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Dec 2012 · 643
Voiceless
Robyn Dec 2012
My love for others is formed in desperation
I lose myself in the broken valleys of their eyes
Because I've lost you across a pit as wide as beauty
And as deep as jealousy
I fight to keep my independence
By depending on the abandoned and lonely
I'm so tired of you
But I've got no one else
Gloved hands stroke my hair
Yet they are mine
I've created a hand to hold in the winter of my desperation
And it's as cold as everything
I succumb to shameful acts of self fufillment
To protect my heart from the the anguish that awaits me in your arms
But do I know?
Can I know what truly waits in the shadow you cast?
In my desolation, not only did I lose hope
But hope lost me
In a dark world of unfulfilled expecations, their hues biting at me heels
I am lost in the invisible tragedy of the fall
I have succumbed to the despondency
And expect it to suffice
Replace what I refuse and fear to ask you for

Voiceless, I am begging you
Dec 2012 · 413
On a Trek, In a War
Robyn Dec 2012
She writes like she's mad
Though she's not, she's just abandoned
Since the day this began, several choices she's been handed
On this trek through this war, she so longs for a companion
All decisions lead to the same place
All directions will lead to his face
She's fallen in the middle of a race
And there's blood streaming down her face
Dec 2012 · 227
Phillip
Robyn Dec 2012
My life feels like a funeral without you here
He and I wander from place to place
Forever in black
When will you come back?
Everything is slow

New Year's is coming
And I hope you'll be there
Though you have to reason to
How will it be just us two?
It's been 9 years

You were my best friend then
Our best friend
And now you're gone
Has it really been that long?
How much more?
Robyn Dec 2012
I find myself encompassed
By effulgent, glimmering things
Beneath the tree are packages
Atop are angel's wings

I find myself encumbered
With all the charms of love
But in the world that you know
It falls from high above

You sit upon your suitors
Do their tears become your wine?
While you revel in favor
I will alight my shrine

I worship this one god, and by God he shall be mine
Robyn Dec 2012
Eyes closed
Hair on end
Floating ball
Letters send
Not received
Am I dead?
Without luck
Eyes are red
So in love
So alone
Let me hear
Your trombone
3 mores years
Will they pass?
Broken heart
Broken glass
Cold ice cream
Bending cards
Picking up
****** shards
Know my pain
Know my love
Feel me push
Feel me shove
Beryl eyes
Beryl soul
Buried heart
In a hole
God must sneak
Sadistic lies
Into my head
Come from your eyes
Dec 2012 · 856
Clockwork Heart
Robyn Dec 2012
The bronze of a ringed finger
And the gold of God's heart
The silver of Poseidon's eyes
And the red of torn apart
It was made in the cave of a mountain
Foraged from the heart of star
The angels were playing a game
And I suppose they could throw them quite far
An Irishman found the celestial rock
And took home to give to his wife
But on the way o'er the moor he tripped with the star
And fell on a stone like a knife
The star slipped from his grasp and rolled away
Exactly where no man is quite sure
But a hundered and sixty two years after that
It was found by a woman quite pure
She loved how it twinkled and glittered and shined
But her young daughter loved it and whined and whined
So one day the woman, though still pure of heart
Took her young daughter and tore her apart
Arrested and biter the woman was taken
The star underneath her pillow lay shaken
The poor little thing had lost quite a sweet home
Then the poor thing heard a long, lonely drone
Something was coming, something quite frightening
So the little thing rolled away kicking and biting
But stars, the poor things, are quite without eyes
So the star rolled off a cliff, sure of its grim demise
But then it was held softly, by something quite bland
It had been caught, been caught by a hand
The hand took it in to meet its homely face
The face belonged to a young girl of eight
She smiled at the lump of celestial rock
And ran home to the mountain, with only one sock
She gave it to her mother, who worked with polished metal
She cut the rock in half and carved one half into a petal
The other she saved for something quite new
First she took her stone axe and cut down a tall yew
She fastened a clock out of metal and zest
And she shoved the clock right into her young sons chest
It sputtered and spit until his eyes opened wide
And suddenly he stood up and right out he cried
Mother, a new heart, how am I to thank you?
She smiled, took his hand, and wiped tears for her eyes blue
He nodded and began straight to pack up his bags
He piled it on his back and his shoulders did sag
He kissed his mother and sister and began his long trek
Towards the black vast beyond
Toward the world, towards the wreck
He walked for six weeks before he came on a village
He was a kind boy, he had no thought to pillage
He called out quiet loud for everyone's ears
Hello! The boy with the clockwork heart is here!
No one came out, save a beautiful young girl
She looked at him quietly, and she made his head whirl
She asked him if she could feel his heart at work
He nodded and she placed her hand with a smirk
She gasped and she shuddered, her eyes like warm butter
Then she laughed and he let out a chuckle
He kissed her warm lips with his hands on her hips
But then suddenly something made his knees buckle
What's wrong? The girl asked him, a frown on her face
Still with hair soft like wings of a dove
He smiled sadly and laughed again, holding her hands
Dear it's silly, but the clockwork boy has finally found love
Dec 2012 · 618
Watches Her
Robyn Dec 2012
He watches her
Sitting on the sofa
A Pepsi in her lap
Breaking pine needles in her fingers
And drinking in the smell
Her hair is pinned precariously
And her skin is warm and tight
He watches from the window
Then goes off into the night
Dec 2012 · 1.8k
Uncle Visits
Robyn Dec 2012
"Who's this Wyatt?" Brian asked, a smile on his lips.
Hiding my face in my shirt, "No one!", a hand on my head, a twist in my hips.
Dec 2012 · 2.7k
Forest
Robyn Dec 2012
Peacock hues adorn your hair
And curl around the candle flare
Your eyes are emeralds ringed with gold
With fingers wrapped in paper folds
Running through a taller forest
Singing with a choir of blue
The only way that I can walk
Is through a taller forest with you
Robyn Dec 2012
At least 6 years in fact
We grew up as sisters
We made up a pact
We fought when I was little
But as I grew up
We began to calm down
We began to make up
She is older than I
At least 6 years in fact
And our goodbye
Is now drawing near
We have not fought forever
Or that's how it might seem
In fact, it has been 6 to a year
But this morning
Was different
And it's really my fault
I keep taking her things you see
So she barged in at 7
As I still slept
About her things she began to ask me
I said I didn't know
To a point that was true
But about where her things were
I knew, I knew
She said "I won't get mad
If you tell me right now"
I said that I'd look
Through my stuff
If she'd just calm down
So I did and I found at least one of her things
But the other I had no idea
She got angry and went to walk out
I said sorry
But she said
"No you're not"
And left me

And I cried and I cried
I fell down on my knees
Until I stopped because there were no more tears
I was heartbroken and guilty
And it hurt more than really
Because it was the first fight that we've had in years
Dec 2012 · 2.5k
Bad Weather
Robyn Dec 2012
The best time to think about this
This whole love thing
Is in bad weather
When the tall greyness of the sky
Keeps me inside
And the yelping wind scares my heart away
Scares it into thought
And turn
I feel your eyes burn
On the back of my neck
But I turn
And you're not there
Dec 2012 · 611
Listening to her yell
Robyn Dec 2012
She wears tight pants
And a camo hat
Dancing in the living room
On the phone with her husband
And she yells a lot
And brings the toddlers
To ruin all our furniture
She brings huge pans of food
To share for Christmas
And we welcome her and her mess
She's my big sister
And I love listening to her yell
Dec 2012 · 4.0k
Mayan Doomsday Averted
Robyn Dec 2012
You're welcome, Earth.
Dec 2012 · 922
SHE WANTS
Robyn Dec 2012
A cigarette between her lips
Pink like a satin rose
And from her mouth the smoke goes
Floating towards Mother Moon in ringlets
A head of hair like Marilyn
A honey headed luster
With her curls, so still and wild
Eye you like a jaguar child
A nose thin like her fingers
But long like her face
A set of eyes that dance when she doesn't
That shine beryl and jade
With lashes like her fringed boots
And ashes in her hair
She wants a different woman for you
But she still wants to be there
Robyn Dec 2012
You disgust me
Your romantic tendency
Is worthless on this tounge
And your heart says swollen
But it's black as the pitch you roll in
Undecided and misguided
You torture her with words
The sweetest she's ever heard
And confused and refused
She lays her weights on me  
Her tears would blend with mine
If her's weren't thick and mine weren't fine
Dec 2012 · 891
Tom Hazen
Robyn Dec 2012
When will I walk here again?
On this crispy gravel that my blood has spilt upon
That with my cuts have shared their sting
When will I feel this again?
The sharp poke of golden leaves
Raked into a mountain
And fallen like a kingdom
When will I see this again?
I favored the papery tree
Peeling cream sheets of bark
When will I smell this again?
The tang of York patties
The comforting scent of cigarette smoke
It lies in my veins now
When will I see you again?
The greif and ash in the folds of your skin
Your hand clasped around a warm tupperware of tonight's leftovers
Your foggy, yellowed glasses
And the hat I never see underneath
When will I hug you again?
Feel your denim clad arms encircle my growing waist
Feel your tears on my cheeks

For now I stroke your wedding ring
And ask myself questions
Dec 2012 · 365
Tea
Robyn Dec 2012
Tea
Somersaulting on the carpet
Drinking tea out of a can
Thinking of the days when we
Would write our names wrong in the sand
When I cut my foot on beach glass
And you cried your dad to send
His love, I knew then this was forever
That forever we'd be friends
Dec 2012 · 302
Stars
Robyn Dec 2012
Just knowing
The stars are glowing
And you're out there in the glare
That you're thinking
And I'm shrinking
Cause you're not thinking about me
Robyn Dec 2012
In a day of lust and longing
I listened for your step
And now I'm trapped at home
With a nasty case of strep

With all the love I've given
You'd think you'd given in
But if love is what I'm giving
Then love must be a sin
Dec 2012 · 874
Flashback/Deja Vu
Robyn Dec 2012
"I don't look like Snooki, do I?" I asked her, grimacing.
"Of course not! You look hot!" She gleamed with pride. This monstrosity on my head was her doing.
My frown deepened and I stared at my red face in the mirror.
"Beileve me, he's gonna love it."
I forced a smile and asked her to go grab me my purse. As soon as she whipped around the corner, I shut the door and wiped off the eyeliner and lipstick slathered on my face. I zipped up the front of my "zip-all-the-way-down-" shirt that she had lent me, just in time for her to open the door.
She smiled at me again. She didn't notice the difference.
I grabbed my purse from her hand and slung it over my shoulder. My Mom called from the stairway
"Girls! It's time to go!"

She beamed at me again and we ran down the hallway, my left hand placed strategically placed on top of my head ****, as to keep it from sliding right off. My Mom threw us a look; we were already late. I ignored her and bounded down the stairs and out the front door.

Straight into the world of love, abandonment and heartbreak. The world that brought me here. Writing a short anecdote about it, with my hair poofed, makeup slathered, ready to go meet another "him."
I hope he likes it.
Dec 2012 · 307
Think Of Me
Robyn Dec 2012
Crack your neck and write it down
Before it breaks it, twists it round
Turn the lights on, pray for peace
Or I'll be given a peice for free

It's coming for you., I think you know
Misery's waiting out in the snow

So lock the door and think of me
And frozen will be Misery
Dec 2012 · 276
Door's Open
Robyn Dec 2012
Who left the door open?
Who made it snow?
Who told me off?
Who let me go?
******* it, who cares?
Just shut it.
Just go.
Dec 2012 · 547
My Despise
Robyn Dec 2012
With a black dress in my arms
And a black phone in my hand
And a black look in my eyes
I stand outside the class
And nurture my despise
Dec 2012 · 743
Misery
Robyn Dec 2012
Misery
You've never been so good to me
Misery
You've never been so kind
You've stayed awake with me, through all my hardest nights
You've put your arm round me, when he wouldn't look twice

Misery, I beseech thee
Though you've been what holds up my bones
Misery, I am begging
It's time I hold them up on my own
Misery, I know you've set me free
But I didn't ask you to follow me home
Dec 2012 · 386
The Happy Kind of Tears
Robyn Dec 2012
I cannot write about you anymore
I cannot tell our story
Simply because there isn't is one
And I see another being written
One of love and beauty
One of determination and pain
One that ends in tears
The happy kind
Not fears
But it is not mine
I've got too much on my mind
I'd say I've always loved you
But that would be a lie
You frolic in the summer
I'm in the winter of my life
And before you finally love me
I'm half convinced I'll die
Dec 2012 · 547
Hidden
Robyn Dec 2012
I've held in my hands
Lost pieces of a lark
Over the fire they glinted
Vendetta of a broken heart
Earthly goods have worn them down
Yet they still hold their shine
Ours is not existing yet
Unlike you, it's all mine
Why is this my winter?
Yet you feel summer sun
And I curl in my corner
'Til I can hear you come
The way I feel is worthless

L. ove is a fickle mistress
Dec 2012 · 577
We Are Ashamed Of Her
Robyn Dec 2012
She is so hopeless
She is so lost
She cannot write
Because she does not know the cost
She strives to be
Like all of us
But our words sing
And her words rust
With swears and yells
And spelling errors
She thinks that we see beauty
She wants to be like one of us
But writing is our duty
We love her though she's failing
She's making us ashamed
For we all know her
We all read her
So I will not speak her name
Dec 2012 · 962
Circus Freak
Robyn Dec 2012
A tryst between the ring master's daughter and his young apprentice
Goes unfulfilled by the reluctancy of the young  man
And his unspoken, half assumed desire for the girl behind the cotton candy booth
But the ring master's daughter, with her quivering curls
Waits by the zoo tent all night
For a wisp of woebegone love
With a poor, handsome Circus Freak
Dec 2012 · 352
Place Your Bets
Robyn Dec 2012
With the blow to the cheek
With a scream at the meek
With a bruise that I seek
I will stand
With a cut on my face
With (out) a place
With a Judge to my case
I will stand
With a gun to the head
With a prayer for the dead
With everything I've said
I will stand
With a knife twixt my ribs
With my friends and their kids
Gentleman, you may now make your bids
I will stand

With a ***** of your finger
You fall
Dec 2012 · 605
Sweet Temptation
Robyn Dec 2012
Lips of ruby red.
Hair like golden silk, it shines.
Eyes deeper than the sea in which she'll drag you.

Voice so thick and sweet
Like honey made to hear.
She calls your name.
For she is near.

You cry, "My love of sweet Temptation!"

She smiles at her name.
Robyn Dec 2012
The door is open
The cold will creep in
Food on the table
Eat, no one's able
The sun is shining
Behind this dying
And people crying
But no one's dead
I watch the cold come
It warms me up some
And I am crying
But no one's dead
I've pulled my hair out
I've scratched the walls up
I've bit my lips and
They are red
Around me wood rots
Around me cars stop
Around me wolve's jaws
But I'm not dead
I heard you speak this
I felt you feel this
I saw you see this
I felt you die

I'm crying like you're dead, though you're not, you're just indifferent
Dec 2012 · 541
Suicide
Robyn Dec 2012
I find myself a worthy adversary
Though bruises wear my face
I find myself a challenge
A challenge, not a race
I have put up a **** good fight
And still I strive to win
But against myself, win I cannot
Suicide's an ironic sin
Dec 2012 · 781
Bilbo, My Sire
Robyn Dec 2012
I've been waiting months
For the day when
My desire will be quenched
With darkness and popcorn
A crowded room
Of people who disobey
Proved by the small glowing screens around me
And I'll shiver from excitement in my seat
Surrounded by family
In pajamas
With sleep in their eyes
But I do not sleep
I am far too excited
For the day when my Sire
Will return from the Shire
The Hobbit  comes out in less than 12 hours. I cannot wait
Dec 2012 · 345
late at night
Robyn Dec 2012
I find the best place to write
Is under the covers at night
When your Mother pounds her feet past your door
And you're fearful, waiting for more
You hear your Sister come home and strum her guitar
And you try to write late at night
But you cannot write far
Your Father asleep on the couch downstairs
And you write and you write
Though they are not aware
And you must beware
A knock at your door
For when you finally get caught
You cannot write anymore
Dec 2012 · 314
Hey
Robyn Dec 2012
Hey
You said hey
Just a small word
Insignificant to me
Except when you say it
I felt my heart quicken
And heat rise on my face
As I spotted yours
Across the aisle
And you looked at me
Your eyes lit up
And you said hey
To me
And only me
This was written about the same boy whom Me and Only Me is written for. I was in love with him until we took seperate paths and today was the first day I've seen him in almost a year. Please read Me and Only Me for backstory, if you wish.
Dec 2012 · 444
There Can Be No
Robyn Dec 2012
There can be no hell without the hope of salvation
There can be no bliss without the fear of misery
There can be no hate without the promise of atonement
There can be no love without the threat of competition
There can be no peace without the history of war
There can be no war without the intention of peace
There can be no happiness without the guarantee of its absence
There can be no sadness without the choice of its arrival
Dec 2012 · 390
Alone In Loving You
Robyn Dec 2012
She's expected to drink
And she hasn't left a drop in the house
He's expected to leave
And he left the door swinging
They're expected to kiss
But he got her pregnant instead
You're expected to love me
But I think that's a story I read

And it's not true
Because I'm completley alone
In loving you
Dec 2012 · 436
Regret
Robyn Dec 2012
It is with regret that I gave up on you
And it is with regret that I return
Dec 2012 · 585
Quitter
Robyn Dec 2012
It's not my fault you won't reply
It's not my fault you're bitter
But you don't and you're not and I seem to recall
That's it's me who is the quitter
Dec 2012 · 680
My Doctor
Robyn Dec 2012
I'd open with a Dear or Love
I think I'd say I love you
But the truth is not between your lungs
The truth is high above you
The days of late we have converged
Inside the smallest room
I'd glance at you and hear you laugh
Her face would bring me gloom
I've wanted to say this for some time
I've felt it even longer
But with each darkened day that falls
My lips become weaker, not stronger
I use this letter to save my lips
From letting certain secrets slip
And use my fingers to write you this
Though I doubt you'll read it
The thought of holding you to me
Brings me these pleasant shudders
But when I think to ask you for it
Only silence my lips sputter
You are all I've asked for
But not what I thought I'd need
I've never been one to follow
The rules I do not heed
I imagined you much different
But with still the same wonder
You're caliber of similarity
Has torn my head asunder
Your beauty has no ends it seems
Though you do not uphold it
You only show it when you sing
And it alights my spirit
I've know you all my life in dreams
My patience broken like a bough
If I told you, you might appear confused
And you might ask me how
I'd smile sweetly and sit you down
Then it would never be the same
After I said I'd known you all my life
But I had never known your name
Dec 2012 · 544
Fight
Robyn Dec 2012
My Father said it would be hard
My Mother said have fun
But what  they didn't think to tell me
Was that battles weren't always won
My Sister couldn't really care
Now that she found her love
She held his hand and fell asleep
Face pointed to the up above
My Father said he'd **** them all
My Mother said be still
But I didn't think to expect
There would be nothing left to ****
Friends would tell me stories
Of all the fights they won
And I couldn't help but wonder
If my fight was already done
Dec 2012 · 255
She Tries
Robyn Dec 2012
She tries to write
But her efforts are in vain
But now that she's written,
She will never be the same
So she will keep writing
And making us blush
Because she tries, but she's failing
She's trying to be us
Dec 2012 · 581
All In My Head
Robyn Dec 2012
I can hear your rejection
I can taste your disgust on my tounge
I know I am an infection
But we all get infected when we're young
Can you sense my abjection?
Can you see the resentment in my eyes?
I know I am a corruption
But we all get corrupted before we die
Dec 2012 · 25.3k
Minecraft Love Poem
Robyn Dec 2012
Everyday I'm falling deeper
I stalk you like a creeper, creeper
Nothing can keep me away
EnderMen better stay away
I'll travel to the Nether for you
I'd **** the EnderDragon for you
I started with 10 hearts to spare
But now I couldn't really care
The only heart that's really crucial
Is the one I give to you
I've traveled deserts, plains, and seas
Fought cougars, Ghasts, and rotting zombies
I've looted desert temples and villiages
I am nothing but a pillagar
I'll love you until I'm very old
But its as hard to find you as a stronghold
I started with 10 hunger to spare
But now I couldn't really care
If you're hungry, I know what I'd do
I'd give all my food to you
Because I love you (Minecraft)
I really do
Dec 2012 · 592
My Sister
Robyn Dec 2012
She will leave one day
I know it, I've always known it
But I chose to ignore it
When she turned eighteen
When she turned nineteen
She'll be twenty one in four months
And I'm still ignoring it
I used to imagine a day
When her wheezing old SUV
Would be stuffed to the ceiling with trophies
And duffel bags
The only things she had in her room
When she was twelve
I imagined hugging her thin frame
Cherishing the warmth of her stomach
And soaking her shirt with my tears
Then with a sad smile
She would squeeze through the door
And trundle on down the road
Her old soccer trophies glinting off the dull sunlight
That filtered through layers of clouds
And pine needles
But that day is not today
And she is still my sister
Nov 2012 · 510
Entranced
Robyn Nov 2012
You've turned me inside out
And thrown me all around
You've turned me upside down
And spun me all about
While I am feeling dizzy
I won't leave things to chance
But I know when I'm steady
I will feel entranced
Nov 2012 · 368
Room To Run
Robyn Nov 2012
If I was a guitar I'd be stringless
Empty and shallow and cold
Lifeless and loveless, never grow old
I have no purpose, no life

If I was a singer I'd be voiceless
Broken and beaten and still
No sound to whimper, without free will
I am a failure, a lie

You take my hand and run
I hold on tight, bright like the sun
You close your eyes and cry
I kiss your pale face dry
We are broken and loveless
We are beaten and boneless
We are the forgotten ones
And all we have is room to run
Nov 2012 · 4.6k
Soulmate
Robyn Nov 2012
With beating wings
I follow you
A thousand years behind
I hear your cries
Of all the lies
We've been told to beileve
And though we know
The lies they sow
We still begin to see
That there is truth in everything
From love to hate to stars to pain
We beileve we're all alone
And that there is no room for home
I follow you
And all the steps
You've had to leave behind
You wished to take them with you
But you chose to choose your mind
I wished to keep
My steps with me
And now my mind is rot
I hate myself
And all my friends
For seeking what we sought
The steps I took
I place them down
Just one at a time
To find my way back
When I have you
And you're finally mine
With beating wings
I follow you
A thousand years behind
I hear your cries
Of all the lies
That say you've lost your home
And though you know
The lies they sow
You still begin to see
That there us truth in everything
From heart to soul
To eagle's wings
In everything, from love to hate
That a thousand years behind
Is your soul mate
Nov 2012 · 699
I Imagine
Robyn Nov 2012
I'm sitting at a wooden desk
A quill in a *** as black as pitch
And with feathers as soft as sea water
The desk with peeling white paint
Has drawers
With crooked silver sconces
To hold the candle stumps
At night, as I write
I use parchment, not paper
Stroking the rough, grainy surface of it
Waiting for my fingers to go numb
In front of me a window
Of warped and misty glass
But I throw it open to feel the air
As its wafts, heavy and salty
Past the curtains I've hung there
And clings to my face and neck
I pretend I am the sea
Clasping the quill in my hand
Freshly dipped into its ***
I write in thin, twisting letters
I imagine they are grape vines
Twisting through an orchard
Fat with grapes
Purple from the sunrise
And these letters make words
So sweet
I can almost taste the wine on my tounge
Nov 2012 · 354
Late
Robyn Nov 2012
It's getting late
And I'm pining for my home
It's far too late
And I'm all alone

A door has opened
To let me through
But how can I
Can I get to you?
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