The hols in his shoes
His ruffled hair,
The way he's so jumpy
A sweatshirt never changing,

The ***** shirt
That also holds blood stains
From fights past,
Holes in the knees of his pants,

His foul language
The anger beneath the surface,
Scars dealt by others
All of this and more,

His kind eyes
The glowing smile
A warm hug
His ringing laugh

All of this and more
Is why I stay,
Stay with him here
All of this and so much more.

All I want
Is to sleep next to you.
All night.
And wake up with you.
Cuddle with you.
It's all I long for.
Night and day.
Every hour
Waking or sleeping.
You're on my mind.

My eyes are wet.
It can't be tears
Because I don't cry.
I think some of my
Happiness
Love
Joy
Is seeping out.
I blame you
But I don't really mind.

Fear.
Do we grow out of it?
Or do we just grow
Accustomed to it?
Sometimes I don't know.