We should meet God in the morning and go with him through the day And in the stillness of the night, before our sleep comes we should pray. We should pray that God will take over all the problems we couldn't solve. And  that in the peacefulness of our sleep. Our problems will be resolved. We should pray that when we open our eyes to greet another day. We will find ourselves renewed in strength, because Gods grace has come our way. We should pray that whatever seemed impossible for us to solve alone. That once again we'll be assured by God that we are never on our own. Because if we try to stand alone. We are weak and we will fall. But God is always with us when we feel hopeless lost and small. So no day is unmeetable if we wake up with this thought. We should think to thank God for all the blessings that his loving care has brought. We can never be a failure. Even if we're hopeless unsaved sinners. Because God is the only one who can loser's into winners. So we should meet God in the morning and go with him through the day. And thank him for his guidance each morning when we pray. If we follow faithfully. This daily way to pray. We will never in our lifetime face another hopeless day.               c. R. Mendoza

How the hell can you go to rehab and leave there with a habit. You must have ate a bowl of trix because your one silly *** rabbit. You been in rehab for almost a year and you still gettin' high? You need to just go to the cemetery and lay your *** down and die. Just save your family and friends from anymore of your hurt. Go jump your *** into a grave. Someone else will throw on the dirt. We all know addiction can really be tough as hell. But you have only yourself to blame because only you can make you well. You are constantly playing with your life time and time again. And the one thing we all know about life. It does come to an end. The crazy thing about addiction is that other addicts know when your high. Because the one thing we all know about drugs. The effects do not lie. Stop letting the devil make you feel like you no longer have any worth. Don't give him the pleasure of being the one who helps you leave this earth. Whether or not you believe it. You are a child of God. And God gave us special powers. So we should make the devil's work hard. Your life is worth a whole lot more than any amount of gold. So give your family and friends the pleasure of watching you grow old. You can take the devil out of your life. You can make the devil leave. Just tell God you use to lack faith in him but that now you do believe. R. Mendoza

Dear Mommy come home. Daddy you to. I'm growing up now and I need both of you. I'm really doing good in school and I'm a good child. So please come back home and stay for awhile. Daddy I know you helped to bring me on this earth. But Mommy I know that your the one responsible for my birth. I know Mom and Dad, it's not something that I did. Whatever it is I forgive you. I'll always be your kid. I know I'm only a child but I can help you through this mess. All you have to do is hold me and let me lay upon your chest. Help me with my homework and one day you will see. That both of you Mom and Dad. Will be very proud of me. What ever it is your going through. I hope you find your way. I lay in my bed and pray each night that you'll be back one day. And when you come back it'll be alright. And then I'll be able to sleep at night. R. Mendoza

How do you count all the blessings that are sent from God.        
It becomes to difficult and it seems so hard.                                   You can never count all of his pain when one of us dies.            Or the amount of his tear drops every time he cries.                  You can never measure his smile when a child is born on earth. Or even come up with an amount of what his smile is worth. You can't measure the look on his face or see his scorn.            And we can't measure his hurt when his heart is torn.              We can't count how many times he has picked us up from the ground.                                                          ­                                              
Or all of the hugs he gives us whenever we're down.         There's no way of counting his love or his eternal grace.            Or even how many beautiful stars he has put into space. There's no need to count his blessings or measure his love.    
But it is really important to be grateful for the things that are sent from above.                                                           ­                          The bright green grass and the beautiful sunflowers.                 All the hot summer days and the cool sun showers.                   The subtle spring breeze and the cold winter snow.                  And the beautiful colored leaves when the Autumn winds blow. All the wonderful sounds when the little birds sing.                 And the twinkle in the sky that the night stars bring.             These blessings are endless and they go on and on.                These blessings have been with us since the day we were born. We can never count Gods blessings, but we should be grateful that their here.                                                            ­                     Because God gives us these blessings to show us that he cares. R. Mendoza

Although I met you long ago it seems like we just met. I remember it like it was yesterday. It's a day I'll never forget. But now your here back in my life and it seems just like a dream. But the one thing I always remembered about you were your eyes. They still have that gleam. So now it seems like time stood still so we could meet again. And now this feels just like the beginning of a love that will not end. So I often wonder about this feeling of love that I feel for you. And I often crave for that beautiful feeling of your love that feels so true. But there are days when reality hits and I realize that your not mine. And that maybe the love you had for me has suddenly run out of time. Because some days its not enough time it seems. For us to laugh  and joke and share our dreams. And there's not enough time for us to be. Just a man and a woman. Just you. Just me. And there's not enough time for us to kiss. Or for me to tell you things like this. So if I could. I'd find a way to stop all the clocks on earth today. And then maybe even that won't do. Because I need an eternity for loving you. But if I could love you just for today I think may be then I would be ok. And then when you kiss me I'll know it's right. Because our rekindled love will last all night. R. Mendoza

Sometimes I can't explain the way I feel in my heart.          Because the words are sometimes hard to find and I don't know where to start.                                                           ­                                             But none of that seemed to matter as the two of us spoke the other day.                                                             ­                                      It was like I always knew you and I knew everything to say.    
You have this natural essence about you that in most women is hard to find.                                                            ­                             Plus everything about you says you have a heart that's kind. During the time that we were talking I knew we would meet again.                                                           ­                                   
 Because it seemed like both of us wanted for that talk to never end.                                                             ­                                                So as I sit here and write to you, The words just seem to flow.  
                                                                ­                                                 And although we just met there's no need to take things slow. This feels like the start of something special. its been a wonderful way to begin.                                                           ­           And my heart tells me that this feels right because I just met a new wonderful friend.                                                          ­             True friends are often hard to find so when I met you it seemed surreal.                                                         ­                                         
But the true essence of your spirit told me that you were real.  
So I hope we'll let time determine whether or not we were meant to be.                                                              ­                                    But whatever happens at the end of it all you will still be a friend
to me.     R. Mendoza

I walked through Harlem just the other day. The Harlem I knew as a child has totally gone away. I use to play hooky from school and I ran those streets at night  But now you can't even find a decent street fight. We use have soul food joints all over the place. But now Harlem New York has a different face. Don't get me wrong. I think change is ok. But now there's other people livin' where I use to lay. 125th street just don't look the same. Now all the stores have a different name. There use to be A.J. Lester's and the Record shack. Now all the stores have names that are whack. Now I see an Old Navy store and a Chucky cheese. Can someone tell me where Harlem went please. What happened to the movie theater between 7th and 8th?  Now it sits there just an empty old place. But the Apollo theater still looks good. It's always been the crown jewel of our neighborhood. But I remember when Harlem World was open night and day. Now even that spot is a **** Conway.  Don't get me wrong. It does look nice and pretty. But Harlem use to be its very own city. You knew you were in Harlem when you walked down the street. Because Harlem use to have its own heart beat. But now we can't even afford the rents that they charge. Because everyone knows our pockets ain't that large. I'm afraid I'll go to sleep one night. And when I wake up Harlem will be all white.         c. R. Mendoza