slyly understating
affections for secrets kept
behind darkened doors

mask the inevitable
to increase the heartbeat of a girl
souls unsweetened
it gives me a rush, I'm unable to lie
and one feeling crushes her doubt

don't pour out her generous ways
to fill her with aspirations
the filthy kind
that beg for darkness

she'll deduce and uncover
much to your dismay
a need to discover another mistake

she helps those in need
by helping herself

                  angelic expressions
                                     hide brutal intentions.

There's a certain attractiveness in agony
To be drawn to something destructive
Like perpetual bliss within a simple discomfort

Whether your soul is old, or it's just learned wisdom
The distraction serves as a habitual nuance
Slowly pulling the strings of routine until each knot is loosened,
Each wall built up is cut into a thousand pieces

Please refrain from bestowing temptations upon me
For I am not strong
I lack critical mindful muscles, and in place are romantic fantasies
I haven't trained my posture to withstand it all,
So do me a favor, leave me untied, all broken up
If not, I shall succumb to a heartthrob personality
My body is fully unable to afford it

With words, a gentle mind is twisted
With a glance, the guiltless eye wanders
I have come to learn that, despite all attempts to repel emotional buckles, the severity of a sweet soul is far too powerful to overcome.
It seems as if I have no choice at all

I am feeling corrupted
Though you promise me ease
Teach me to have faith in your dismemberment
Simultaneous devotion to a psyche so unfamiliar to me
I'm wrapped up in chains, though you swear to me freedom

To where can I possibly turn?

can't fight these harsh feelings
they fill my brain and envelop me
every time I see you,
my vision is blurred and I remember,
I start to remember the words you first said
I thought they were so stupid
but I laughed right along,
assuming the best of you.

I don't like to remember all the good times we had
for reality is far too painful to comprehend
without you, babe, I never even thought
I needed you
or someone like you . . .
it hurts to relive the glory days

I love to remember all the good times we had
for they fill me with hope that,
someday I'll be with someone even better
stronger, kinder, more honest, even
can you imagine? my head has a hard time
grasping an image of happier feelings
than the ones you were able to make me feel
every single waking second.

the emotions blow over,
as I am forced to ignore you
but remember love,
I was so ready to love you.

approach me with caution
a deadly edge
dreaming yet I'm weary
waiting for the end
could you show me?
could you maybe just dethrone me?
goodness, I think my soul is overflowing...
never miss a call
don't delay, get the story straight
fighting our downfall
just to stay, feeling far away

isn't it sweet living on your own feet
making your own decisions
and not having to answer to anyone?
except for the big man
when he asks of your income
and takes some away, as he pleases
but other than that, you're totally free!
isn't it great how the schools regulate
what you can and can't eat
because most other people
are addicted to sweets?
and in this all-inspiring jewel of a land
the less you have,
the more powerful you become
tracing our races all back to day one.
and the certainty of knowing
that you're living well-balanced
in a place where there are rules on the simplest of things.
it's a small price to pay for a life worth living,
and you'll never feel threatened
in this awing new world
no weapons, no lust, no verbal attacks
just you, and me, and the big man watching
in this utopia we succumbed to for personal gain

stay seated and quiet
all the babbling runs out
we're alone with another
evil man to convince
convicted and slaughtered like a ravenous pack
let's skip the routine
just for another day in these arms
armed with a band of weapons galore