Secrets and whispers linger in the shadows

Memory
A smell
A sound
A deep feeling

The way the sunlight grazes your face
The sound that the leaves make under your bare feet
The cool nagging of fall in the breeze
The slow setting of the summer sun

Walk
And just keep on walking
Until the night moves in
And your skin chills

Run
Run back home
And brace yourself
For the coming storm

Sometimes going off the edge isn't going crazy
Jumping off a building isn't always cowardice
Sometimes it's bravery, courage.

Knowing that something will catch you is security
It extracts the bravery and courage from the act
Leaving only a desire for speed
A lust for the adrenaline rush
A sudden need for attention

Falling with a safety net prevents loss
Loss doesn't always result in devastation
It can awaken you to new realizations and discoveries

Letting yourself fall without the knowledge or guarantee of being caught shows faith
Trust in the world around you
But that trust may be deceiving
Extracting all doubt from your mind
Leaving empty room to be filled by recklessness

A bored body has an active mind
The mind must compensate for the lack of work being done by the body
And a mind can conjure the world
Twisting it into a realm of one's dreams
That world can be made a reality
If only the body makes it so
The body now holds responsibility over creation, leaving the mind in the dark

The darkness is nothing to be afraid of
Unless you fear going off the edge

The brave may not live forever but the cautious do not live at all

A white house
Modern with obnoxious windows catching the view of the Hollywood sign
A house in the hills.
Standing on the roof is a girl
Me?
I can't tell
Not from this far away
She is balanced right on the edge of the flat roof.
She looks over the edge and sees.
If she fell, she would feel the exhilaration
Only to crash at the bottom.
All things come to an end.

A man walks toward her.
He's not going to hurt her.
He has to much care in his step
To much love emanating from his body.
She begins to sway
Careful!
But she steadies herself.
He helps her steady herself.
A warm breeze blows it's way through their silhouettes against a California sunset
Gentle
Not enough.
They stare at each other
They talk
Then scream
She screams more
She is begging him to push her over

Why?!
Please!
Do you really want it?
Yes. I do.

He pleads with her more
Just a little bit more...
He musters up the strength to push her
She prepares herself for the rush.
One full gust of wind
One push
And she's off.
Her feet leave the ground
And she is falling.
Floating.
Is there really a difference?
He stands in relieved shock.
Awe
They maintain eye contact the whole way.
The connection makes it bearable
And equally unbearable.
She doesn't see her life as she falls
She sees him.
On her lips
All over her skin
In her hair
Around her neck
Over her shoulder
In her mind.
Her last thought before she opens her eyes...
He stands over her
Again?

When the sun is shining
My heart goes weak
My mind goes loose
And I am ruled by desperation

I want to hear memories of last night in the rasp of your voice.

I wish that I could see the things that you will see
I wish that I could feel the pain that you will feel
I wish that I could show you how much you mean to me
I hope that when you finish this you'll know my love is real