One pedal gone
Two flowers opposite of the same field
Winds screaming the same thing
My heart says with another pedal gone
She loves me
I love her not
Torn between this
Relationship fading
Will I ever see her smile
Or will I be the reason she cries rivers
She'll eventually drown herself in
I love the silence
She loves that I'm still there
Even though our mouths are sewn shut
She still tries to knit one more i love you
In the text that will lead to its over
She loves me
I love her not
Two pedals left
I already knew the end result
Nature never lies
It tells whether we're meant to be
And today we got our not to be

I hate the way it curves up
Each muscle in your face aching to be released
I hate your smile
Only because I know its fake
You don't even realize it anymore
You've become so accustomed to it
Nobody can tell the mask from your real complexion
Not even your reflection
I hate your smile
When you hide the frown
I'd rather you let me try and make it real
I hate the way that bright red lipstick
Glues it into place
The way the mascara seems to stain the edges
From every midnight love attempt from your pillow
Ending only in failure when the sun reaches your window
You can't hide from me
I can see through it all
I hate your smile
Mainly because it resembles mine all to much

I lost too much
Begged for forgiveness I didn't want
Prayed to midnight suns
Just to repeat the only verse in its lullaby
I cared to listen to
I turned my back on hands outstretched
Beacons of hope at the end of the tunnel
Yet I picked myself up
Didn't bother brushing myself off
I knew I'd be right back down in that same whole
Only 20 seconds after finding my balance
I'll tell you what happened to me
In that not so distant past
I was a victim to my own demons
Thew ones night couldn't forge
The ones day lost all faith at the sight of
I'm now just that average person
Who found a way out
But wished the whole was a little bigger
I'm the rabbit in every whole
Hiding in at night
Running away from at daybreak
Home will never be home
Love will never be known
I'm the outcast of a society
They didn't realize they rejected
Yet when the tears fall
They'll only ask
What happened to you
Even if I tried
What really happened to me
Isn't easily comprehended
From someone who tries to hide
The most obvious of pain

Its your time of the month
Its my time of the day
Somebody has to do it
So dont ask me why I'm in the shower
For 20 extra minutes

I kissed your best friend
Loved her like I would love you
She called my name like you do
She dug her nails in my back
Like I was a scratch pad
She did all the things you did
I don't know how she knew
All she did was whisper in my ear
The very sentence you screamed every night
I'm sorry I know you'd **** me if you ever found out
But I'm not going to run away with my tail tucked
I ****** your best friend like it was the end of the world
Like the sky was falling
Like I would make love to you
Still it was you I came to
Your face I saw as it all happened
No excuses I deserve whatever is coming
But if you only knew
Your best friend was always your reflection
Your shoulder to lean on
You'd always run into the bathroom after a fight
Talk to yourself for hours
Tell me you hated me
But rushed out before the words even pierced the door
Kissed me like it was forever ago before you had them
I'd never love anybody but you
And I'm glad I traced you on my mirror so you'll never disappear

I've told you countless times
You're perfect, amazing, beautiful, gorgeous
Yet when has any of those words actually meant something
You're just too...again nothing comes to mind
I can turn to the dictionary
Read it till something feels right
But I'll read it 11 times before I give up
You're a poem needing to be written
To be heard
Yet how can I do that when I don't even know you
When you're shrouded in mystery
I couldn't tell you how beautiful you are
Every synonym for it is a cliche
But saying you look you maybe will do the trick
It'll make me sound like an idiot
I don't mind sounding like an idiot when you ask me
"How do I look?"

Is easy to trip and stumble
Over cute looks and six pack abs
Or maybe just the way he makes you smile
When all he has to say is "hi"
Or was it your name that sent you tumbling
As it rolled off his tongue
Down into the pits you now dread
Those black holes in the ground
Where spartan kicking you into it
Would only make it thrilling
Love makes nightmares
When you fear how easy it was to fall in the first place
What was it really
that sent you tumbling then falling
Only faster as the lies piled on
I love you
You're all that I need
Everything I want is in your eyes
So maybe you should keep your head between your knees
and stay staring at whats there
Between soft silken thighs
That only seem to ***** his **** before his heart
Its lessons taught that are misunderstood
Never the mistakes made
From an unsuspecting heart
So eager to find what is real
In a world she thought was only hers
But instead shared with her friends that had no idea
Her sister who was your bestie
How many stories must be told
Before the nightmare in them all
Becomes the reality you no longer can handle
Love is a nightmare
Till you can find someone who will make them disappear
Before he tries to show you he loves you