Looking out the window pane
The sky crying, "it's all the same"
Tears of life
Showing you're alive
Tap at the window, the tears of the sky
Crying for you and I
Sky sees all and does not like
The pain and the misery cause by all
It cries and cries hoping to see
Some kind of difference, waiting futilely
Hoping to wash away
The pains of yesterday
The ignorance of today
Instead it seems
Tears are to spread around
What is meant to be gone
"Look up and see my pain for you"
The sky pleads day after day
Left on deaf ears
The sky cries more
The sky sees all
The killing and the pain
The wrongdoings and the cheating
"Look up and see, for killing there is no need"
Blind eyes can't see
Falls on deaf ears, the sky's desperate pleas.

So much death
Not enough life
So many tears
Not enough smiles
The things they say happen for a reason
But, why? We've done no treason
Lately, not enough sun
To shine through the dark clouds
It's like everything is shrouded
By memories both good and bad
You can't help to feel sad
Because lately
There's been too much death
And not enough life.

With the flash of a smile
The sly, cunning smile
And just one spoken word
In that smooth baritone timbre
He'll have you at his knees
Waiting for you to wash his feet
The great betrayer
The liar of liars
But, the one so close
To whom he hides the most
Will never see the twisted side
Of the husband to be
Because under his spell
She is blind to it all
She sees the smiles and the words
Spoken only to her.

A sin of God
One can only imagine
What one so deviant
Thinks of himself
What a silly notion
It might have remorse
Maybe a conscience underneath all the dirt
One would have to dig deep
Because no one has been there before
Some even wonder if it's there at all.

Rekindled flame
Red embers burning bright
No longer stagnate
Red embers of soul
Burning through
Showing to those who couldn't see
Never again
Make the blind see when the mute speaks
Make the deaf hear
Make the ignorant learn the words the mute speaks
No longer silent screams waiting in futility to be heard
The blind shall see the embers of soul
Speak on deafened ears no more
The mute speaks
False hope no more
Following for happiness no more
The mute speaks
Ramblings
on..
on..
and on..
The day the mute speaks
Listen
For there is much to say
Much to hear
Much to see
The day the mute speaks
Is the day the deaf hear and the blind see
The embers of soul burning bright within
All thanks to rekindled flame
Speak, Mute
Speak

The one thing that stings the most
Is the realization that I really was wrong
I made a mistake and now I'm paying the cost
The greatest words that were ever said
"Focus on Rosie and ***** all the rest"
That's what my Mama said before she left
And I know that she's right
I need nothing when I have me right by my side
No one here to let me curl up and hide
People say these are the best years of my life
I sure hope not cuz' all I want to do is curl up and die
But I won't trip
Because I'll keep a stiff upper lip
It just hurts that I was wrong
So I'll just keep singing my song
Time for my solo queue

I miss the way things used to be
The way things were
Between you and me
Things have just gotten harder
And I just can't see
Is it you
Or is it me?
So down I've been
Feeling so hurt and sore
I've come to you for comfort
Like I always have
But you pin it back on me
Making me feel worse
"That doesn't sound like him"
My good friend has said
I agree
It sounds like someone else instead.
I can't see
Is it you or is it me?
"I give up" you said
That phrase hasn't left my head
Since you've said it
A part of me gave up as well
If you truly mean it
I can't believe it.
Is it you or is it me?
Perhaps it is both
A reaction to an action
Just over and over
Reacting and reacting
A volatile reaction
Only made worst by time
If you'd only react differently
Say a different word
If I'd only do differently
Then surely we could be
Is it you or is it me?
So afraid I'll drive you away
I can't keep on crying alone
Night after night
Fight after fight
It takes it's toll.
What happened to the rest?
What happened to the words we said?
Always talking love
Always talking passion
Have we forgotten?
Some say passion must die
To replace it with the mundane
I refuse.
Until our dying day my love will be passionate
And I will fight with passion
Without passion it just doesn't seem worth it
Where did our passion go?
Where did the words of our beauty go?
Where did the words of our undying love disappear to?
No longer is there late night talks
Of our future and love
Few and far between are the looks of longing
Look into each others' eyes and peer deep
See the person you fell in love with
And fall in love with them all over again
Remember the love
And remember that it's still there.
I miss the way things were
And I know you do, too
Between you and me.

In regards to happiness
To be or not to be
I choose the former
Rather than the latter.

So long happiness eluded
Now a ray of light, no longer secluded
From those with smiles
It's worth all my while.

With a smile on my face
No longer just a case
To remove in the privacy of home
No longer looking for somewhere to roam
When things get rough
Because I know I'm tough
And you give me the strength
The confidence to use my voice
The courage to no longer settle for less
To be happy and strive for the best
Because I lost it
And now we've found it.

To be or not to be
That is the question
In regards to happiness
It is not question at all
Because who would choose the latter?
Especially over the former?
With so many smiles and laughs
Against so many tears and cries
Sensibility, common sense
It leads me to believe about the latter
That there needs to be
But, it will never last
Because the former is that much nicer.

In regards to my happiness
To be or not to be...
Is not a question.

I’m driving down the highway
After we said goodbye
My foot pushin on the gas
I’m tryin not to cry

I look up to the horizon
And see the setting sun
My thoughts all on you, dear
Because I’ll miss you so much

I’m drivin away from you today
I can’t look back or I’ll turn away
I never want to leave you
I want to be beside you
Forever holding you
But I gotta go
Yeah, I gotta go
But, you know
It won’t be for long

I’m tryin to hold it together
But its no use
I’m lookin at the cars through blurry eyes
Those eyes are seein nothing but you

The day turns to night and I’m still driving
Driving away from you

I’m drivin away from you today
I can’t look back or I’ll turn away
I never want to leave you
I wanna be beside you
Forever holding you
But I gotta go
Yeah, I gotta go
But, you know baby
It won’t be for long

I push on the gas
I’m here at last
But still without you

Walk in my house
But its not home
My home is where you are
And you aren’t here
But, you know baby
It won’t be for long
Soon you’ll be here
And I’ll be there
We’ll be together again
Forever at last
But, baby, just for now
It won’t be long

Too many front row seats at funerals
Too many tears shed over bodies
Too many cold hands help in hopes to feel warmth
Too many goodbyes that can't be helped.

It's a sad day when there are too many
When siblings realize
And kin begin to visualize
A day without their mother
A day without their brother
Too many, I say
Too many.

Too many sorrow and not enough joys
It seems, these days are numbered
Numbered and riddled with sadness
With the occasional laugh and smile
It seems, at least these days...
There are too many.

When life gets tough
You have to get tougher.

With every new twist in the road
Comes a new wall built up
A wall trying to shield from the pain.

With every loss life gives
Comes a new smile
Not a real one
But, one to hide behind.

With every new wall built around you
A little piece of you dies
A little piece of you is hidden.

As you hide behind wall after wall
You become lost.

This is the problem.

Lost in yourself.

Hiding behind the smile of pain.

Wall.

After.

Wall.

How can I find myself hiding behind these walls?

Did that just happen?
Or was it just a dream?
Maybe I'll just lead myself to believe
That it was all a dream
Including the scent of your skin
And the feel of your lips
Against mine in the pale moonlight
And your warmth swallowing me once again
I'll convince myself it was a dream
So I don't get burned again.

But, it felt so different
Like we were starting again
Two new people in two new lives
Two people with the tools to make it through
With the tools to start anew
Feeling the same would have been great
But, I would have had to politely depart
Because it would have been the same road
Just a different time
Same place
But, it felt so different.

I think it's safe to let myself believe
It was all just a dream
But, you know me
I was never one to be safe
But, I've turned a new leaf
So it'll remain a dream
For now...
Just let me know if I'm wrong
Let me know if it happened
Let me know if we really sang that song
Because I meant every word I said
When I said I was in it for the long haul
We may be a little bent
But, we can learn to love again
Oh...and there I go...

Saying the things we never said
How can this be the end?
Even if it was just a dream
It's one I hope to have again
And again and again
Well, you get the idea
So just let me know
There's no rush to the end
Though I'll always be there for you, friend
Even if it's only a dream
I'll be with you until the bitter end
Call me a hopeless romantic
For these love driven antics
But, since you've been gone things just got so clear
And, in all honesty, I have nothing to fear
Because even if it was a dream
My eyes will always gleam
Because you helped give me strength
A voice
You helped me find my own mind
And that isn't a dream.

Did that happen?
Yes, it did
Will it stay reality
Or will I have to believe it's a dream?
I don't know, my dear
You tell me.

The days will soon end
The nighttime will be coming soon
Weary heads will rest.

The days grow long
The nights grow longer
Things get tough but,
When I look at you...

Tears I shed
One after another
Life gets hard
This gets even harder
But, when I look at you...

In bed I cry
Fight after fight
But, when I look at you...
If it wasn't for you...

Fast motion time
Slow motion life
So much to do
So little time
Stress after stress
So much to address
But, when I look at you...

I don't even have to look at you
When I think about you...
It all goes away.

Come dance with me
No, wait, you're gonna get burned
Get up off the ground
I'm just gonna sit you back down
Spinning words like a web
Venom in my words like a curse
You think you're free
Then you don't know me
Just try to breathe
I might let you free
I'm schoolin you like a teacher
And no, I ain't no preacher
I'm just telling you what I see.

Come dance if you're brave
But, once you're with me
No one can save
Whatever is left after I get a hold
Who knew words could be so cold
Feeling like ice
Try taking a roll of the dice
They're loaded in favor
Of the mistress you savor
Just come dance
I promise it won't be your last.

How's it feel to be someone's little chew toy
Oh, now don't try to play coy
Just dance with me baby
I want to see everything you can be
But, it won't be enough to play with me
Rolling with the big girls now
And you fall with a pow
Without a single touch
I didn't know I'd feel this much
Now come dance
I promise I'll make your last
With this fire in my eyes
And no more tears to cry.

You can try your hardest
To dance this dance
But I move so fast
And you fall to the ground
Get up and try again
Because it'll be worth it in the end

Trust me...

I can't imagine life without you
Things will be so different
I try not to think
But, it's hard...

Stay here, my love
Don't leave me alone here
Alone to be stuck inside my mind
Please, don't leave...

I cherish these moments
For I know they will be few
I love every bit of it
This life with me and you.

I'll remember this and relive it
Every second of every day
You will be there and I'll be here
But, still...you'll be near.

Though distance separates
Nothing can part my love for you
I shall stay here, waiting patiently
Happily waiting for the next time...

I shall be here with a smile on my face
Because I know I'm not alone
So, smile, my dear
Because neither are you.

Broken ambition
Lost in admiration
Of a life that seems so appealing
But, in the end is only demeaning
Because your worth is not based of a boy
But, to you, of course it is
Because with the people in your life
Who have done nothing but criticize and fight
And treat you like ****
And leave you regretting it
It's just so sad with so much potential
But, it's all the wrong things that are influential
On your life and your actions
People have done you wrong
And it makes you succumb
To all the easy roads in life
Becoming a broken wife
To some pill-pusher with no job
Who beats on you day in and day out
But, you'll say he loves you
Because he ***** you
You think he does
But he DOESN'T
That I wish I could make you see
No boy and no man can ever be
Your source for happiness in this life
Because in the end it is only you
Only you in the world
You against the world
You laughing with the world
You crying with the world
And if you can't be happy with the world
There is no can't
There is only won't
And no one can force you to see
The woman that you're meant to be
But, I can tell you it isn't this
Picking the piece just because it kind of fits
Please be careful
I don't want to get that call or see that post
I don't want to see you on the 11 o'clock news
I don't want to have to visit your grave
And I don't want to have to visit your prison cell
All because you can't see what you're worth
And what potential you have in the world
So I pray that tomorrow you wake up
And you see that worth.

Just when you think the monsters are gone
They come back with a vengeance
Like never before.

They dance in your mind when you're in bed at night
Prancing and frolicking
Waiting or their chance to strike.

When the dancing stops is when their fun begins
They turn on you with those black beady eyes
******* all light from deep within.

They hit so fast it's hard to defend
Scratching and biting
Until there's no way you can contend.

Because you're bleeding and hurting
From their tiny, sharp teeth
Then back to darkness you are reverting.

It's easier to feel when you aren't being eaten alive
From those tiny little things that haunt you on the inside.

Now you lay me down to sleep
My soul, you will surely keep
Along with my heart right next to yours
You could never fathom ripping them apart
One in the same
Living side by side, day by day
Night by night
My, my, what a sight.

Now I lay you down to sleep
Your heart, I will forever keep
Next to mine as we lay
Now and forever
Until the end of days
Even after  your heart will stay
Forever with mine
This I will always pray.

Now we are laying down to sleep
All of our secrets we will keep
I tell you mine and you tell me yours
The darkest ones that I will always adore
And cherish until the bitter end
We will forever call each other friend
The very best, along with lover
And soon wife and husband
With so much more world to discover.

Now we dream our very sweet dreams
Of our future together, just you and me
Along with our friends and family
We will forever be as happy as can be
Because I have you and you have me
So, don't worry dear
The end is not near, nor does it exist
Troubles will come, but, do not fear
Together we'll plan and we'll make it through
To the whole world, we will prove
And show them the world
For they do not know
When they look at us
We'll always put on a show
Now rest your head down now
And sleep your sweet dreams
And in the morning you'll wake
And I'll be next to you and you'll be next to me.

This day has come too soon
The death of a friend
I thought it’d never end
You’ve been there for me
Through thick and thin
The good and the bad
I knew it would end
But it’s too soon
Coming to this life’s end
Too soon
For the life of my friend
Words were not needed
For the love that we shared
You stuck by me
And I to you
Till the bittersweet end
I will remember you
For what you were
The friend to me
Covered in fur
Yes, you were a dog
But, no, that does not change
The love I had for you was strong
Stronger than any human being
Now it’s your time
Your time to say goodbye
And though I may cry
I know it’s for the best
That you close your eyes
And say goodbye
I see your weary and your pain
And it would be selfish of me
To ask you to stay
But, come too soon
This day has
For I am not ready to say good bye
Not just yet
I will never say good bye
This I know for sure
Because I am certain that we will meet
Meet surely once again

Today you haunted me
More so than any other day
Today I felt your arms
Wrap me tight and hold me in warmth
That soon turned cold
And I wanted nothing more than for you to leave me alone...
But, how naive of me to think
That you leaving me alone would end this ache
This ache that I haven't felt in weeks
Since our last day...
So I called you up
Asked you if anything was up
Asked you if you'd thought of me
And what that could ever mean
A mystery for now it seems
Because at the time being
Between you and me
It's not meant to be...

And I lied when I said
I wouldn't write and cry
About you
Because it's the only thing that takes away the ache
And it takes away the pain
Like an amputee
I lost this big part of me
Now I'm left with the phantom
Of what we used to be
And what we are today.

Folding my laundry today
And I felt you right behind me
Holding me tight
No pretense, no warning
Just there you were inside my mind
Your hands in mine
Then your warmth turned to cold as I realized
That you're that phantom
And nothing more.

I fall in and out of reality
Every day could be a different dimension
Depending on my mind
And what it chooses to hide in illusion.

Feeling this way for days and days
I'm scared
Why won't it go away?
Has the sickness set in?
Finally, it's time to pay
For all my little indiscretions
For all the lies and all the times
For another day, I say
Why won't this go away?
The pills they bring just slight relieve
Am I too far gone to ease the pain?
Shivers and sweat run down my spine
This sickness is no ordinary kind
What can they tell me?
What will they say?
My very worst nightmare
I've tried to wish away
It's caught up with me today
The sorrows and the pain
Of today and yesterdays since passed
Hopefully this won't last
Cold sweats in bed
Shivers under my blanket
Someone come help before I am dead
For days and days
I am terrified
Why won't this go away?

This is when the tears start to fall
When I've started giving it my all
**** it
I just want to say
That I love you anyway
But these problems we've made
Are they here to stay?
Both of us say no
Tell me it isn't so
Because now I'm in it to win it
And we're the prize
Lord knows that I'm trying
And now I can't think through the tears
It feels like I'm dying
Between the stress of this mess and home
This started out for you
But now I don't know who
I can't find the lines to read between
All the riddles and hiding
Even today, I was trying
To read the riddles and to pry the pain
Because, baby, things ain't the same
I may have hid but, now I'm back
Now you can't hide and expect me not to crack
I just want to move forward from this pain
Because, I'm tellin you, I ain't the same
No more upper-hand
My words are plain...
Lord help us if you forget my name...
And I can't think through these tears
Because I'm afraid
That now I've gone and laid everything out
Torn my heart out of my chest and gave it to you...
I can't think through these tears...
Because I love you.
I almost told you good bye
But, I'd be lying if I said it wasn't all a lie
Because I'd do anything to see you stop crying
I'd go to the edge of the earth to see you smile
I'd walk to you right now if I had time
But, we both know that just wouldn't be right
But, if I had my car, I would have been there last night
Because...though we both said that we'd get better
I can still see the end in sight
The end sounds so bitter and we both know it ain't right.
This is harder than I ever thought...
But, my heart, you have caught...
You can let it go whenever
Just give me some warning before you sever...
You say you're worried about me crushing you
But, it's you who can do the crushing, boo boo.
I can't think through these tears...
Each tear feels like acid going down my cheek
And maybe it's just me being weak
I just miss you so much
If we were together things would be better
And we wouldn't have to write these love letters
Because we'd look into each others' eyes
And that's where nothing can hide.
I don't know where I'm going with this
Now I'm just left longing for your kiss
Because then we would know
How much we could grow.

Not ideally planned
But under the circumstances
You’re with me and I am with you

And the life we thought we knew
Is slowly changing, too
Is it what we’re dreaming of?

You and I
We’re together
Me and you
Yeah its forever
Through the thick and the thin the young and the old
I’ll be with you through it all
Through the sickness and health I’ll be with you through it all

Day after day I just cannot wait
To see you
This feeling grows and it grows until it explodes
Inside my heart
Day after day I just sit here and wait to see you
Now tell me, darling
Is what we’re dreaming of?

You and I
We’re together
Me and you
Yeah its forever
Through the thick and the thin the young and the old
I’ll be with you through it all
Through the sickness and health I’ll be with you through it all

I’ll be loving you until the night is through
Inside your head
You make me feel a way I’ve never felt before
I’ve never felt you before
You’re the one I’m dreamin of
The only one I’m thinking of

I’m thinkin about
You and I
Together
Me and you
Yeah, forever

You and I
We’re together
Me and you
Yeah its forever
Through the thick and the thin the young and the old
I’ll be with you through it all
Through the sickness and health I’ll be with you through it all
I’ll be with you through it all

Like the moon sitting high in the sky
Your beauty does shine
Like the sun shining bringing a new day
Your warmth radiates through me
With every breath I take
And every move you make
I know you are mine

Like the moon and the tides
It’s like you and I
One without the other
Would make anyone shudder
Our hearts are intertwined
Our love aging like fine wine
Without a doubt I know you are mine

And the tides they will shift
But every day will still seem like a gift
And I know we will cry
But I’ll always be by your side
So here’s to love, my dear
Here’s to love without a fear
Without a fear, for you are mine

With you by my side
Anything could be mine
My love, can’t you see
Forever we will be
Here’s to love, my dear
Love without a fear
For you are forever mine

When all those fairy tales go away
What else will there be left to say
No more lie wrought "I love you"'s
Just us two, left to sing the blues.

What happened to the old days
When the mere sight took your breath away
What I thought I'd never lose
Now a broken heart must be soothed.

If only we could have chosen
Two hearts remain unbroken
Now this bed is like a trap
Though so close, between us is a gap.

What we had was beautiful
How could we make it work, so dysfunctional
Now you've chosen
One heart remains unbroken.

I told you I was hurt
Bleeding on the inside
I told you I was lost
In the middle of my life
There's times I stayed alive for you
There's times I would have died for you
There's times it didn't matter at all

Will you help find the right way up
Or let me take the wrong way down
Will you straighten me out or make me take the long way around
I took the low road in
I'll take the high road out
I'll do whatever it takes to be the mistake you can't live without

Standing in the dark
I can see your shadow
You're the only light
That's breaking through the window
There's times I stayed alive for you
There's times I would have died for you
There's times it didn't matter at all

Will you help find the right way up
Or let me take the wrong way down
Will you straighten me out or make me take the long way around
I took the low road in
I'll take the high road out
I'll do whatever it takes to be the mistake you can't live without

Well I'm not gonna give it away
Not gonna let it go just to wake up someday
Gone, gone
The worst part is looking back and knowing that
I was wrong

Help me find the right way up
Or let me take the wrong way down
Will you straighten me out
Or make me take the long way around
I took the low road in
I'll take the high road out
I'll do whatever it takes to be the mistake you can't live without
I'll do whatever it takes to be the mistake you can't live without

Each day the distance seems greater
For I am here and you are there
I just wish you knew how much I cared
And how I wish I could be there
This love stuff is a fickle thing
Made even harder by the distance that it brings
Though it is hard, some things I know are true
I love your smile, I love your hair, and I love you
Those things will never change
My love for you will remain the same
Because without you, my world is dark
And I’m going home from a party with some guy named Mark
Then we have a one-night stand
And I know it’s only because I liked his band
Except, they weren’t that good, I was just drunk
Thank God it was him on top; he hit his head on the top bunk
The ***, it ******, he couldn’t get it up
He just passed out after he peed in a cup
He thought it was great so at least he was happy
I was left to pass out on the couch and feel rather ******
Then it’d be the morning after
And he’d be thinking “Why’d I nail her”
And I’d be thinking “I’m such a *****”
Then he’d walk out the door
And I’d be left here just wanting a hug
That’s when I’d wish I had a pug
Which I think is a rather cute dog
But, some people would rather look at a hog
Now look what I’ve done here
This poem was supposed to be real and now it’s just silly
And now I just lost my rhyme scheme
Looks like I’ve ruined it completely
I guess I could just start again
That would require me to pick up a pen
Even though I’m typing right now
I wish I could end this with a pow
So, I’ll go back to my original lines
I wish you could be mine
Because I care about you a lot
Without you I want not
These things will remain true
I love your smile, I love your hair, and I love you

A love so sweet
has now turned sour
I'm at the window
you walking to your car
Tears in my eyes
like the rain falling on yours
what went wrong?
I ask, the tears falling fast
what did I do?
You slam your hands on the steering wheel
Driving dangerously fast
You call me
I ignore it
Unable to utter a sound
The love we had, where did it go?
It has turned to anger
Fists in the air; voices raised high
why were we fighting?
I can't even remember
what made me do that?
You ask yourself as you drive
dangerously fast
without a destination, just driving
I cry on the floor, thinking you're gone
you took my heart with you when you left
Will I get it back?
You pull over, trying to think
I'm the love of your life, and you just left me
Your face goes white and you turn around
Driving fast
Dangerously fast
You call, I don't answer
You leave a message
"I love you, baby, and I'm sorry.
I'm comin home, please let me back in."
I cry more
I'm so happy you're coming home
I call you
I'm sorry too, I say
I didn't mean the words I said tonight
I never want to be without you
Both of us crying, proclaiming our love
I love you baby, you say
Till death do us part
You cry, tears clouding your eyes
driving dangerously fast
I say, a smile on my face
Till death do us part

Sick and down
But, you're there to help
Words cannot describe
This gratitude inside
It makes me want to cry
I'll never be sick alone again.

My head pounding
My palms sweating
But, you're there brushing my hair away
From my eyes so I can see
Even when I'm as sick as can be.

Half expected you to leave
While I rest and sleep
But, here you are
Calling me beautiful
Through the sweat and the bed head
Through the runny nose and the bad breath.

Take me to the doctor's
Not just handing me the keys
I'm not used to someone being good to me.

The mere thought
What a beautiful thought indeed
Just a thought of you
A ray of sun on a cloudy day
I know this sounds cliche
But every word rings true within me.

A smile comes to my face
Every time you look my way
A smile that won't seem to shake
Resonating in my soul
Your words so deep and so true
You've changed my life
This is my ode to you.

The games we play
It's all fun, sure
But nothing beats that moment
In all seriousness you look
My eyes into yours
Reading my mind
The kisses so sweet
The feeling can't be beat.

So safe and warm in your arms
My favorite place to be
If you could hold me forever
Keeping me and protecting me
I'd have it no other way
Whether I'm crying or smiling
Paradise is found inside your arms.

Difficulties have arisen
Most of them my doing, I know
But, you've stayed for the long run
Holding my hand when I begin to fall
I wouldn't be the same without you, my dear
Day by day I see a little more clear
Our life together in the future
Yes, I know I'm sure
Marry me, my love
Not now, of course
Wait for the time
Just be with me
I'll be yours and you'll be mine.

Your breath across my neck
Sending shivers down my spine
Sweet nothings you whisper to me
You love me
You hold me
My own piece of heaven on Earth
A gift of God, you are to me
Sent for me and only me.

This ode to you
I could go on
My love for you will continue strong
Until I die
You will be my love, my life
How do you end a thing such as this
For a man such as you
So kind and so true
Only one way seems fitting
Darling, I love you.

Waitin', watchin' the clock, it's four o'clock, it's got to stop
Tell him, take no more, she practices her speech
As he opens the door, she rolls over...
Pretends to sleep as he looks her over

She lies and says she's in love with him, can't find a better man...
She dreams in color, she dreams in red, can't find a better man...
Can't find a better man
Can't find a better man
Ohh...

Talkin' to herself, there's no one else who needs to know...
She tells herself, oh...
Memories back when she was bold and strong
And waiting for the world to come along...
Swears she knew it, now she swears he's gone

She lies and says she's in love with him, can't find a better man...
She dreams in color, she dreams in red, can't find a better man...
She lies and says she still loves him, can't find a better man...
She dreams in color, she dreams in red, can't find a better man...
Can't find a better man
Can't find a better man
Yeah...

She loved him, yeah... she don't want to leave this way
She feeds him, yeah... that's why she'll be back again

Can't find a better man

Writing ad lib, thinking of  you
Trying to find the right words
To tell how much I'm missing you
Trying to find what to do
To lessen the pain of missing you.

Is there anything else I can do
But sit here and write?
Is there anything else I can say
Except that simple three word phrase?
Oh, my love, please know it is true
I love you and I miss you.

Counting days, how long has it been?
I'll be by your side and you by mine
Soon, love, soon
I'll see your handsome face, your lovely smile
And you'll see mine, dear
You'll see mine.

Life is short lived
So is our time
But soon, dear, I'll see your eyes
And you'll soon see mine
With all of this in mind
Believe me, darling, when I say
I love you
and
I miss you.

One thing after another
One strike
Two strike
Three
Though it may not seem
I'm as grateful as can be
For the things that you do
And the things that you've done
The words "Thank you" are never enough
And they never have been
Because two little words can't encompass the feeling
Of not knowing what to do
If I were without you
From day one you held my hand
And taught me how to stand
Tall and proud and as confident as I can
Through the bumps and the bruises
And everything that confuses
The one I can count on
Because you're always there
And it kills me to hurt you
Because I never meant to do so
Some things I know have been stupid
Some things never needed to be disputed
I just want you to know
That as I sit here and cry
Please know that I'm trying
I've tried so hard over the years
Despite all of the times I caused you tears
No matter what words I say
They could never truly explain
The bond between mother and daughter
The feeling of appreciation and thankfulness
Until then I guess I will have to settle
For the two words that everyone can use
Thank you.

Now the past is gone
And who would have thought
The cards would be played like this
So many things I no longer miss
Because I have better
We have better
Through all of the tears
It all comes to this
A feeling so right
No feelings feel wrong
Cast away fear and leap
This time someone will catch me
For so long I made the ground my home
Beaten down, I **** near drowned
In my own sorrow
Now there's no more ground
And I feel safe and sound
I'm finally safe and sound.

My knees feel weak
My heart is all a flutter
I look down at my dress and smile
You stand there
Waiting for me
A smile on your face
Never to fade
I take deep breaths
A tear runs down my cheek
I’ve never been this happy
The time is finally here
I look in the mirror and wonder if it’s a dream
You look so handsome
In your suit and tie
You straighten your tie
And smile wide
Our wedding day
It’s here
Our love wasn’t just a dream
I stand and wait
The veil over my face
The door are opened and everyone stands
People cry and people smile
I walk past
Doing the same
I see you and I cry
Tears of happiness
Knowing that you will be my husband
And that I will be your wife
Your eyes light up
As you see me walk down the aisle
Misty-eyed you smile at me
Mouthing “I love you”
I reach the altar and you lift my veil and kiss my hand
I smile
You smile
Everyone is smiling
The vows are said
We love each other
We couldn’t live without each other
I would die for you
You would die for me
I’ve never loved someone so much
You’ve never been happier
We’ll be together forever
Until death do us part
You put the ring on my finger
I cry some more
I put the band on your finger
A tear falls down your cheek
“You may kiss the bride”
We kiss….a wonderful kiss
I see our life in that kiss
I see the love
Sitting on the front porch early in the morning
Sipping our coffee
Late night movies
Curled up by a fire
I see the fights
Money
Jobs
Things that won’t matter
But, most of all
I see our happiness
The mornings
We wake up and smile knowing we’re with each other
Knowing we’re madly in love
The kisses
The gentle touches
Our love is a great love
One this day, our wedding day
I love you more than ever
I am yours and you are mine
When that kiss ends
I see your tear stained eyes
And you see mine
We smile and walk down the aisle
You take me in your arms
And I take you in mine
An embrace full of love
We kiss again
And I know now
Our love
Forever this will be

One by one
Trying to make the pieces fit
Of what is left of it
My heart, my mind, my soul, my trust
Shattered.
Now just scrambling
Until the day that I feel better.

What do you take for granted?

The illiterate
Unable to read
Unable to write
Communication is dead

What do you take for granted?

The blind
Unable to see the world around
Seeing beauty inside
But, never out.

What do you take for granted?

The deaf
Music is gone
Voices are nothing
Never knowing sound

What do you take for granted?

The mute
A voice that is lost
No singing that song
Vocal expression...gone

What do you take for granted?

The roof over your head
Shelter from the rain
A place to lay your head
Shelter from the pain

What do you take for granted?

Loved ones
The ones there for you
Helping you through
Without...you are alone

What do you take for granted?

The beauty of life
Everything.

When something so precious
Becomes so hard to find
It's amazing the things people will do
When pushed to the limit
Of needing the necessities
When there is not such thing as niceties.

Land that's barren and dry
No civilization for miles and miles
There are no such thing as smiles
Just brutality and killing and stealing
It seems there's no longer such thing as feeling.

In this land of crazy there's one who can help
They call him "The Warrior"
There's no doubt he's as crazy as the rest
But, maybe, just maybe he's a little different at best
He's done great things and helped the many
Maybe if we had more warriors
Maybe, just maybe, people could rest.

Like a caged bird
I stare out the window
Wishing for more
All I can do with this sore
Scratching the itch again and again
Infection seeps in and feeds
Off this soul that is no longer
Suffocating me
Struggling to breathe
Just wanting to be free
From this pain
All this negativity
It suffocates my brain
What once used to pleasure
Now a chore
Here with myself
Suffocating more
Or is it someone else's hands around my neck
Choking the life from this being
Breath after breath
My soul is gasping
Suffocating from the pain
Shallow breath and cold sweat
Fear no longer this death
Welcomed messenger
Bringing me news of salvation

Rest your weary bones, my love
For tomorrow the work begins
Goodbye is just the start
For us two, connected at the heart.

The tears may shed tonight, my dear
Not only yours but, mine
On this, our last night
Our last night.

Close your eyes and I shall be there
Wrapped in our warm embrace
Giving your lips a gentle taste.

Now as I write this the tears flow down
As you lay next to me, snoring loud.
Who would have thought that I'd miss the sound.

My love, oh, my love...



I shall wait for you, my dear
Always waiting to be near.
Always waiting for the next embrace...

On this our last night I write
About our last night I write
With a smile upon my face
For tomorrow will come with haste...

You're resting now, love
Something I will not do tonight
For the thought of you gone leaves me torn
My mind not sheltered from the storm.

So, I say, rest your weary bones, my dear
For the ending time is drawing near.
Be prepared for what lies before us
I know it will be hard
But, we are connected at the heart
I know it will be hard to part
Not yet, love, not yet
For now rest those weary bones, my dear.

I try to hide my pain with humor
Cuz' I think the pain will end sooner
Rather than later but,
All the pain is doin is sittin and festerin
Cuz' the only person I'm fooling is myself
And even I'm not totally convinced
So just stop this ****.
Let it out and let it breathe
Because that's all you need
Don't be scared to be free
Of the pain and insanity
Of every day to day worry and fear
Those are what got you here.
So, let them go and live your life
Give it a second try
Because you have too much to give up now
Go ahead and make that vow
To get serious now
Because you're still young
But, youth doesn't last
Make the most of it before it's past.

The only thing holding us together
Is each other.

The hope that you'll be there when the day ends
To hold and to kiss until the world ends.

The hope that after the dreary school day
After the miserable work night
That we'll be there together at the end.

The world always seems better when  you aren't alone
Because then it isn't just you holding you together
The burden is split
And though, sometimes it may not seem like a lot
It really is the world
And it really is everything.

The only thing holding us together is each other.

Now we have lived a life together
Our life has been happy
Through triumphs and strife we have stood by
We’ve been by each other through it all
Our love was long and still is
My life has ended
But, I can tell you this
I still love you
I pray every day that you can still feel me there beside you
Because I am
I am with you, forever and always
Our love has not died
Death could not destroy this
I see you cry at night
And I wish I could help you
It tears me open every time I see you cry
But, forever, I will be by your side
I sit at the table with you
I eat breakfast with you
I sleep with you
Forever by your side
I wish you to not mourn for me, my love
For I am right here
I know your heart is breaking
For mine is breaking, too
Our hearts, torn in two
I ask you to remember our memories
Remember the long nights alone
Our wedding, the proclamation of our everlasting love
The countless vacations spent together
Remember it all
Relive it all
Though we are in two different worlds
Our love is still
It will never die

I could write an angry rant
I could sing a sad song
But, it wouldn't make any sense
Because there's nothing wrong
I've got the wind under my wings
And my salt to my pepper shakers
No more games
That ain't my name
This won't be my name
For long
Because I've long moved on
I've long been gone
Off to paradise
Where the birds are singing
And the sun never stops shining
So bright the light puts a gleam in my eye
I'm so high I bet I could touch the sky
High on life
Don't need any extracurricular activities
When I've got something life changing like theory of relativity
It makes life feel a sense of simplicity
Something I have never felt before
It's like I can soar
Through the sky and touch the stars
No longer confined to a jar
Of my own inhibition
It's time to start the ignition and say go
Leap without a care
All I'll be hitting is air
Now there's nothing wrong with me
I'm exactly where and who I'm supposed to be.

A ray of light, shining bright
On my windowsill
Late at night
How? You ask
Could this be so?
The moon, the sun
The stars shining in the sky
Do not compare to the shine in your eyes
Lighting our way
Can't you see?
Clearly we are truly meant to be
Nothing compares to your eyes and mine
When beheld is each other
Only seeing one another
Shining so bright
Envy held in the stars at night
Even the sun hasn't seen this bright of a sight
As dark as it may be
Light left to find in our eyes
I find yours and you find mine
All we need are each others' eyes.

When he looks at me
I can see the change within his eyes
A tenderness that no one can deny
When he utters those words
I can hear it in his voice.

When he looks at me
Its like he sees my every move
And I know there's nothing I have to prove
When he kisses my lips
I can feel it in his kiss.

When he looks at me
Now this only sometimes
There's a hunger inside his eyes
That only I can satisfy
But, that's only sometimes.

I can see it in his eyes
When they light up at my sight
I can feel it in his kiss
So tender and so swift
I can hear it in his voice
When he utters those few words
"I love you, babe"
And that's when I know that it is true.

And, baby, I love you, too.

Open up
Face your fear
Lose it.

Lose yourself
Cherish someone
Lose the fear.

Trust yourself
Trust him
Trust her.

Be their's
Be your's
Be mine.

This feeling
This new feeling
What is it?

What is it about this
That puzzles me so
Intriguing





Intimacy.

There was so many words not spoken
Between you and me
Before you left it could have been
You said you’d be back
But that’s not to be
I know my thoughts are getting to you
Some way or another, I know they are
There’s still that one connection
The little thread between dream and reality
I can feel it
If only I could see you one last time
To tell you those three words that mean the most
The only three we haven’t said
I wish I could feel your arms around me one last time
I know that can’t be
I just wish that you knew
That I love you

Feel the heat
My body against yours, pinning you to the wall
My kiss, electrifying, quick with passion
The look in my eyes, burning with a fiery desire
A hunger that must be satisfied
You pull me close
I feel you grow on me
Your hands ravaging my body
I can't catch my breath
Off comes my shirt, see it lay on the floor
Yours soon joins, and then more
Our naked bodies pressed together
You can control it no longer
Pulling me up, my legs wrapped around you
You lead me to the bed
The blank canvas on which we will paint our love
You kiss me all over, making my body tingle
From my lips to my neck, making me moan with pleasure
Your hands caress and rub, making me squirm
Your kisses go lower and lower
Until I scream out of delight
You taste me and lick me
My hands in your hair, my head thrown back
It couldn't get any better
I see you sit up and I look in your eyes
Your animal instinct, failing to hide
You pounce on me and I feel you inside
My legs wrapped around you, your hips going deep
We share a kiss, breathless and wild, you biting my lip
Your movements get quicker, my hips move with yours
My nails dig into your back, your teeth in my neck
Both of us close now
Me screaming your name
We both yell out, with one final ******, no longer two people, just only one
Our moans soon quiet as you fall limp in my arms
Both of us breathless
You wrapped in my arms
We kiss a soft kiss
You roll on your side
We face one another and stare into our eyes
You graze your hand along my cheek
I move in closer, our legs intertwined
You kiss my lips softly and I close my eyes
Pulling me to you, my head on your chest, a kiss on the head
Before a whisper befalls my ear
"My one and only, my love, my angel, goodnight."