Renae

Renae Nov 2014

Endurance*
is the name of this game
so, I do.

Renae Nov 2014

If only life were black and white
White would always be clean and bright
Clearly seen and easy to decifer
white as good, black as the other
But instead there are so many colors

Renae Nov 2014

She

She's off!
On an adventure of her own
Experiences that will light up her darkness
Lifting her hopes and dreams
Love she's never known
Opens doors
She never knew they existed
Growth!
In measures unimaginable
She's running forward
No looking back
She's smiling
She's alive
She's loved

Renae Nov 2014

Asleep

Awakened by a dream or was I even asleep?
These days it can be hard to tell
Especially since the moment the door was opened and what was allowed in I'll never know, and I believe I'll never want to.
Asleep is what I wish, yet it seems to fail me....
So my state of mind may be wary
Continuously....
Enduring in a fog of sorts, hopeful
Of miracles in white or color
Though they often never appear...
In a daze I'm yearning to remain awake
Unsure if what really isn't is and what is isn't......
I toss and turn in the darkness
All along unconcious; all along asleep

Renae Nov 2014

lifeless

Limp and still, there is no sign or signal
The whole world has ceased to exist
There is no such thing as time or work or worry because her life has become lifeless

Renae Nov 2014

I pretend

He would whisper
every sensual seduction
Tickling my ears with desire
I imagine we were in love
Dancing purely out of emotion
Taking us over as we'd drown
In eachother's arms
Tangled up in a stormy romance
His thunder
My lightning
Electricity sparks a fire
We were engulfed into flames
A passion more intense
Than one mind could behold
Burning out of control
We could burn down the whole forest
until it was finally a smolder
A burning smolder
No longer strong enough
The smolder turns to ash
Easly blown away by the wind
In my mind as vivid as the beginning
And still I wish, I imagine, I pretend

Renae Nov 2014

The pursuit of happiness

And she walked the path winding to and fro in her serpentine steps. Balancing on the side of her right foot; coyly she smiles that lopsided mischievous grin and ***** her head:

"I want adventure and romance, a life of excitement! You can't find that in an office or slaving on end for ends." I thought about these words as she plopped back down on both feet and I ask , "what will you do?" she shrugged, "I just don't know but I need to be far from here, I'm on the pursuit of happiness" ....

So that doesn't include me? I thought to myself, and a sudden sadness swept over me. Her 16 year old figure unflawed and beautiful, she was still my gangly girl inside, wasn't she? Where is my happiness in seeing her acheivements, in watching her grow and change and love? But no, her eyes drop, she is distant, aloof.... she is separating and dividing me heart and soul. She doesn't mean to, it is just her happiness she is after.