All along you knew what you were doing and what was going on,
Why didn't you just tell me and I wouldn't have gotten it wrong.
People think it's a mystery, yet the only thing mysterious to me,
Is why you kept quiet and hid it from me, this reason I can't see.
My mind has been open right from the start stuck in the unknown,
Not knowing who I was, even feeling I was someone else's clone.
Why didn't you just say and stop it before I even started it all,
You say that you will always catch me but why even let me fall?
I just don't understand, why did you have to let it all play out?
I always had faith in my love but now I know that you had a doubt.
Now I have to question it all again and I don't know what I will get,
What will I find out this time? I'm questioning if we've ever met.

Waiting for that special person
To come and save you,
Is that how this
Works?

Oh sweetheart,
If I've realized anything it is that
nobody can save you but
Yourself.

Do not rely on the
Eyes that give you lies
And say they love you.

Do not rely on the
Lips that touch you in
All the wrong places.

Do not rely on the
Person you thought would
Love you forever dear.

Save yourself before it is too late
Because the end is near.

please come and take everything on my mind away
come and distract me from the deepest parts of myself
come and let's drink up together until we forget all the doubt

stay all night and talk me down from this ledge I've been on most of my life
stay and help me wash away the person I used to be, keep me from becoming her again
please stay and show me that I am worth a ****

give me a reason why I should forgive everybody who has hurt me
give me the home I've always wanted, preferably in your arms,
give me a place to run when my anxiety gets the best of me

just please be somebody I can count on

I cannot forgive you
for your past mistakes
because they are wrapped up inside my chest,
burning like the summer sun.

I cannot forget
the nights when I felt like nothing
and I held a bottle of yellow pills in my hand
because you pushed me over the edge.

I will not forgive
this feeling of absolute sadness
wrapped up inside of me,
I will not forgive
the stab wounds to my back
that the words you couldn't speak to my face left.

I will not forgive the person I became
because you said I wasn't good enough
(and I still never will be).

I'm sorry my words come out
when I'm neck deep in alcohol,
but drunk words are sober thoughts
and I've never been known to keep my mouth shut.

You are everything I never wanted to be around,
a disease of the mind, body, and soul,
and I cannot forgive you
for being the decay that is my demise.

pine needles naked bodies and golden hairs
you belong on a silver ship
                                               that goes
                                                            ­   to nowhere
                                                         ­               but
                                              ­                 sometimes
                                                    stops
      ­                                   near
                        paradise
storms blowing at stubborn desire
   filling lungs with memories we thought were lost

we die when the soul is exhausted by the torment
   it has swallowed
                                 like honey
                                                   ...and your skin
when it is next to my skin