and shattered
Shriveled, dry, and battered
A little heart in one last hopeful sigh
Timidly seeks that long-desired reply,
Thwarted, then slinks into her cave to cry.
Rubyredheart May 14
Once you were Real, Faded, then Gone…

I have a great imagination &
I don’t feel like missing you so
I’ll play pretend…

Welcome to my life, imaginary friend!
We have a heart-load of **** to share;
it’s been so long.
Tell me of your travels...
Of those new to your life. . . the losses, too.
Share stories of your family
Tell what warms your heart
confide in me the highs and lows, the everything

Then I’ll speak of mine…but. . .

here's the thing about imaginary friends…
I cannot know of you; silence is your truth
Ridiculously I converse, one-sided…

for (imaginary) friendship's sake
rewrite
Rubyredheart May 12
5 months effort to my 20 years
before the mask of kindness dropped

“Speak 7 positives for every negative,”
instructed he who floundered
finding single words of kindness
through my many years of grace & deference.

“was proud of you
renovating…you removed a toilet alone…”
(***?! that was circa ‘04!)
offer rejected!

just fly back to Korea already
spare me the stench of destructive sentiments
marinated in days-old garlic sweat
I’m worth more!
where’s bolt cutter?
just feeling a little bitter & cynical right now. Looks like the sun is trying to burn off the clouds & hopefully I’ll find pleasant flowers to scent some hours with optimism.  Regardless, I embrace life…even the grey.
Rubyredheart May 12
Some gracefully accept, but not me…
I don’t want to fade, aged, unseen!
hushed, dejectedly as I shrink
‘neath the weight of another’s priorities…

where is the hand I seek
to draw me in glowing ink?
instead I’m gripped so tightly
sketched words overwriting my story
“come now, time to say ‘sorry’”
or shall my ink bottle fall
leave black stain; erase it all?
whatever may be most sane
just…let ME remain
Rubyredheart May 11
Sad
Of course my heart would break for either:
death is death.
“code Adam” in the store today
fused my heart with his parent’s
heart beating fearfully for Wilder
age 7 in an orange shirt…
at least He was found
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