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Jun 2016 · 368
Docile
Renard Jackson Jun 2016
Lost in the sweet feelings of gratefulness
of making love and the zeal to please
she who knows how to sway mercy from disdain
she who aggravates or sweetens my chains
mesmerizing me during sad or tranquil hours
increasing my affections with her indifference
she who holds the authority and the power
to keep account of my joys, my love, and my pain
Jun 2016 · 219
Patience
Renard Jackson Jun 2016
I will wait for you because pressure is not what you need right now
I will wait for you because you asks me to
I will wait for you because it is something that I want
I will wait for you because love has no barrens
I will wait for you because there is no one else I rather be with
I will wait for you because through it all my leisure time will be gratefully rewarded
I will wait for you because you are special care package that need to be tended with care cause you are fragile
I will wait for you because you are waiting for me
I will wait for you cause God is our savior and grants is this privileged to be together
I will wait for you because you are worthy of that
I will wait for you because it's something I will not dare want to lose
I will wait for you because I want to spend my whole life with you not just some years and have memoirs of what could of been
I will wait for you cause patience is a virtue and you are my air, my heart beat, my soul.
Love is about patience its the most important next to communication those two have to meet, if not there is no future for your vision
May 2016 · 195
Complete
Renard Jackson May 2016
It’s so incredible what I feel for you and if you don’t know it yet I’m so in love with you
I will never be unsure of what I am or what I want because I am yours and I want to always make you happy
You fill my steps with enthusiasm and give my prays an answer with you I'm in tune with my emotions I share my space with you
Lonely with you I will not be cause you make me complete you are my air when I'm drowning in misery
If a man is not all what you think of me you give that light in order to seek  embracing my thoughts so no pain will leak empathy for your love here is my speech
From a man there's was woman from a woman born a man you are my rib you make me complete
Tell your significant other you love them and embrace love for all #Godbless
May 2016 · 238
Feelings
Renard Jackson May 2016
It all happen so quickly I was way over my head
I jump in with no clue with what I was capable of
Confusion hit me first deceiving me of my natural feelings
Anxiety was next snatching away the patience of what there is to come
Confidence was install hiding behide the lack there of
Curiosity didn't make it any better for I was suppose to know already
Happiness is out the door cause we have no window to throw it out of
Deception follows with taunts of those who are there just to be nosy and share no anticipation to help
Angry plays a part with deception giving an ultimatum
Though Love is the key that gets me through it all and let's me be thankful I have another day to feel these feelings.
No matter what you go through make the best of it live life love life #truth
May 2016 · 853
Yearning
Renard Jackson May 2016
Having this intense feeling of longing for you, typically you are that one I refuse to lose or be separated from.
To be staring in your eyes til we drift off in each others arms
I want to be wrapped in your arms when the sun rises and shines on us and awaken us from our dreams
For our days to be filed with imtimacy and joyous memories of intense conversation
To say I love you and share that passionate connection through a gaze with just a fatal touch
Embrace our time together with jokes and laughter while you relax and I enhance your body through massages
Sharing our feeling in talks about our future as we watch our favorite shows on television criticizing the faults of others mistake
I yearn for you as you set off to work and the hours pass with thoughts of you by my side again.
#love #new #emotional #circumstances
May 2016 · 322
Thinking
Renard Jackson May 2016
Insecurities makes you act like a child
So gladly I stay away for awhile
Indirectly quotes with no meaning when I asks
Intentions are hard as brass but my words make you break like glass
Like words shed a little light you are shedding pounds just by the thought of it
Trying to understand your method is doing me no good life is hetic
I'm just thinking out loud as I scribble words
I'm just thinking is this where I want to be
obtuse/obscured.
#thinking #weird #confused #done
May 2016 · 306
Secure
Renard Jackson May 2016
To my heart you are fixed or fastened so as not to give way, become loose, or be lost.
Protected against attack  of any disloyal activity.
Feeling safe, stable, and free from fear or anxiety.
Feeling no doubts about attaining our certainty to achieve
Love makes it hard to open up to any one else you have the key therefore it's fasten and locked.
Like a suspect secured in the back of a patrol car
Forever detain in your solitude
The heart  is concerned to secure the feelings against too many foreign ownerships
Seeking to guarantee repayment of [of love] by having a right to take possession of an digression  in the event of non involvements.
Have no doubts of your other mate for she/he had no ideal how to be proven otherwise
May 2016 · 349
CARRIE
Renard Jackson May 2016
I want to give you my mind body and soul I want to wrap up with your love and see how it unfolds
assure to be your yes of you knows, show you with the intention to guide
give you benevolent while I'm by your side
I don't want you to be wrong if I'm Mr. Right being your savory of the day like a knight
Trust in me to Carrie you to hold onto you  like you was going to come loose
Fulfilling your desire with foods of loyal and honesty  having that acceptance to allow as an introvert
Knowing I have to do more when I say it and you less when I do it
Appreciation of my love freshen your mind like a cert
Accept pulling you closer with the gesture of a ****
Immediately our hearts inverse and forever was we conjured
Like Jesus came to Mary I will be your prohet and speak our destination to reality
Acknowledging that God will not give us more than we can bear
Where you are I want to be with you I'll come anywhere Carrie me there.
To the love of my life Carrie #love #new #pure #sincerity
Apr 2016 · 260
In the Shadows
Renard Jackson Apr 2016
You displayed an images as shy-timid I wouldn't dare say innocent for the nights we park on the beach and proceeded to make memories
Days passes with nights as our mists of the hour we dwelled in
Grouping in no intentions of misleads in my direction
Communication was stable but acknowledgment was cradled
I think I wasn't as spunky and didn't want to take advantage on her insecurities of being chunky
Through lack of creativity there was nothing left cause there was no call for change
I only lead myself to believe it was just a phase skepticism play a part here
Sympathizing when I could of cared less but curious on my motives
Now her motives things are going unnoticed share is to  sheer as
Care; disregard to now from start I should of played hard
Since I am questioning nowadays who we are?
Never judge a book by its cover and try to assume one is well deserved of courtesy when dominance is what they want. Be oneself as one you are
Apr 2016 · 235
Shame
Renard Jackson Apr 2016
With a background of indecent exposure in a relationship with no closure
Due to hard times and big decisions there will gaps in dreams unfinished
Tenaciously pushing on left with the little strength through your faith and bond
Adoptable ways got you set astray though in prayer there's a better way
Guilts not the only feeling that comes around sorrow and pain weighs the pressure of head downs
Immensity thoughts to keep it up lack all the envy and who to trust
A past is picture of the real too many chances taken for one to give
Image of trife on lonely nights a choice of wrong trying to do right
Lost in shame with a directional change is a fault to many things
Apr 2016 · 216
Youthful
Renard Jackson Apr 2016
A guy who shares more inquiries with words
Taking notices that I could be doing a lot worst than my current situation
Death is due to all but is fortunate to ones who doesn't give fate that chance it desires
Not in the desired recommendation for my dreams but I don't dwell on perhaps
Short days and long nights though enough money will make wrong right
So if I see it I believe it getting money is my religion
My correspondence with thoughts got me in a trance with disbelief I seem to believe I can't achieve
Grasp with keeping can't out of my vocabulary
Cause there is no Can't without Can I am special a gift of God
Consuming strikes giving by those of insecurities leaving emptiness
Surrounding myself with encouraged likes and well-built foundations
Falling viticms are not to blame for someone else miss guidance
Take heed to breathe is enough for me.
A life is precious to any mends challenges come and go is how you face those determine how you will make out.
Apr 2016 · 151
Untitled
Renard Jackson Apr 2016
As simple as hello.
I can drown myself in new music and relive my memories
sometimes I wrote a lot and sometimes I got away

you thought you got away with ****** but everything was restored
it was like painting numbers on a white pale wall, something clean

humans don't go look for danger, danger will find them where needed
you never waited for me to get my **** together, "I  hate you" was your words
it were the bad things I only could remember about you, all the bad

and all the lonely girls fell for the guys who now has a thing called swag
and all the popular girls didn't fell for the same guys back in those days

Fridays always came with rain and Monday always left with a smile
the moments you lived for were minimum, it were only the weekends

I remember how lonely you felt, missing the people around you
the voices in your head became your new home, they were your friends
sometimes they come back, just to say a simple hello...

it was all about living for someone that never take a breath for you.
Always remember that the company is a good idea to get a chance to see if you are looking for a new job
Apr 2016 · 293
Acknowledgement
Renard Jackson Apr 2016
I am a beautiful person who has been for a long time. I have a job. I have a choice. The only thing that I have to go to is the best way. I'm sure that you can also be able to manage the same as the best. Though don't settle for less.  I will not be the first one to have a good idea and share the news. My favorite part is that the company has been in the future of this message was delivered to your site and your friends and family members seen it coming.  Respect is due to a Dog live life love life.
Thought of it all #naive #respect live life
Apr 2016 · 971
Misery
Renard Jackson Apr 2016
Electric eyes domestic thighs I just got a feeling you are where I want to go
Narcissistic pride to high to die don't need no reason for me to put on a show
Can't let it slide nowhere to hide botch dont **** my vibe all I see is green my swag is set on go
Courrupt with lies full of it attracting flies I wondered why I made an effort to even try
Wish I would of just said no
Lust is off the chart off guard from the start unintentional you pulled out my heart
It's easy to say anything but I needed you to grow
Up side-by-side official do or die a patriot being victimized
Not likely but Floridana is a place we both should know
Support as strong as Styrofoam at agonizing won't leave me alone
Negative to wrong negativity right lose confidence discovering happiness inside a broken home
Ignorance in ignore to what make you miserable
Designed to change your mind confidant and comfortable in twined.
Mar 2016 · 498
I should of let you go
Renard Jackson Mar 2016
Meet you on false pretenses though it was convenient I was to much appreciative of the the brutal taps through out the night as we slept as friends in the same area
You was a woman with promiscuous intentions but was dealing with self esteem issues as if that had anything to do with it I offered myself to your life as a gentlemen, as you announced I was your first relationship and I took that in consideration and treated you as gentle as welded flowered should be tended to.
We shared moments and made memories conversations was of future reference of the possessible of stablemates in hence there was bad times mistakes were made and I push you to things I believe was in the back of your mind in the beginning
You gave Me faith when doubt was an option, taunted by racism in your family but was tested and failed miserably by the flesh trust is a broken bridge that will not be cross because it's not stable.
So together was shared with phone calls and day visits only when work allowed and company was no more secret was in midst of it all  "We" were tainted "us" was not involving me anymore exploring was a concern of mine friends really want friends trying there luck with you as you express your singleness.
Apologizes was said forgiveness was given but the memories couldn't not be forgotten
And words cutting deeper than a knife reaping what I sow moving on looks like necessity.
Blames became the accuser avoidance allowed satisfaction stability became a problem though the feeling was not mutual in cahoots with a certain lifestyle looking forward why turn around convenient for *** nothing less nothing more til the feeling demobilized and there was no more.
Dwelling, emphasizing, considering, clarity became the only solution mentality changes  self-respect  development to another person  Time and patience leads to forgive and forgetting
Tears are shed the lives are lead with  misconception and deception to be repression among others I love myself and respect my choice to be is to live to hurt, to be hurt and not be held by chains and etc observance.
Reminiscing, rejoice, embrace,  just do it and be happy years are too be joyful hurting is painful so love.
Mar 2016 · 731
Idolizing
Renard Jackson Mar 2016
Gone for years to a different states ago the way across the world
Things are not the same at this different place
Your actions are at a caution because of your new surroundings
If you stay what are you going to do no experience in anything work ethnic
Raised in the streets selling for and dope and other narcotics
Look up to those in the same establishment commence to the only thing he knows
It's more comfortable to him and the questions stop
And the money starts coming in the women giving there attention
He wanted something more, something else, something different

Basically **** gets old
You get tired of taking chances
Your tired of giving chances
Then it all boils down to you just have to let people go.
To regards with bind adoration.
Life is how you make it choose correctly or deal with your situation with no complaints it's always a choice
Mar 2016 · 286
Poverty
Renard Jackson Mar 2016
Night lingers with constant ravaging through the kitchen and impatiently flickering channels because of commercials
In spite of the fatigue feelings mixed with the funny noises coming from hunger pains
I am not In a bad mood cause I am broke, in distraught or because I can only afford rent due to my minimum wage job washing dishes stationed in a one room shack apartment
Stuck in the house need to get out more wanting issues without discussions fascinated by what I can't have enclosing my day with a infested bus ride back to my urban sectional neighborhood  what am accustomed to living a lifestyle fighting more than rats and roaches
Survival is the most important part of the breakfast next to acknowledgement that nothing can become something cherishing food and shelter because walking on the streets and pockets on empty force decision to do hand-to-hand work predicaments leaves you in a state of unravelling thinking of your next move or not thinking
Questioning the obvious Wishing though there is nothing wrong with wanting
A Christian, but broke, and a 5th of gin will make a Man sin
Becoming a product of my environment leaving it to be a statistic in this society as a black man in poverty
#realistic #thoughts #initiatives #citric
Mar 2016 · 300
Denied
Renard Jackson Mar 2016
In the process of wanting
Lead to only be distracted by this slim built feminist queen
Introduce with names and good cohesion
Common things you see though expectations are high guaranteed are sure
Don't intrigued by the current situation on things you misconceived
I know I am a man the virtue of a woman should not be overwhelming
Fantasy designer clothing covers up insecurities
Lacking the common sense we need to contribute to our own we are giving the wrong ideal even when it's plain to see
We complain, we protest, we lust, all in all we don't do anything to accomplish
Digging holes to be filled up with water to drown ourselves not being allowed to achieve something with means because the credentials aren't strong enough is denial
Fools do things expecting more than what you deserve, you get as much as you work for
Feb 2016 · 302
Inscribed
Renard Jackson Feb 2016
You are something inscribed.
A historical,religious, a impale deep cut, impressed, scribble, or written on stone, brick, metal, or other type of hard suet.
A brief, usually informal dedication, as of a book or a break at work lunch.
Something of the past, a mere thought, notes to study, a broke person with cash, a wall of straw, a ?#&! Buddy!
Feb 2016 · 788
Water
Renard Jackson Feb 2016
You are like Water on Earth moving continuously through the water cycle of evaporation and transpiration (evapotranspiration), condensation, precipitation, and then run off, usually reaching the sea to my heart. Evaporation from one and transpiration to another contribute to the precipitation over land(my life). Like Water you are used in the production of a good or service is known as the virtual you.

Safely drinking you is essential to me and other lifeforms even though it provides no calories or organic nutrients. Access to safe drinking you has improved over the last years in almost every part of my world, even though approximately one billion people still lack access to you and over 2.5 billion have access to adequate sanitation.
#visualization #perspective #thoughts
Feb 2016 · 377
The day of Valentine
Renard Jackson Feb 2016
This day is recognized and celebration in many regions around the world, although it is not a public holiday in any country.

Poems I withhold are the various Valentines that were connected to February 14,  which indicated us imprisoned for performing weddings for soldiers to be forbidden to marry and for ministering to Christians, who were persecuted under the Roman Empire. Life is According as our imprisonment, Valentine heals the daughter of his jailer,  and before my execution, I write to you this letter signed "Your Valentine" as a farewell.
#facts #love #emotional #thoughts
Feb 2016 · 285
Fragile
Renard Jackson Feb 2016
You said you'd never ever break... down
But here I am sweeping... pieces off of the ground
You said you'd never, ever play... to down
But I've heard you running game to them now
I've spent all night long scared of tomorrow, broke my alarm
Everything is almost lost, pick it up slow, before it's gone...
I'm fragile I never thought would of been so fragile.
Trying to build that self esteem in oneself
Feb 2016 · 254
Drowning
Renard Jackson Feb 2016
Seek what I can't find lust for something forbidden I care to much and to not receive anything I'm am lost at sea with no paddle or sail just floating in a wave of wonder I screamed for it to echo off the pail of delusion. I Am stuck though I am not drowning I'm head over Hills in something castaway to the wolves for a entre of misery. Death is around the corner literally shall I release my anger upon the seagull that **** on me for the last time, fair to those in the eyes of weaknesses although I can't bring myself to the sea level like a lifeless bodies I will rise to be carried away by the current and back to land to start anew. Til then I sank as a anchor with no bond to hold anything down to the bottomless-cold pit of darkness there I will be amongst differential of oneself. Seeking what I can't find wanted to be noticed.
Emotions running deep felt something ought to be said..in my feelings.
Feb 2016 · 165
Same ol Love
Renard Jackson Feb 2016
She loves me she loves me not....
Feb 2016 · 425
Dreams
Renard Jackson Feb 2016
What's the point? Why do I need to know half of this?
When I fell for some scamp ****** shenanigans
Ghetto raised not a life that heaven sent
High school graduate street life is all that'll make sense
If you want to be there it's your typical event
I can't be happy poor so I will get mad rich.
#rant #saucy #informed
Feb 2016 · 280
Mistaken
Renard Jackson Feb 2016
We smile, laugh, joke together in these times I believe in happiness though you mistaken a common opinion with a strike for intrusion confused I asks questions to you they seem surreal thoughts are now victimized and encouragement turns to congregation doubts pass I want you to understand a simply misuses of words my challenges are defeated with sharp interruptions in a roar but seldomly spoken so you prance in your wonders of solitude as I sit debating my rights
Another day shoots like a star among the scarred sky and kicked up dust is hidden the trails we have provided for those
We smile, laugh, joke together in these times I believe in happiness
Subject to know you better and the way your day is going to be.
Feb 2016 · 286
Apathy
Renard Jackson Feb 2016
How can elaborate with the means to procrastinate
You portray it's good you say we are straight
A person of  qualities you demonstrate
Conniving, bitter, egotistical, fake
Perplexed as to this topic so late
Though it's sympathetic I relate
Half of it true I don't understand
Being a critic why not give Hollywood a chance
And deliberately I there is an invade
So words spread with intentions to engrave
Feelings are something you acknowledge
Some tend to ignore
Know things is not nothings
The conceited people are.
Giving can also be a waste of time value yourself and never be that victim
Feb 2016 · 257
Catharsis
Renard Jackson Feb 2016
Disasters tangles better luck than none
Chances mistaken no discretion for some
Buzzards gotta eat as so to worms
dying on the road of tears as the white man seeks up behind me again
Change only as the sun hide and the moon enlighten
Surrender to give in order to receive
Though is better to give than receive
Look for good to come though patience is a virtue
Real slow like molasses in the winter time
Clouds in the sky floating like dreams in the mind
Taken to be scarce entitled to much in return for nothing
Sorrows
Thinking thoughts in a time of thinking through an angle of findings
Jan 2016 · 364
Burning heart
Renard Jackson Jan 2016
Numbness and tingling with abnormal sensations has occur everywhere in my body, but are often felt in my chest and abdominal a thought causes painful, involuntary contraction of my muscles, fatigue and strain. Rankling discontent, 
especially from envy or jealousy; grudge.
Emotions are flaring judgement is clouding my thoughts
Entwined like  knots bind to myself with some other object obstructed of the air from the environment into the lungs. 
I just miss you.
That one you can't bear the thought of her leaving or its too late and you never knew what you had until she is gone.
Jan 2016 · 547
Ghetto Intuition
Renard Jackson Jan 2016
I'm from the bottom where more than water lie, sick girls looking for victims another person to mortify, where it's a more or less chance you will be in jail from somebody who testified, than high-speed chase in broad day and you crashing out.
It's all about what you do no one cares what your talking about,nothing is for free or given to you, so get a hustle or be without
Whatever take a chance be a Man so what if you have doubts
It's better to know than want sympathy looking for handouts
Cause you only get out of life what you put in it
And a little can only go so far
Criticize by the best of the best F@#k them know who you are.
Thoughts from thinking of thoughts
Jan 2016 · 344
Optimism Vision
Renard Jackson Jan 2016
Adequate decision with dislodged thoughts
Cast in a subculture environment used to the urban area scuttled in the struggle
Wanting more commentary and needing more disclosure
Patronize with the wrong intentions to whom I care nothing for
Descriptions of deceptions inscribed by inner perceptions
Conclusion cause dissolution from exclusion through misusing parental advisories
Reserve  thoughts on the trophy with no solution is a contradiction
Impetuous actions causing lost interpretation on how you look at your surroundings
Adversary asking for a a fighting change.
Thoughts of a deprived life of righteousness and the choices we have and overlook our take advantage of. Be thankful
Jan 2016 · 333
Faithful Endurance
Renard Jackson Jan 2016
Rocket ships blazes as my feelings grow no more
you share as much space in my head as the air progresses
do not taunt me with I miss yous and full my inbox up with how are yous spare me the theatrics
I can't sympathize anymore or try to pretend I care
I will not criticize my self into these conditions which have brought me nothing literally nothing
if you need me I won't be there
If you feel you can't live without me **** yourself for I am already dead inside
Two wrongs don't make it right and to be a victim is not what I would call a fight
But through the gruesome taboos in deceiving life I think I'll go with this green light
Discretion, recitation, rescission, all that you are the metaphor if loving you for one more night I have to strife
Laughter is a good candidate for the night before I would call a fight with you.
Dec 2015 · 339
Discovery of Wail
Renard Jackson Dec 2015
As elegant and beautiful with the days progression shown through vivid imagination
Though harsh tines approach as to the wind blows she is as thorough for her petals remain full nothing less
Egotistical personal gives hope to ones seeking matriarch
But with inspiration vivacious and true words spoken there is no need to fabricate
Criticism is ubiquitous no matter how you embellish life
She is germane to me, so euphoric
To ignore theses feelings of cherish and adore is to be incomplete, like a house with no doors or Windows
As docile as emotions are there is no courageous act than to grow in the cast of a shadow and believing this is in your best interest
With her thrones pricked the most sensitive spot I still approach with indirection on my way
Thoughts pass as I want to asks and the moment fades so the questions remain
How is there fear in my feelings?
Stubbornness just isn't enough I need devotion and determination
Am I still a "person of interest"?
It was all good just a week ago.
Interpretation of something you had a mentality for and then it turns around and become all wrong
Dec 2015 · 301
It's her..
Renard Jackson Dec 2015
If someone asks me why am I in a good mood today I would say because I am blessed to see another day
To stop in mid conversation in wonder off into a daydream with no intentions to carry on a conversation with whom is not a person of interest though a friend
Should I be enjoying myself at this luminous party with those who are cheery and joyous around me sharing the same equities, as another bottle is being open with guitar hero with karaoke in the background in rotation, I am lost in thought
I try but there is not enough clubbing or  flashing light for a distraction another drink will only infuse the matter, to which I owe myself no apology, as the saying "you made your bed now you have to lay in it"
We have these feelings that are uncontrollable but at the same time you are in a situation to not want to confuse this person written lies of discouragement it's the feeling of sheer passion to indulge and she knows so she smiles with intentions to make you want to say Hello
As you stand beside her taunted by a laugh or a glance that leads to us being together and sharing moments of the future
If someone was to asks me why I am in a good mood I think I would tell them it's her.
To meet new people and become one and know why or what are some people capable of
Dec 2015 · 229
Is it love?
Renard Jackson Dec 2015
Is it love?
She trusts you as far as she can throw you
Is it love?
She kicking you out of her house every other week
Is it love?
She calls you all types of names and degrades you
Is it love?
She attacks you and leaves you feeling guilty
Is it love?
She with another guy and has a baby on the way
Is it love?
She doesn't see you anymore and the texts stop coming
Is it love?
She just wants one thing from you
Is it love?
When she tell you she loves you
Confused, perplexed, lost
Nov 2015 · 387
"HARD"
Renard Jackson Nov 2015
I work hard, hardly work, hard's the work, they be smoking that **** until they heart burst, in the hard murks, the devil is lurking his heart hurts, looking too hard though hollows will rip your hard shirt, and they out, Erk! Back to the beach with no certs, where they don't perk, surf, and treat girl for what they are worth, the world has allot of Kurts but Casanovas just overworked, Three-time felonies and them Athens that go to church, plus police make it worst "protect and serve" it's more like "protect and survive" cause they shooting first and it seems "blacks" are the ones that decriminalize. (Through our eyes)
It's Hard.
What can I stay life comes with all kinds of obstacles which can be rearranged with just words or few votes of the people who make rules. Encourage.
Nov 2015 · 319
Parasite
Renard Jackson Nov 2015
You live in and deprive me of happiness taking my good at what expense?
you pretend to rely on me to exploits others and give nothing in return.
Attached to me as if your purpose is meaningful
You are selfless so therefore be by your self, though you say you need me
Making every effort to detach myself, in the process losing my sense of righteousness,
I don't want to turn into what you are I'm created with a soul
Unlike some parasites transmitting a disease who depends on it's host to survive
But you are human who is wise with it on mind
Don't be obtain to a side
which means to get something that is not so easy to come by 
But I rather die on my feet than live on my knees asking please,
So just leave.
A relationship is not worth saving if one does not want to be there it takes two and you have to let then go out you will be ruining yourself.
Nov 2015 · 205
Structure
Renard Jackson Nov 2015
I am your support a building or substituting stronger for weaker material structure from below by laying a solid foundation below ground level
Am I substituting stronger for weaker material
I make a certain situation or outcome likely or possible
And to leave me no longer occupied  I felt used, abandoned
As thus, I was just a particular account of some matter,
 from one person in your source,
contrasted with some other account
facing the challenges at hand in an adequate manner. 
I grasp the situation conjugate the problem and
Seize the moment
Change is want she wants and time is what I need
So space is what she got
With an absence of a leave.
When being there for someone means absolutely nothing after a while, but than again this something has to be recognized and dealt with.
Nov 2015 · 1.4k
Crazy
Renard Jackson Nov 2015
I made you crazy?
You drove me crazy
and yet I dont know how I made her crazy
It wasnt fair for her to be crazy
Im not sorry for making you crazy
I wish you could take my place and  not be crazy
tell me a way show me a way and make me crazy
Your heart hurts cause you made my friends crazy
Change? I dont want you to be crazy
Someone help me, help her, she's crazy
take away his pain that made her crazy
I dont like how I made you crazy
But I didnt do it on purpose, I didnt even know I was making her crazy
I wish I could take it all back and she leave me crazy
I'm crazy
Nov 2015 · 228
Second in line
Renard Jackson Nov 2015
I'm no concern to her she has someone else to occupy her time
When they fighting or need someone to escape to
******* don't use my shoulder to lean on
I am not your fault
You put me in the friend zone but I know you like me more than that
Are you scared? It's frustrating, who cares?
But this isn't something I am up for it just doesn't make any sense to me
I treat you different from others questions are asks only to be unanswered
You are never ridiculed in my book you are that one "I will"
It seems real but it looks fake
First one to listen to you but second in your race
The things we put up with for females we want to consider and willing to pursue thinking of them when we should focus on ourselves.
Nov 2015 · 473
"Damage Goods"
Renard Jackson Nov 2015
PEOPLE are the craziest and most hypothetical people around they want equality but won't demonstrate it saying **** Paris cause of Kenya but why not just pray for both!!!! PEOPLE **** me with they're sense of self entitlement when you or your mama wasn't no slave the world fucced up if no generation forgives the previous or the next we'll always be divided as a country and it be the ones who ain't and won't do **** to change it always posting the bs! PEOPLE be doing **** to help destroy the black race but then turn Around and wanna post this America don't Care about PEOPLE **** on my timeline so if you ******* ,sale drugs,rap about negative **** or anything that makes our race more ****** up.
PEOPLE **** U A HYPOCRITE AND GET OFF MY TIMELINE WIT DA BS!!!! NOW PRAY FOR ANYONE IN TROUBLE N NEEDS HELP JESUS DONT SEE COLOR FOOL!!!!!
some people just talk to be heard and not to be acknowledge, it's a difference
Nov 2015 · 404
Impetuous
Renard Jackson Nov 2015
Bills piling shots firing I'm trying to find a way
Introverse with her whining carrying on now confounding
Uncomfortably I lay arrest the facts on should I stay
Consideration out the door confide my thoughts ample the roar
Patience, interests, attachments, evanesced
Love, desire, allegiance, suppressant
Quiescent our days spent questions asks nowhere to vent
While time progress the strongest may stick thus, what is done we forget is effects of Decay theorist
Faults will be blamed and blames will be fault
Obsessed with an solution that disinterested us with doubt
Moue and pout scrutinizing about ubiquitously we well figure this out
Grind, fail, comes with travail enough of both will prevail
for the time being mistakes are edit abate, the ****, cusp, the tail,
CREDITS
Gathering thoughts as as a realization of what is of a situation can come to some understanding.
Nov 2015 · 427
...Inside myself....
Renard Jackson Nov 2015
Emotions are my lesson on what can hurt my pride
This is something of digression through how I live my life
Tainted like a disease I exclude myself from the obscene
With the means to indulge I rather not intervene
Cause there is anger entwined and my actions may be attracting
And progression is effective and might be a distraction
So a act of silence is common to one's things
But belligerence  accommodates inevitable change
Thus, what was lost shall be another aberration
For which it stands for your toleration
Under fraud and nothing at all.
When you are feeling a certain type e of way things may not always go your way but that doesn't mean change.
Nov 2015 · 153
Untitled
Renard Jackson Nov 2015
More and more with nothing to give is there anyone out there who doesn't want any thing for nothing instead of there pockets to be filled
I asks for conversation and a pleasant life to live but you got your hand out expecting money and assuming I will
understanding comes with means and that's something you don't get so understand your not getting s#&t; that means you have to pay your own rent
If you was more independent and less dependent depending on someone else would just be a waste of time spent
To be in a relationship in with two people not just one
To share is to to give and receive back not just from
Selfish is what are and selfish is what you will be so you will find yourself by yourself is what you will get from me.
There are signs in a relationship pay attention to them don't be that "fool"
Nov 2015 · 229
Mirage
Renard Jackson Nov 2015
Introduce with a smile and nice conversion as we shared notes of our next project
Friendship was there so we included the day with lunch and more conversation
With Progress came progression and more or less confession
Continuous interaction with each other being to be a daily routine
Mere gifts food for the belly and drinks for the lips
Curiosity was aroused by words with no sound, so questions was asked and things became at last
As I found
Inside was was bitter though it smelled so sweet big ego attached those with little feet
How happy the days when we meet but that lasted as long as I sleep
Feelings intertwined with lust over love and words were no more just a shrug
Sarcasm with laughter went to debates with fights and space to each other share the night
Distance is now to fill the need along with blocked calls to spare the greed
Don't mistake lust for love no matter what she says
Nov 2015 · 333
Untitled
Renard Jackson Nov 2015
As elegant and beautiful with the days days progress through vivid imagination
Though harsh times approach as the wind blows she is as thorough, for her petals remain full nothing less
Egotistical personal gives hope to one seeking matriarch
But with inspirational vivacious and true words spoken, there is no need to fabricate
Criticism is ubiquitous no matter how you embellish life
She is germane to me, so euphoric
To ignore these feelings of cherishing and adoration is to be incomplete, like a house with no windows and doors.
As docile as emotions are there is no courageous act, then to grow in the cast of shadows believing it to be in your best interest
With her thorns pricked in sensitive spots I still proceed with indirection
Thoughts pass as I want to asks and the moment fades so the question remains
How is there fear in my feelings?
Acknowledging that there is a chance of disappointment huh I know myself but do I know her.
You have feelings for someone,I guess be honest and let them know to be a fool is as to fooling yourself
Respect yourself and the rest will come
Nov 2015 · 519
Invoice
Renard Jackson Nov 2015
live life with enthusiasm destined hardiness due to the harshness
Lacking the right guidance with so many choices we all interpretive heartfelt condolences to the families who have been a incurious
"Should be" as in past tense goes without saying some individuals are not capable to accelerate but we all have those interject with situations enough is enough just make it deploy indiscretion instead of misperception
Questions will not always have a answer to your concerns faith is the only thing we can believe in
You settle for the well-written incentive purpose
This is only the blueprint to or construction build to your desire
Cherish,be grateful, prefer a Just way disaffection those unavoidable dreams.
Oct 2015 · 412
Wondrous thoughts
Renard Jackson Oct 2015
Is there a land
by a distant sea
where we shall be united?Is there a sky,
blue and bright
with wispy clouds
under whose shade
we shall make love
in the open,without fear or regret
Is there a beach
grains of whose sand
shall caress our naked bodies kiss your navel
and cling to my chest Will there be such a rain that in the worship of your full ******* drops shall trickle down
and hang forever at the pointed tips like elixir
that you, mother goddess, shall someday ooze for your many children will there be a day we shall dance in shameless celebration and by night watch the stars twinkle to the  
of our thankful hearts.
Not that she wasn't the one, but I love her and she just was being herself.
Oct 2015 · 184
Theoretical
Renard Jackson Oct 2015
And above all, watch with glittering eyes the whole world around you because the greatest secrets are always hidden in the most unlikely places. Those who don't believe in magic will never find it, The unreal is more powerful than the real. Because nothing is as perfect as you can imagine it. Because its only intangible ideas, concepts, beliefs, fantasies that last. Stone crumbles. Wood rots. People, well, they die. But things as fragile as a thought, a dream, a legend, they can go on and on. If you can change the way people think. The way they see themselves. The way they see the world. You can change the way people live their lives. That's the only lasting thing you can create, If we don't believe in freedom of expression for people we despise, we don't believe in it at all
Oct 2015 · 318
Perchance
Renard Jackson Oct 2015
In spirit to make amends to those who are not friends
Cold stares lil gestures indicates how trouble begins
I carry myself in a Just way but too proud to just look away arrogance taking over I got something to say
I feel inconsiderate not that I that I should
To care at this moment would be misunderstood
My introduction is a greeting which most often is
But aggression and perplex comes next like William Shakespeare in "king lear"
Calm as to humble though on guard to a snake defining his life
If it rains it pours, but if you pour do it right
Cause things tend to spill out and causes a fight
And good mends you overlook to look over and see for your own insight
Two kids talking among each other about what happen last night.
Feeling wrong about something I thought I heard maybe or maybe not
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