feeling naked and sad
not sure why
just am
my chest feels like it's caving in
again
maybe I need a cigarette
or maybe I need fresh air
but I must need something
because this hurts
and pain is generally a sign
of a need to change something
that's going on
whether it's removing
your finger from the hot stove
or pulling someone wonderful into your life
pain usually signifies
a need
and I need something
for this ache
in my head and in my heart
and nothing feels good
I thought maybe writing would...
but it just seems to make it worse
and now I can't even stop
and this poem is ridiculous
and all I'm doing is drooling words
and hurting
I think a nap would be in order
except that
I slept all day
I don't want to sleep anymore
I don't want to do anything else, though
and I don't even ******* know why
why I feel this way
it just happened
I know that sounds kind of lame
but it's true anyhow
I was really happy about ten minutes ago
everything was totally cool
and then
BAM!
I'm down
for the count
don't even know what hit me