Pain.

So many different ways to scale it.

This, this is like a shot in the heart.

Not an instant **** but just long enough to watch the smile creep across their faces.

9:24..........................................


Standing on the roof... this is my last goodbye.


i'm jumping......................................


Maybe I'll fly.

I'm the girl you see everywhere doing everything.
I'm the one when people see they say "I wanna be like her"
I'm the cheerleader everyone sees as only that.

What they don't see is what i go threw.
While they are busy admiring me, others are busy destroying me.
"fat *****. Your worthless you should die."
And i listen.

All people see is the person i let them see.
That person is not me.
...not in reality...

Sorry...
That's all i have to say.
sorry..

All my  life has been me making them all smile...
But when it's my turn for a smile, they find a better reason than me to need it.
That's okay though.
I'm always the okay one.

I deserve it.
I  get it.
All i know s being lied to.
I don't know what it is about me.
I guess i'm simply not worth the truth anymore.

You have gone so long hiding it from them all.

Then it's all over by just a slip of the sleeve.

Secrets out... scars, cuts, and bruises.

So many questions being asked all at once.

First it's your best friend then your family.

One cries and asks you why.
The other yells and says goodbye...

I am a disgrace they tell me the ****-up in the family.

Weak and worthless.
Stupid and selfish.

And they wonder why..............................


Why i want to die