Heal this crushing guilt, I am so ashamed
It's all I can do to hold my heart in place
Blood has spilled, I'm the only one to blame
And I am alone in my own cold embrace
Withering like the fighting winter rose
I am barely breathing, raw and exposed
But this soul has been yearning for growth
And I'm not strong enough to fight it  

Somebody please revive me
Pull me from this apathetic sleep
When the moon is full and bright
Don't let me escape
Lost dreams can't keep me alive
Don't let me fade
When you can make out every last star
Don't let me hide
I'll run, stumble out, throw up my arms
Screaming at the sky
Show me a new way to live
Look upon my shining scars
And teach me to forgive

Long walks just to join the sunrise
Headphones are narrating my mind
The morning birds are serenading all the happy, waving passerbys
In our own way we're all taking flight
Preparing for spring to ignite
Coffee, tea, and warm, sleepy smiles
Ready to escape into a clear blue sky
And lie on the only beach for miles
We're counting on the days flying by
Waiting for another small town summer

Fifty thousand miles of memories wouldn't Erase this feeling from eternity
I tried my best to deny it but couldn't
  Everytime my heart skips a beat
I'm so tired of staying away so I'll be
Escaping this sea of false beliefs

It's impossibly you
This icy embrace that's reviving me
Reminding broken lungs how to breathe
I am remembering how to be free
And there's simply no turning back now  
Into the same monster I was before
I'm stopping my heart from slowing down
This old imposter cannot continue
Or control me anymore

You're the darkness found inside mysteries
The questioning force behind every good deed
The forbidden knowledge we all subconsciously seek
The desires, the cravings, a raw ecstacy

You're the demon whispering possibilities
The master of revealing all insecurities
The influence that allows my denied reverie
The obsessions, the passions, a vicious need

You're the only one listening to my inner screams
Breathing in my new discoveries
The dreams, the nightmares, the secrecy
The only one accepting of every last broken, jagged black piece
The chaos, the seduction, the temptuous belief
In the reflection I see my own monster within
It is a creature I've decided to keep

Integrating your vicious presence
I've nowhere left to hide anymore
So now I look up at you, breathless
Giving in, until my eyes find yours
I whisper, yes, I'll take your test
And it's through you I will explore
You are my strongest weakness
A skeleton key to a treasured door
And with a power I will not ignore
I'll do my bidding without remorse
Watch me take down this delusion by force
My will to live, our energy source