Love is ever changing clouds

At times a blanket that shrouds
Completely surrounding
With a gentle warming

but

Then it grows dark and
Cries out and
Bites down with
Razor rain

Screaming and shouting
Hollowing You out
Filling You with doubt

An overcast obscurity
A vapor veil
A growing gloom
A murky mist in moonlight

then

Morning comes clear and cloudless
You wish for shade or
An overshadowing fog
But this clarity is loveless

The sun blinks out
Everything extinguished
An enveloping eclipse

All is taken away
An illusion
Blotted out for now
The edges still shine rays

Bringing an amber overhead glow
A burning buttermilk sky
Now I see what they mean by cloud nine

Heaven is mine in peaceful paradise
A blissfulness that burns true and
Shoots me over the moon

and

Comes from only
Seeing and
Loving and
Being with the
Weather that is
You

Once upon a time in spring
While red roses aroused in flowering
A seed was planted
A prime source for
A coming fount of love

What better time than now?
For Our roots to rise upward
As We become entangled
Twisting to break free from the ground
Hatching the stem to bring Us to light

We arise to the welcoming sun
Standing before the lake below
Our senses tingling in anticipation
Of the emotion before Us

To find love We must begin
To take the plunge
So take my hand
We'll jump the cliff and
Wake the water and
Submerse Ourselves in each other

Now lust has commenced and
We've birthed Our commitment
With each rejuvenating gesture
As companions We climb closer
To the surface of Our desire

Soon summer sighs
As We lock eyes laying in the grass
A vibrance of color surrounds
A resounding chorus of nature and laughter all around

The sun can hide behind the clouds
Because Your smile shines
Eventually the heat will break that shroud
But not now

We have saved the daylight
Sealing each moment with Our lips
We are the finest development
Of what it feels to find perfection

Or so We both thought
With Our bodies in a bind
Our future is what We had and fought for
We are beauty prior to decline

The breeze is blowing through Our sentiment
A crisp bite of a coming closing cold
We still held on tight to it

But we sank and resurfaced and
Burned Our adoration unknown
Of the fast fall

Autumn sets in
Bringing an aura that hangs
As the harvest yields nothing for Us

Our hearts remain aligned
But restlessness runs through the back of Our minds
We couldn't foresee Our experience would have consequence
We moved too quick while jumping to conclusions

When We're in need
The speed of living only happens at one pace
With a chance meeting
We are now reaping what We've sown

If We could have seen the repercussions
That would inevitably sprout from that seed
Would We return to our lonely buried discussions?
Be sure to never allow results like these again

Instead Our memories cling to the trees
With each leaf falling one by one
Every kiss and embrace suffocating the earth
The temperature spirals steadily downward

The first winter frost befalls Us
The flakes descending to
Freeze Our feelings in time

We follow fate
We decline

Drifting away
Drowning in Our decay
Of snow and ice that
Finally took the life and
Left Us alone again

Our dreary adversity was over
In cold inertia
We are still in the night

Spring showers fed budding love
Summer gave time to grow
But in autumn it seemed appropriate We'd fall and
Hit a weeping winter wall

These patterns repeat
Maybe We rushed and
Shouldn't have hurried

We dove so deep into We
It worked well periodically
But We were suffocating

Our eyes began wandering
Our questions and thoughts
Recurring

Was it worth it?
A yearlong parallel of the weather
We parted ways in frigid fashion
But there's always another new coming season

So as the sky now sprinkles it's mist
The scent of soil rises to replenish
I carve a bed into this ground once more and
Wait for the next shower
To bring me a mate with whom I can share this flower

As my cold air lungs collapse
My last frozen breath escapes my lips
I lay here dying all alone
Calling out to the falling snow

These winter woods are now my home
A bed of ice upon the ground
Myself a ghost to forever roam
Not a soul for miles around
I won't be found

The frigid frost is a blanket for my feelings
I've become numb to the bone
At first an uncomfortable chill
I've lost the ability to feel anything
This arctic atmosphere kills
I am coming toward comatose

My frame now rooted turned to stone
My hands are rigid and lifeless
My icy eyes are glazed and glaring
My being paralyzed by this piercing place

It's biting down and penetrating
Cutting with bitter precision
My condition desolate and dismal

A final shiver forbidding
One last winter whimper
As senses fail I fall
Buried by the blessed blizzard
A sacred silence ensues

What greater gift could be given to me
Than that of a canvas staring blankly
Awaiting it's first brushstroke
In a flash a slash of color across its face

This potential has been placed before me
Like a puzzle piece from my memory
I will fill this void with my living energy
I will compose music for your eyes to see
I will write poetry for your heart to read visually

The power in my hands to put pigment upon paper
To portray a picture that depicts my inner nature
It's a purely creative endeavor

I pour myself into the paint
Each masterpiece contains part of me

In harmonious rhythm
I stain to stimulate
I dye to add drama
I shade to give grace

With an acrylic aesthetic
A cosmetic elegance
An oil overlay
A washing watercolor
The media is mine to design
Each line to represent my life

My gallery tells a story
Ever changing and growing
Forever framing and flowing
To draft love in a sensitive showing
Of my true self in painting

Where are You going?
It's been so long headed nowhere
So will You call me when You get there?
Cause I can't follow You anymore

It's aimless when You're wandering
It leaves me helpless and wondering
If what I do will change anything
Because it's never aided Your suffering

Wouldn't it be great if my words were pills to alleviate?
If my syllables were a remedy to rebuild You to Your proper state
If each letter was water to rehydrate

But both of us know that there's no healing in prose
Unless You let the lines linger and see the significance they show and
Allow the implication of their meaning
To bring truth and understanding

But You never do

We've both become a living testament
Of how some people can only speak in argument
When Your words quickly change from night to day
You never say what You mean, You rarely mean what You say

Lust before trust has always been a failing policy
Love without devotion is a guaranteed fallacy
You've only been my companion intermittently
It's becoming too much to handle wondering where You could be
And
With whom

So I want to be able to see as far as the sky can see
Because only then would You always be within eyesight of me
But if I gaze too long my heaven starts to bruise and
Slams down upon me in black and blue

You can't run before You walk
If We start at a crawl
We tried to sprint to race the clock
But in turn We had to stumble and fall
We couldn't chase the embrace that made Us seem reborn
It was a fleeting feeling from failing hearts We'd torn
Your eyes were constantly shifting searching for more and more and
Soon I felt like nothing I could do was right for You, the now is now, no it's not like before

I thought my heart would explode if I saw You
But then I did, and I didn't even miss You
We caught a glance, and I barely recognized You and
For a moment, our romance was never true

You gave the look that You give to every passerby
I stood frozen feeling fear that I'd start asking why
We didn't last, didn't work, didn't work out
Instead that glimpse replenished me with promise, no doubt

In my mind and in my heart and in the now I know this
We're so much different when together and We didn't notice
We'd slowly surely grow apart from what We thought We wanted
We need no one to justify ourselves but always counted

On each other to provide the pieces that were missing
But truth be told, We were whole, and only reminiscing
On love that's passed, We moved too fast and ended in disaster
You poked and prodded, burned and bothered, You became my master

You kept me going but were slowing down my sense of safety
The wounds kept healing but the scars remain to tell the story
Of a boy and girl who fell in love and planned to marry
Through thick and thin they'd be together until they were buried

But sure enough You did your worst and I just couldn't take it
I packed my bags and left and moved ahead without a ticket
Didn't know where I was going but it didn't matter
Hoping that I had escaped before my heart had shattered

When things get bad and sometimes  worse I tend to think of You
Your mental image branded on me (and within me) but it isn't true
That calling You and running back will help, I doubt You've changed
I can't forgive You, though I want to, so it's here I'll stay

It's been so long, I'm moving on and since I've found another
It isn't perfect, doesn't need to be we have each other
We aren't like we were and we both agree that we'll have battles
But in the end we will be fine when all the dust has settled :)