Your hand is the only that one I want
To rip out this calloused heart
That I've tried to ****

I don't want to write about you,
But I have to,
It's the only way to get you off my mind
The only way to calm the voice inside,
To speak of you, your name, your eyes,
You make me feel fully alive,
I've so much left so say of you, doll,
But I'll say it in time,
Over dinner and a fine white wine
You're mine.

Expecting to wake up,
From this dream of nineteen years.

I walked into class
The students all turned their heads
Do they smell my ****?

Where will you be,
when the sun sets on me?

I am free
Free from the evil thoughts
That corrupted me
Free from the rain
That poured down and covered me
I am free

Roses are red.
Violets are violet
And with all of this *******
I'm about to get violent

School can really make you appreciate a complete, dead silence.

I lost myself in darkness
Trying to find your light

There once was a man who said he threw it all away
And if he could go back that he would have his day
Go on the road, play a thousand shows,
find his love then he'd lead her home

But the man was out of work and the bills weren't getting paid
And he wasn't eating well, and he wasn't getting laid
It's hard in the arts when you're on your own
And your jackets wearing thin, and you're chilled to the bone

He lived inside his head, in a poets masquerade
Not an important man, not a master of his trade
He knew how it felt to be all alone,
If only his name had been better known

Thought he'd take his life, by a gun or by a blade
Make it to the afterlife, with the likes of Kurt Cobain
so he took a hollow point, pulled the trigger with a groan
I hope peace finds him, wherever he may roam

I see you and I
Looking back at me
And I can't help but notice
How happy we look together

It's only you that can bring
That stupid grin to my face
And I fall in love with your face again
When I pour through these albums

It seems so far away now
Because you won't talk to me
And I'm wondering what you're doing
Right now
At this vey moment
As my anxiety piles up
Because you think you're too strong
To let me know what's going on

Why won't you talk to me?
Please,
Just let me know something
Let me know you're okay
Because you frighten me out of my wits
When you do things like this

You think you're a lost cause
Far to broken to fix
And I'm no craftsman, but
I would do anything
To mend that shattered soul of yours

*******,
You're not anything I intended
You to be

What a waste of flesh

There's a fracture in my consciousness
Telling me to move on and forget her
And I'm really trying
But she's still got her hands
Wrapped around my neck
Squeezing as tightly as ever
Just this time from a distance
And on the other side of the barriers
We've built between us
And I'm praying that the hand of god
Will strike me down
Or the epiphany of true wakefulness
Makes it's presence known.

I can only take so much.

Sometimes I feel,
Like a bird waiting on the line,
Waiting, so patiently,
for his time to take flight

To be more than just a bird
Waiting for his flock
to feel light as his feathers,
After carrying many rocks

I am how I see myself,
and in me, I see an eagle
I find my strength within my soul,
Rise from the ashes of the feeble

Spread my wings and soar
to what was once out of reach
You can be enlightened too,
If you practice what you preach

You are your own king,
Don't you turn when that trumpet sounds
You control your own destiny,
Show them why you wear that crown

I barely eat,
I rarely sleep,
But I'm so tired of things
Eating at me.

I wonder if you,
Still think about me at all
Or are you still hiding
Behind two foot thick walls?
I told you I'd catch you
When you began to fall
My only question is
Did you believe me when I called?

Remember to breathe deeply,
Even though the air is poisonous,
It's good to remember your alive.

When I think of you,
I ******* own blood

Deliver me from evil, I know not sins I've wrought

I am sure that
The number of stars in the sky
Doesn't come close to the number
Of times you've crossed my mind

You're the best part of my life
My one unending constant
All the darkness in my mind
Is put at ease by your light

I can practically taste your lips
Pressed against mine
I can feel my hands on your hips
And your breath upon my neckline

But it's the little things you miss
A smile, a text, a tender kiss
Only you can make me feel like this
My mind subsides and I unclench my fist
To hold your hand in mine and know that this
Is the happiest I've ever been

It's all because of you,
All because of eyes so blue
They bring out the truth
And the romantic
In me

I would rather conquer myself,
than win a thousand battles.

I wasn't enough,
I hope she finds what she wants
It's clearly not me

Sinking, sinking,
Further down into nothingness,
I'll fade away,
Slowly

I'd melt you down,
And inject you in my veins

when I envision a happy place,
I envision you and I
In the middle of nowhere
Living quiet peaceful lives
Away from all the lies
And awful times
We shared in the city

I think of the sun shining off your cornea
Blinding me with a tonic blue poison
That runs through my veins and bursts
My heart open with joy
As I tell you I love you again
And you smile

You smile that same, cute little grin
That I always look forward too,
That always comes along
When I read you the poems
That sing your praises

You've made a mark on my heart
Like the ink in my skin
and I know that
It will never be the same

You've colored my soul with hues
That I was once blind too,
And now that I see them,
Your perfect face
Comes into view

You're the embodiment
Of everything I've ever wanted
When we kiss, I feel the fire
That burns in your chest,
Passionate,
And it keeps your lips most pleasantly warm
And I appreciate the taste
Of your naked soul

you've made me happier
Than I've ever been,
And I want to give you the world
for showing me what that means again

I only find solace in you

Send me down the river
And meet me at the end
I'll find your hand beneath this current
And pull you above the surface
So we can swim together
And I'll never let go
So we never drift away again

You wanna talk about it?
I'm begging you to walk in my shoes any time
Watch the clock till you unwind
You wanna cry about it
It's making me consider that I've lost my mind
The way I see you must be blind

As another long night ends,
I hear your voice
Lulling me into
Darkness

The only place I can still kiss you

Today I saw you
For the first time
In months
Oh, how familiar..

The wobbling knees
the shaky breath,
and clammy hands
That all come from being stricken
with love
and lust
And being lost in a feeling of lonely morose
As I watched you walk away.

I don't know where I'm going,
But I'm getting somewhere

My eyes are fluttering
The letters mocking me as I type these
Words
And I feel my head
Crashing towards my desk
In 3, 2...

The ripples spread
From beneath the Oak leaf
That landed on the murky water
And he watches them as they spread,
Further and further
Like family and friends
Growing farther and more distant at the end
But that’s okay
Because beneath these trees,
And the falling leaves,
Sit you and me,
And “We” is all I need.

She took this stagnant heart
And made it beat again
She made the rain clouds disperse
And the sun beam down on me
When she pressed her lips to mine,
for the first time
And I knew this was the start of forever

I feel isolated.
I call to the wind,
Only Echoes...

I'd happily dig your grave,
If you'd fall in it

When I see you I want to *****,
When I'm without you I simply cry
I can't solve these issues in a sonnet,
You've moved on... why can't I?

Dear Megan

I've loved, and I've lost
I've turned, and I've tossed,
You haunt me at night,
When I think you're gone from my heart

tears still come to my eyes,
Every once in a while
When I miss you most,
Is when I listen to all my old CD's

she wants to end her life,
She's miserable, and sad
At the end of the night,
She misses what they had

There's many other lovers,
That come in between
The the memories that haunt her,
Still lay dormant in her dreams
The life that she used to love,
Is falling apart at the seams

She talks to me at night,
I feel as if I'm loved
But I know that she's still crying,
And that I'll never, be enough

I could change your world
With a touch of my lips
And a brush of your hair
I would once again
Be your center of gravity

Know that I love you
More than any crashing wave
Loves the breaking shore.

Perspective pries your once weighty eyes
And gives you wings

You remind my why it is,
That I like being alive

Sometimes I call your voicemail
Just to hear you speak

Soon I'll leave this all behind
I'm California bound

I need freedom
I long for an open road
That leads to Rome
Or anywhere else
I could ever want to go

I feel so confined
These concrete structures keep me in
I need to unwind
Find somewhere I've ever been

I can't stay here anymore

Sometimes
I wonder about
Friendship
The meaning of the word
What friends are worth
And what I'm worth to them

I'm not the type of person to lie,
And tell someone that everything
Is going to be okay
But I tell you that
Because
I can't stand seeing you look so hopeless

I'm at home and I'm lost
In my thoughts again
This is why I hate
Being alone

Alone is when my consciousness
Decides to pick away at me
Pulling apart all the little
Pieces of me

My troubles dance in my brain
My worries wrap their hands
Around my heart
My regrets breathe on the back of my neck
And my suicidal counterpart
Whispers in my ear

No, he doesn't whisper
He screams
Everything that I've tried to forget
He reminds me of
Watching the walls I've built
Fall, crumbling to the earth
He laughs maniacly

He's the part of me that
Tells me to sin
He's the part of me
That won't let me forgive.

In my meditations I hear him call
My name from his place of darkness
Inviting me sweetly
But I know he's got a knife behind his back
And he just longs to see me bleed
And the good parts of me die,
Slowly