In mutual misery, we found it comforting we weren't completely alone
We were planning, preparing and speaking and sharing, there was much we had yet to be shown
We harnessed our sadness, and all of our madness, and blinded and beat down our angst
But beneath our belligerence there was a persistent longing for future and change

We both were pent up, and fully fed up, and said 'we'll get the hell out of this town'
If just for a short time, we'll hop in and start driving west with intentions unknown and
Probably, maybe, we'll find ourselves saving ourselves by just waiting it out
It seemed so far away when we'd all move together and be happy at home in our house

And
Then out of nowhere, but probably somewhere deep down inside you found fate
You didn't look further than right where you were for her and I must admit you look great and
I can't let jealousy take hold of the best of me, don't think I am trying to blame
I remember you saying that this didn't matter, but now I see it's not the same

In the middle of all this, I was slipping unconsciously under the weight of my thoughts
I knew you'd been set free, and wanted to help me, but I knew not what I sought
I turned down the volume, and in turn was consumed entirely with what I should do
I imagined you smiling, while making new memories, and wanted the same for me too

Your time is now spoken for, not like it was before when weekends were spent working out the kinks
You need her, I know this, I'm trying to show this, with each word and each kiss, I'm missing it all in a blink
I'm sure I'll be ok, I feel better these days, I've learned to let go of my stress
I know in due time I'll be getting what's mine and we both will be at our best

So long story short, I wrote this to report, to say that we will always be fine
Let's try to forget, but have no regrets, and make the most of each moment in time
But try to remember, I'm always around, and want to come down, to the places where you plan to be
We'll share time together, in life and forever, in harmony eternally :)

I feel like I'm the grass and You're the rain, because the only time I grow is when skies are gray
We both know this is true, that I'm brightest when I'm drenched in You and
Now the sun shines and brings the rays, and Your water dries up and the flames will blaze
I need to be soaked in You, to stay alive, or else I'll start dying at the roots, I won't survive
Could have guessed the wind was all it would take, to turn thick to thin and fog to mist and rid me of my haziness
You left too fast and all I ask is give me back my overcast, I get comfort in shade
The heat is beating down and random spots are turning brown
I'm warm on a summers day but that's never been enough to make me ok
I'm dehydrating, with each moment passing, it seems this might be everlasting
We used to have the best front yard on the street, then You left, now it's filled with sticks and leaves, and dirt
I'm weak and withered You know **** well it hurts and
The weeks will pass and the months will turn from the day you let that fire burn
In springtime I hope You'll return with a downpour that will quench my thirst

It may be true that love does not make the world go 'round
But it is the warmth that makes my heartbeats pound
Its force the sun and I the earth turning as it burns
I've been told the bigger they come the harder they hit the ground
But I've found it's the size of your heart that determines to whom you are bound
The dimensions of our bodies serve only as suits to surround our souls
I know a heart that's breaking makes an awful sound
It's a mirror that's shattering and a thousand howling hounds, in mourning

Those wounds will heal, though the pain is profound, and another hearts heat will be coming around

Insatiably You inhale my every remark,
Swallowing each phrase as a personal token for Your own validity
The words bathe in benevolence and the
Sorrow of your guts and lungs;
Churning round, changing from light to dark-
Until You
Regurgitate them maliciously, coming up through Your throat, bypassing every past lump once resting there
Soaring past Your teeth, they grab hold of a few incisors while sailing toward me with a clatter
Chewing straight through me

Insufflate adulation, emanate malevolence

A-L-I-B I know you lie to me
I-R-O-N-I see things quite clear
L-I-A are you still there?
N-U-M be all that you can be 

I see those lies in your eyes,
I despise It insults my intelligence, and,
I watch your pupils they dilate with
Each word you exaggerate,
Fabricate 

I don't ever want to see you again 
I try and I tried but maybe we can't be 
Friends
And I'm addicted to the way you 
Pretend
That everything is alright, when I know 
Different