Seek what I can't find lust for something forbidden I care to much and to not receive anything I'm am lost at sea with no paddle or sail just floating in a wave of wonder I screamed for it to echo off the pail of delusion. I Am stuck though I am not drowning I'm head over Hills in something castaway to the wolves for a entre of misery. Death is around the corner literally shall I release my anger upon the seagull that **** on me for the last time, fair to those in the eyes of weaknesses although I can't bring myself to the sea level like a lifeless bodies I will rise to be carried away by the current and back to land to start anew. Til then I sank as a anchor with no bond to hold anything down to the bottomless-cold pit of darkness there I will be amongst differential of oneself. Seeking what I can't find wanted to be noticed.

She loves me she loves me not....

What's the point? Why do I need to know half of this?
When I fell for some scamp ****** shenanigans
Ghetto raised not a life that heaven sent
High school graduate street life is all that'll make sense
If you want to be there it's your typical event
I can't be happy poor so I will get mad rich.

We smile, laugh, joke together in these times I believe in happiness though you mistaken a common opinion with a strike for intrusion confused I asks questions to you they seem surreal thoughts are now victimized and encouragement turns to congregation doubts pass I want you to understand a simply misuses of words my challenges are defeated with sharp interruptions in a roar but seldomly spoken so you prance in your wonders of solitude as I sit debating my rights
Another day shoots like a star among the scarred sky and kicked up dust is hidden the trails we have provided for those
We smile, laugh, joke together in these times I believe in happiness

How can elaborate with the means to procrastinate
You portray it's good you say we are straight
A person of  qualities you demonstrate
Conniving, bitter, egotistical, fake
Perplexed as to this topic so late
Though it's sympathetic I relate
Half of it true I don't understand
Being a critic why not give Hollywood a chance
And deliberately I there is an invade
So words spread with intentions to engrave
Feelings are something you acknowledge
Some tend to ignore
Know things is not nothings
The conceited people are.

Disasters tangles better luck than none
Chances mistaken no discretion for some
Buzzards gotta eat as so to worms
dying on the road of tears as the white man seeks up behind me again
Change only as the sun hide and the moon enlighten
Surrender to give in order to receive
Though is better to give than receive
Look for good to come though patience is a virtue
Real slow like molasses in the winter time
Clouds in the sky floating like dreams in the mind
Taken to be scarce entitled to much in return for nothing
Sorrows

Numbness and tingling with abnormal sensations has occur everywhere in my body, but are often felt in my chest and abdominal a thought causes painful, involuntary contraction of my muscles, fatigue and strain. Rankling discontent, 
especially from envy or jealousy; grudge.
Emotions are flaring judgement is clouding my thoughts
Entwined like  knots bind to myself with some other object obstructed of the air from the environment into the lungs. 
I just miss you.