Is it worth
Being friends with someone you can’t trust?

you're like the ground my feet can't reach,
the never ending sea,
you're an inch away,
just an inch away,
but i can't seem to get to you.

i can hear your words,
but no longer decipher them,
i can see you alive,
but to me you're dead,
i can feel your presence,
but no longer here,
you're like a ghost to me now,
you once meant something to me
but now I just see right through your lies

we all fall in a dark abyss
of depression,
leaving out the people who love us,
only to protect them from this gorge of sadness.

they live for greed,
the innocent never freed,
their lives decreed,
they beg and plead,
so they leave them be,
until they heed,
they live for me,
evil indeed.

i'm no Greek god,
i haven't come from the stars,
you can't expect me to do everything,
or connect anything afar,
i say those are just stories,
unless you prove me so,
because i really can't doubt you,
cuz you're high and i'm below

I remember when my heart gleamed with innocence
when everything was a joke,
And we thought this was what life consisted of
Though we wished to grow up,
to start living,
But it feels like it wasn’t worth
Growing up

I’m waiting for the days that I’m smiling again
The days when I feel like I’m living again
With my soul repaired,
Not torn, but free,
I’m waiting for the days I can feel like I’m Me.

I’m waiting for a life that feels like mine,
Not two different lives that have been combined,
No more two-faced, no more lies,
A life where I finally mean the words:
“I’m fine”

i'm living happily,
yet i've had enough,
i want to laugh,
but i cry too much.
i live by name,
and what i want to be,
except sometimes it's hard to be happy

i hated love
until you taught me what it actually was

i paint my canvas everyday,
i enlarge the painting,
so i can display,
the colors of me,
and the colors of my feelings,
i'll give myself
a moment for healing.

Hercules,
don't save me now,
you looked out for me,
but were never around,
Hercules,
go save their lives,
i don't need saving,
i'm done with mine

i didn't get to hide my heart,
before everyone saw it and took advantage of it

the house of roses,
that looked like heaven,
but when we went inside,
where the thorns were to hide,
it was like hell,
and pain,
and death

I’m a poet,
But my words don’t make sense,
An artist,
But my paintings are all over the place,
A musician,
But I can’t get the notes correct,
And I’m a human,
And sometimes I make mistakes.

Run a mile away from me,
And I’ll find you
Swim oceans away from me,
And I’ll sail back to you
Fly skies away from me,
And I’ll fly right back to you

If it’s love, then let there be no limits

i may be fragile,
i may be lost,
but i love when i'm hurt,
no matter what it costs.
the pain is numbing,
and i feel no more,
so i let it stay,
just a minute more.

After I died
everyone was sorrow
For me, there was no tomorrow
Because I was 6 feet under
Did they love me?
I wonder
It doesn’t matter now
Because if they cared for me
I wouldn’t be in my grave
Waiting for them to join me
but they’re trying to be brave
By showing they loved me...
after I died

you take a piece of me,
and i fall,
cuz there's no support,
nothing to help me in a world so small.
I can't live without a piece of me,
can you build it up
and tower me please?

lying on the grass
beside your pretty face,
we laugh at stupid things,
and freedom at our grace,
we're living how we want to,
and then i grab your hand,
to realise it'll never happen,
it's just a thought again

the leaves change color,
they're tired of living,
once so green,
so full of color,
now on the ground,
crispy and duller.

does the wind need to prove it's power,
do the nightingales sing every hour,
do the waters need to flood to show you,
that not everything needs a purpose,
even when it might seem worth it,
the clouds will cover,
the ravens will hover,
the rain will pour,
i'll be at your door
to show you what i mean
when i say, "just let it all happen"

liar, liar
you said you were fine.
liar, liar
i believed you the whole time.
liar, liar
tell me why you didn't say?
that you were hurting
and that i made you feel that way?
you could've been honest,
and told me the truth,
but you went your own way,
you're not happy now, are you?

everyone's a liar,
we lie about ourselves,
we put ourselves through something,
and never tell someone else.
We want to keep us secret,
so we say that we're okay,
so that we don't get attention,
and the world keeps working anyway.

oceans of pain,
our lives remain,
but an illusion,
of fire and rain.

our souls just a story,
our lives,
they get boring,
so we love each other,
then die in vain.

the lights out,
nowhere to go,
we all hide,
in shadows below,
a thousand screams
hidden by the dark,
we have nothing to lose
just the core of our hearts

limits,
are just a way to show that we have control over something,

even though we end up crossing the limits.

living in the future,
i'm thinking about what'll happen next,
my future is up to me,
but my past is full of regret

Please stay alive
For me
Keep laughing
For me
I don’t want to lose you
Like I lost everything
Before I met you

tell me how im supposed to love,
if ive never been loved?

you don't know me
the way you know my smile.
I'm not what i seem,
i'm on a trial,
aggression,
depression,
and so much to hide,
i just hope you see me smile,
when i already cried.

a thousand screams,
yet everyone's deaf,
i'm underwater,
they all left,
cuz i'm hiding it all,
and displaying the smiles,
i've nowhere to go,
sadness and denial.

all around me are masked faces,
they hide in places
where nobody goes,
and walk around fearless,
because nobody knows,
they wish to be normal,
so they cover themselves up,
except everyone's the same,
they just think they're not enough

what if i never said those things?
would you look at me the same way?
what if i hid my identity,
my true self,
and maybe then you wouldn't hate me.
They all want me to be something

why can't they just love me for me?

worthless art,
i've got no meaning,
meaningless words,
though i write what i'm feeling,
does that make me useless,
i really don't know,
it's hard to tell when i'm feeling so low

how do i measure life?
it's balanced by the people you love,
and the people that love you.
It's balanced by the people you hate,
and the ones that hate you.
It's balanced by how you love yourself,
and how you take care of yourself.
But sometimes, the scale gets unbalanced,
and you don't want to live anymore

i stood in front of the mirror,
and i didn't make sense to me.
But then again,
words never make sense in front of a mirror

can i shut our book closed?
can i end the story told?
can i start over with something new,
can i get over you?

my smile creeps up on my face

the blood contrasting on the grass looks so lovely

who knew it would bring such joy to a person

to see the body lying there,

expressionless,

it's better than the arrogance it had.

Now i stand here alone,

the moonlight giving the body a magnificent glow.