cracked salty lips
kiss
   interlaced
                finger to finger
i can almost smell
the     apathy
from here .

can feel your hot breath
tickle
my skin
all my hairs   stand on  
  end
waiting
   watching
warm
      but only for a moment
amused
             i smile
but only for a moment
.

I am everything you desire
Am I not?
I've passed all the tests and we've played all the games imaginable
But I still win every time
and you wonder why
But don't protest as I claim my prize.
I hunger all the time now
More so then I feel you can even satisfy
I worry all of my effort will be worth nothing, because someone else has already ****** you dry before me
That's why I'm always present in the backsplash
Always watching.
Playing puppet
even though I'm the perpetrator
surrender your skin to me
you indiscriminate fool
fall
asleep beside me
like only an ignorant child can do
let me watch
your heaving chest in sincronitzed snapshots
try to understand what it all means
in a blink of an eye
A glimmer
A refracted star, mere mirrored light in a sky kissed with abundance  
Let me trek my sharp nails over the monotonous journey of your frail fore arm
Draw some blood
But just enough to get by

suffocate it with cellophane.
don't let it breathe
or it will breed and monopolize all of your cells
function
like a functional organism
because you have to
and
there is no other choice
never use question marks
because you're always certain
and your high school diploma and college degree
reinforce that
****
random people
at random moments
in
back way alleys
get so drunk
you can't feel your legs
with
people who are supposed to be your friends but don't quite live up to it
smile
big
and bright
and
laugh like a
fool
at the people who
think they
really get it
live inside the four walls of your head
because
that's the only place that's
really safe
and never tell anyone anything important
sleep with your secrets
and live constantly in danger
never settle down
or absorb any type of love or attachment
through your pores
become
a sponge
to the world
who
soaks
up
more then just a complitation of ****** situations
be disconnected
but not discontinued
be what your father always pushed you to be
be what the world has pushed you to be.
something different.
learn to
run
faster
then you thought you ever could
until your bare feet
are bleeding from all the thorns
and your legs are screaming for you to stop
forget
the beating in your chest
forever

walk away from the reflection in the pool.

What does it matter

kiss the clouds till it pours down rain
onto
your baby skinned face
just keep milking it until
you steal every last drop
of its essence
to taste on your self righteous tongue
dont cut it slack
or it'll
take
you down a notch
be consistent
no emotion
don't disappoint
be that robot your father always wanted you to be
make him proud

you're a crack your head open addict
humpy dumpy
gone bulimic
you're a sunny side up
egg
with a not too sunny side
you're the
chicken in the
hen
who
wasn't meant to be
still born
and malfigured
you're a reject
the feeling in
someone else's stomach
that doesn't agree with them
you're the kid in the corner
who got the laughs
for being different
the one
who was always good at
telling stories
&
pretending
to fill his fathers shoes
but never really got the chance
you are the flimsy inner cell membrane
of an intricate facade
a
mere
shell
trying to be whole again.