A roar in our ears, as if the void suddenly filled -- a maelstrom in our minds: spinning, swirling... pulling us close and down. Eyes blur; breath comes quick and hard. We are caught, as always (forever?), in the trap we crave, we love.
feeling naked and sad not sure why just am my chest feels like it's caving in again maybe I need a cigarette or maybe I need fresh air but I must need something because this hurts and pain is generally a sign of a need to change something that's going on whether it's removing your finger from the hot stove or pulling someone wonderful into your life pain usually signifies a need and I need something for this ache in my head and in my heart and nothing feels good I thought maybe writing would... but it just seems to make it worse and now I can't even stop and this poem is ridiculous and all I'm doing is drooling words and hurting I think a nap would be in order except that I slept all day I don't want to sleep anymore I don't want to do anything else, though and I don't even ******* know why why I feel this way it just happened I know that sounds kind of lame but it's true anyhow I was really happy about ten minutes ago everything was totally cool and then BAM! I'm down for the count don't even know what hit me