Not existing before
MADE into a person of sensibilities , Introduced as a man of honor with respect, and was discovered recently now for the first time.
I feel encroached when conversations are developed
Is this something I've longed for or a past progression
Despite it all it feel good, refreshed, inspiring
Like a fresh breathe in the morning with coffee brewing in a log cabin
In the world of things that don't last long
Taking heed to these blessings
Learn, Live, and Love

Started from good to bad
from nice to eh
How things can be so liberal to takeoff heads because of a couple of words said
My senses tell me to have more common sense and dollars are not the only things that make cents
Enticed by your demeanor
Influenced by the way you move
Encourage through your words
I'm lost in you and it's a struggle to find myself again
Though it's bonds and sleepwalking nights over here, on the other side the grass is greener
One day I'll get over my pride
Faulting the situation trying to find every excuse
Questioning myself now
Losing grip of reality hoping for my Coretta
Misconceptions of my image as I am just a fish in a big pond fighting to get off this hook
With insides as cold as ice my flesh is humid as Florida summers
I push on or digging this hole deeper contemplating taking my head off with this same shovel
Consuming too much everything coming from a different angle
Disturbed but interested in awe of suspension
Reaching out to receive nothing but to lend a hand
But all you get is criticism and taunts, fake smiles and grunts
And here you stand still. ......

The things you want in life are not always what you deserve or maybe what is instilled for you
Talking it into existence may shadow your most likely situations and halter you from what you really need
Thats why we expect the worst and hope for the best just take yourself worthiness in consideration
Doubts are the biggest downfall though we all struggle it is the way we consume this is the highlight of it all
Patience. ...God was good at that and to embrace this is the craziest thing I've I had to deal with
Knowing and believing is the same as wanting and lusting
I give more than I receive and I don't asks for much it is a sort of worrying that comes from wanting something in return
Guilt works at you like molasses covering a bug caught on a tree
At times in certain situation I don't know I'm really like perplexed tainted by unanswered questions in the mist of trying to figure it out yourselfwith no help from no one you pace with no direction a very distraught feeling.

Scrutinized days I carry a burden that is latch to me like a navie baby looking forward though what'she on my back is noticeable a sign of achieving is nours

Uncensored thoughts passed in unusual places
Giving opportunist a change to make the devil work complete
Not in tune with the whole scratch ones back to have yours scratched back
Living in today you have to accept the dislikes of others and treat them as a naive child
Though life throws you lemons after lemons but with insufficient funds your not able to make anything out of it
I'm not good at physic being in physical form every thing so complicated now
Asking for help nowadays is like expecting snow in florida
Girls are damaged so relationships don't last Men are incapable so your goals will crash
All we have left to blame it on is the government and it's like blowing hot air useless
Trying too hard will get you in insuring and if you don't try you will get nothing
It's either make it or take it (chances, that is)
And luck is but a mere share of faith which many don't possess so
Questions stills need answered sweet on the inside rough outside the edges.

Take your time.
Become intoxicated by patience;
as if you are waiting for nothing
but living for everything.
Let every moment saturate
your being,
seeking not to ring yourself
dry again
but to accept more

Lost in the sweet feelings of gratefulness
of making love and the zeal to please
she who knows how to sway mercy from disdain
she who aggravates or sweetens my chains
mesmerizing me during sad or tranquil hours
increasing my affections with her indifference
she who holds the authority and the power
to keep account of my joys, my love, and my pain