you don't know this
i've kept it a secret
but i'm still with you,
you just never knew it.
when i'm alone, i dream us together
eyes closed, hands on my face,
holding each other so dearly.
i wish you could hear the music we make
all the duets i've created
oh, how our voices blend together so seamlessly...
i've told you things i'd never reveal
if you were standing in front of me,
if my image of you were real.
i hope you're never lonely,
but if you begin to feel you are,
simply dream me up and hold my hand,
for i am never truly far.

bring me to the water
drape your blanket over my shoulder
tell me how you love me
tell me how you're sure
bring me to the altar
light the candle of eternity for me
tell her how you're healing
tell her to be free
bring me to the coffin
lay next to me, in sinful remorse
tell me of your cruelties
tell me I'll be saved

angel of death, of deception, and time:
have you ever questioned your own mind?
have you rested in the gaps between your speech?
unwoven a ******* tangle of thoughts
to look for the special one
we seem to have forgotten?

that night, we smelled of cigarettes and incense
comfortable in last night's clothes
tied around each other like twine

like a sudden flame
born of like ember wood
emerging from twin winds
something dead becomes alive again.
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I can feel your blood running through me when you get angry, wherever you may be

I think your eyes lie in my head
I think we may have morphed
melted together in heat
but I don't feel any different

do you?

a confident woman is only perceived as conceited by the insecure.

come with me,
together we'll run out the help

i'll put it all on myself
and we'll suffer long days together

we must make them want to leave
manipulate them into a shameful retreat

it's no coincidence that we coincide
lost in this tunnel of reality
when we'd much rather be
hanging from a tree
no   space   between you and me

there's a recipe for my love
it's not hard to memorize

build me up
let me down
come around,
adjust my crown.
put on some coffee
and take me outside
for our third cigarette break today.
bathe in the shame
until I say it's okay to come out.

when your face turns red,
i'll hold your head
and soften the blows
in a second.

when my brain leaks emotion,
you'll be my distraction
attentive yet reluctant and kind.

accepting the mystery of our own existence
there's nothing to prove
we'll find our own groove
just rest in me,
and i'll always help you