Since Your soul was sad and
Longed for me
My goal in life will forever be
To open Your eyes to
See Your beauty

Your wings will spread and
Take fairy flight
You are a perfect pixie in the night
You dance with the wind
As a butterfly kite and
Waltz with the moon
By his lunar light

Playful and impish
Your smile breaks the sorrow
We no longer must wish
For a happier tomorrow
We are together today

The magic in me comes from the
Power in She
Her supernatural spirit
Fills me with energy
A kind before I'd never conceived

She is a safe siren for me
That has intervened and
Showed me an entirely
Surreal state of being
So much so I question my sanity

Each morning awakened by Your face
A golden glow that fills my empty space
I will know I'm not crazy when I say
We were formed as corresponding shapes
Together as one We were carved from clay
[sorry Ben gibbard ;) <3]

Separated before but joined at last
Our future is now and
We forgive Our pasts
We will take it as lessons and shadows cast
Our presence together is infinite and vast

I am the sun and
You are the moon
In a constant chase
Keeping you on the move
If you slow the race and
Let me catch up with you
I promise to bring
Us something brand new

Do you believe and trust that it's true?
That I can Your super glue
Keep You from breaking apart when You're blue
Hold You together like
Wood and screws at
Your splitting seams

You are the rafters and
Beams above me
My comfort and
Structure resounding
A beautiful building of safety
Surrounding my love
Creating shelter and serenity

You are my sweetie
My darling
My baby
When You hear this my dear
I am hoping that maybe
You will open your arms and
Embrace these feelings
You are the aura
With which I want to be

I want you to understand
I don't need you to lend a hand
Your absence pulls my chest apart
I need you to lend your heart

I don't think I will ever understand
Why my heart fits perfectly in the palm of your hand
You hold it unpinned from my sleeve
Leaving me with my red stain vacancy

Reached through my ribs to apprehend
You took my love my skin won't mend
My soul won't send or receive signals

Grabbed hard squeezed tight
Grasped hugs felt right
Got greedy with your need
But never gave it back to me

Not a fair trade
More like a shady drug deal
You got the goods and
I got the grief to feel

So you see I'm empty
I want you to break open your body
Our transaction is incomplete
You have mine so swap your pulse out
So I can have a beat

I've fallen down I cannot stand
I don't need you to lend a hand
My blood is still and needs to start
I need you to lend a heart
I need you to lend your heart

Blessed be the death of me
The one and only holy thing I will ever do
Grant me the grace to save face
I loved you all but it's just too much
I've never seen divinity in your trinity
There is a holy war being fought inside my heart
There are wicked angels
Wearing fire halos flying around my head
Threatening to crash and
Burn my mind and
Inside out from my chest
An unwelcome spiritual dissent
I have no faith in your god fearing fathers
I will humbly halve my heart
For the lack of all healing
None of us are righteous rebels
We all stab each other with our sins
With grins on our faces
Great gleaming deceptive teeth bite
Tears tear from my eyes like paper
Rip the pages out of your bibles and
Write a brand new blasphemy
Vile sacrilegious lies with sight glaring
Irreverent immoral makeshift innocence
Devout glory for the ignorant many
Forced fury for the unfaithful few
Hallowed be thy name
Messianic pure morality
Saint sacrosanct
I pray to the sun to extinguish
Or explode to end my anguish
The only thing I truly believe
Is blessed be the death of me

Chances are you've changed your plans again and
I'm betting I'm no longer a part of them

So I stand still and
You go steady
I guess you thought my friendship needed a vacancy
As if we could have too many
Reach a maximum occupancy
Exceed the optimum capacity

I have to say I'm not surprised
I've been told bigger lies
I often wonder why our pants aren't on fire
Isn't that what we used to say to each other?

Liar liar

You're too busy and
I'm too guilty
Ultimately
I don't really want you to be this happy
That says less about you and more about me than
I love you
Ever did

I'm sorry you had to babysit
My infantile intake of insults
Never ceasing to receive the same results
I just wish you wouldn't insist it was only my fault

Be honest
It wasn't just me who crossed the line
I was never leaving lies behind
When you found out you just said
You'll be fine

Liar liar

Go get married and have two kids
A few years from now you can tell me how it is
I won't know how it feels to repeal vows
Wedding band wasteland
What wonderful self worth we might have

Ill hang out here near the exit
Loitering through life and
Longing for the opportunity to
No longer want to be loved
When the fire crashes down from above
I will look to the sky and whisper
"Best friends forever"
Aflame at last

Liar liar

Take a deep breath
The kind that fills your chest
Puffs you up proud
You've always known your strong suit
That royal flush tuxedo you wear
Bearing the crest of failure and regret
You feel so formal sporting it
A fancy way of hiding your true shame
This isn't the poker game you wanted to play
But regardless it's Texas hold you down and
You're friends are the jokers wild
Time to show em whose best
Lay your cards down

The elderly skin on my heart
Is thin but will no longer stretch tight again
Like a baby girls innocent cheeks grin
My senior citizen love comes at no discount

It's free to anyone who wishes to
Count the wrinkles on my arms and legs
The scars of time
Face it
Age is not a number it's a place

The youth of my youngness short lived
Took a toll on my skeleton
Bare ***** attitude toward commitment
I give it away as skin cells turned to dust
Never would've guessed it would be
In my chest

I still have a certain amount of elegance
There's a smaller fire in my heart sight
Kept my cardiac eyes as peeled as I could

The fight fought genuinely
But never without naïveté
How can it be this shocking?
The overall life EKG

Oh I know I'm only twenty something
Don't think I'm trying to act mature
You've made it clear I'm another heart sore
But your words bounce around my skull and
In my chest

Age is ageless memories
Numbers are mathematics
My heart attack tactics
Have grown my heart love decrepit old
So if you hold my hearts hand
Stand for something
Please

If I hold your hand and
You flow through my heart
Understand I'm more than willing to
Start again from day one again

Just forgive the crevices in my sternum permeating my heart skin

I am the emotional roller coaster
You no longer wish to ride
I am the operator
Pushing levers that leave
Devastation
Sadness
Lies
I lie to myself every time I say I'm
Not in love with you
True I've tried to shake it
But I'm not a wet dog
Though I look it
This wet tear soaked fear
Cannot be shaken off
I feel the scoff you make
At my heartbreak
You see the subtraction
I draw like a backwards mathematician
We will never work and
I'm aware of that being manual labor
I'm under construction
Or rather the pre build destruction
Precisely timed building demolition
Once I've leveled myself and my head
We can start from the ground up again