You displayed an images as shy-timid I wouldn't dare say innocent for the nights we park on the beach and proceeded to make memories
Days passes with nights as our mists of the hour we dwelled in
Grouping in no intentions of misleads in my direction
Communication was stable but acknowledgment was cradled
I think I wasn't as spunky and didn't want to take advantage on her insecurities of being chunky
Through lack of creativity there was nothing left cause there was no call for change
I only lead myself to believe it was just a phase skepticism play a part here
Sympathizing when I could of cared less but curious on my motives
Now her motives things are going unnoticed share is to  sheer as
Care; disregard to now from start I should of played hard
Since I am questioning nowadays who we are?

With a background of indecent exposure in a relationship with no closure
Due to hard times and big decisions there will gaps in dreams unfinished
Tenaciously pushing on left with the little strength through your faith and bond
Adoptable ways got you set astray though in prayer there's a better way
Guilts not the only feeling that comes around sorrow and pain weighs the pressure of head downs
Immensity thoughts to keep it up lack all the envy and who to trust
A past is picture of the real too many chances taken for one to give
Image of trife on lonely nights a choice of wrong trying to do right
Lost in shame with a directional change is a fault to many things

A guy who shares more inquiries with words
Taking notices that I could be doing a lot worst than my current situation
Death is due to all but is fortunate to ones who doesn't give fate that chance it desires
Not in the desired recommendation for my dreams but I don't dwell on perhaps
Short days and long nights though enough money will make wrong right
So if I see it I believe it getting money is my religion
My correspondence with thoughts got me in a trance with disbelief I seem to believe I can't achieve
Grasp with keeping can't out of my vocabulary
Cause there is no Can't without Can I am special a gift of God
Consuming strikes giving by those of insecurities leaving emptiness
Surrounding myself with encouraged likes and well-built foundations
Falling viticms are not to blame for someone else miss guidance
Take heed to breathe is enough for me.

As simple as hello.
I can drown myself in new music and relive my memories
sometimes I wrote a lot and sometimes I got away

you thought you got away with ****** but everything was restored
it was like painting numbers on a white pale wall, something clean

humans don't go look for danger, danger will find them where needed
you never waited for me to get my **** together, "I  hate you" was your words
it were the bad things I only could remember about you, all the bad

and all the lonely girls fell for the guys who now has a thing called swag
and all the popular girls didn't fell for the same guys back in those days

Fridays always came with rain and Monday always left with a smile
the moments you lived for were minimum, it were only the weekends

I remember how lonely you felt, missing the people around you
the voices in your head became your new home, they were your friends
sometimes they come back, just to say a simple hello...

it was all about living for someone that never take a breath for you.

I am a beautiful person who has been for a long time. I have a job. I have a choice. The only thing that I have to go to is the best way. I'm sure that you can also be able to manage the same as the best. Though don't settle for less.  I will not be the first one to have a good idea and share the news. My favorite part is that the company has been in the future of this message was delivered to your site and your friends and family members seen it coming.  Respect is due to a Dog live life love life.

Electric eyes domestic thighs I just got a feeling you are where I want to go
Narcissistic pride to high to die don't need no reason for me to put on a show
Can't let it slide nowhere to hide botch dont **** my vibe all I see is green my swag is set on go
Courrupt with lies full of it attracting flies I wondered why I made an effort to even try
Wish I would of just said no
Lust is off the chart off guard from the start unintentional you pulled out my heart
It's easy to say anything but I needed you to grow
Up side-by-side official do or die a patriot being victimized
Not likely but Floridana is a place we both should know
Support as strong as Styrofoam at agonizing won't leave me alone
Negative to wrong negativity right lose confidence discovering happiness inside a broken home
Ignorance in ignore to what make you miserable
Designed to change your mind confidant and comfortable in twined.

Meet you on false pretenses though it was convenient I was to much appreciative of the the brutal taps through out the night as we slept as friends in the same area
You was a woman with promiscuous intentions but was dealing with self esteem issues as if that had anything to do with it I offered myself to your life as a gentlemen, as you announced I was your first relationship and I took that in consideration and treated you as gentle as welded flowered should be tended to.
We shared moments and made memories conversations was of future reference of the possessible of stablemates in hence there was bad times mistakes were made and I push you to things I believe was in the back of your mind in the beginning
You gave Me faith when doubt was an option, taunted by racism in your family but was tested and failed miserably by the flesh trust is a broken bridge that will not be cross because it's not stable.
So together was shared with phone calls and day visits only when work allowed and company was no more secret was in midst of it all  "We" were tainted "us" was not involving me anymore exploring was a concern of mine friends really want friends trying there luck with you as you express your singleness.
Apologizes was said forgiveness was given but the memories couldn't not be forgotten
And words cutting deeper than a knife reaping what I sow moving on looks like necessity.
Blames became the accuser avoidance allowed satisfaction stability became a problem though the feeling was not mutual in cahoots with a certain lifestyle looking forward why turn around convenient for *** nothing less nothing more til the feeling demobilized and there was no more.
Dwelling, emphasizing, considering, clarity became the only solution mentality changes  self-respect  development to another person  Time and patience leads to forgive and forgetting
Tears are shed the lives are lead with  misconception and deception to be repression among others I love myself and respect my choice to be is to live to hurt, to be hurt and not be held by chains and etc observance.