I know one day I will have to let go
I know one day
I will have to say Goodbye
And day by day I'll tell myself
I'll be ready
That we can just be happy
With the time we have left
But I know that one day
When the goodbyes come
I will cry forever
For the future we didn't have
And smile for the past we did
But the need to hold on
And the inability to let go
Will hurt more than anything
Because that one day
And for all days
I will love you.

Piercing hot water
Stabs my flesh
But no matter how
Hard I scrub
I can't get it of my
Chest
I tried bathing
In bleach
But it just burned
It in deeper
I tried bowing my
Head and ask
For forgiveness
But all I got was
Mumbled words in
A silent deliverance
I opened the
Darkness in the
Holes of my heart
Remembering the evil
In hopes I could
See it as painful art
But no matter how
Hard I try
I cannot purge
Myself of my oldest
Addiction
And I know it's time
To hand myself my own
Conviction

I look at you
Into those
Blue green
Eyes

I feel it

The feeling

The indescribable
Heart racing
Heart stoping
Feeling

You smile and
It spreads across
My lips like a
Sweet disease

There's no doubt
my love for you is real

Loving an addict comes with a price
It NEVER gets easier watching someone
Blindly commit suicide