i miss you terribly
hope you are doing well
hope that all of us can get along again...
please?
just like the old times?
of hello kitties and heart-to-hearts
of lost wallets and failed driving tests
of dried chilli and unfolded clothes
of birthday cakes and animes

oh my brother
talk to us again... please?

i really wish
we could be siblings again

not strangers

so numbing it is
that i wonder if
even these tears
is only pretense

too beautiful
too beautiful
too beautiful

i'm never doing this ever again.
i'm quitting

im throwing away everything
nothing matters anymore
not an inch of sentimentality moves in me
take the black trash bag
i won't even look through the old pictures
all these memories, emotions
there won't be a time for me to reminisce
anyway
look at this broken frame
it cracked where your smile is

just like how the same smile cracked
that lifeless heart within me
a heart that i can't choose to throw
regardless of its dark ***** blackness

*oh light
why wouldn't u enter this crack
am i this much of a piece of trash

i came back here to delete my poems
but
words don't just
disappear
like
that

you know?

it has become worse now
that i have memorized
your presence and

(argh this is frustrating honestly you are akin to poison)

if only i could de-exist
and uncomprehend this
unfounded
fondness for you

(oh no i do not, i cannot be feeling this way)
(oh God please cure me)