Anxiety
you would call it,
you say well that doesn't fit,
your personality is too positive,
not too negative,
you fit so well with others,
including your brothers,
some say it's suicidal thoughts,
feeling full of knots,
they say i have issues,
no i don't have any,
i don't have a pocket full of tissues,
knots in me (Twenty),

Betrayed
Every **** day
I thought i was athiest
Until i realize i am a god
I almost gave a crap about you
When you were blue
I was there
I never had to disappear
Now your here
I don't know what to do
When your parents show up with you
I'm haning out with the "wrong" person
Every Friday
Our friendship always become worsen
That's the high day
I try to be nice
Twice!!!

Don't let today's troubles,
bring u down,
Or allow you to question,
Your ability,

Don't let life's little obstacles,
Keep you from trying,
or become the reason for defeat,

Don't let your fears,
keep you from dreaming,
Or from chasing,
your dream,

Don't give up for any reason,
believe in yourself,
and in yourself,
you'll find strength,

Hello hell
supposed fell into
sitting in math class
it's a pain in the ***
but wait until the end of the day
to walk around like a stray
the fealing all day is always depressed
is it maybe because i'm stressed?
or that i have to take 4 retake tests?
i have to retake a quiz
but don't feel like taking that as is

Hey, what's up?
my name is Raq'y
I have messed up
that's probably y i'm so cocky

so, u have a life
i don't
I have a knife
*****-y-ness is my tone

guess I should of left u a lone
cuz ig u don't like it when i'm hanging out with my gf
but b4 i leave u alone don't break my bone
let me wear my hat called neff

my as hole is a girl
i used to date her
but now she is being an ***
used to be in my class

how can you feel the same as everyone else?
there is no one like me or you
that's what's false
someone might feel blue

the sun is shinning
and you feel great
i am frighten
not wanting to skate

down the road i go
feelings so mutual
to a place i don't know
it's so unusual

i am done
not giving up though
not ready for the gun
whoa!

I was born with no one around me to love
everyone was isolated
too much of a shove
feeling so frustrated

an orphanage
they call it

nothing but hatred in there eye's
trained to hate no love
everyone dies
now i look at my blood brother from above

smack there
you disobeyed them
smack here
they grabbed a stem

i'm not there anymore
I am living in a home
i am not there no more
not in a trashed up dome

Tropical!
i'll call my parent's
my families love is unstoppable
for them there is no disappearance

we love each other so much
that i sometimes feel bad for it
i always feel that clutch
and that's why i feel  bad for it

My name is Raq'y
i have no disappointment in my family
even though i can be a little cocky
we have no vanity

Raq'y:
Tonight we are victorious,
Champaign poring over us,
Let's be alone together,
We can stay young forever,

Hannah R:
When I was a young boy,
My father took me into the city,
To be young volcanoes,

Raq'y:
When I was in 3rd grade, I thought that I was gay,
Cause I could draw, my uncle was, and I kept my room straight,

Hannah R:
I don't believe that love's for me
So won't you come around and prove me wrong

Move on **** it!
I feel nothing but ****
The one I left
Bad, that's how she felt
I was the girl who was happy
clappy
but now i'm sad
and  doesn't feel bad
for the sorrows i caused
I wish i can put everything to pause
ghost is what i want to feel
I don't want to keep peeling my mask off every night
it's such a fright
i'm done with this poem
so goodnight

I have a best friend who I met from ICA,
she is having the hardest times right now,
We know each other for 4 years,
She is the best person I have ever met in my life,

She goes to DMAAC for college,
To get more knowledge,
She has been going there for 2 years,
N she has been telling me everything that I hear,

For now in 2016 she is having a hard time,
people have been trying to get to her,
its such a crime,
I don't know what to do,

this person has been text or emailing her friends,
Her friends think it's her when really it's not,
so it's hard for her and me,
they could separate her and me friendship,

they haven't texted or email me yet,
i'm scared for her,
for sure,
I bet,

but no matter what i'm here for you,
even in my hardest times I will try,
your always gonna be my boo,
if you want to cry then we can both cry,

Grandma I wonder,
Where you keep your wings,
I know this day will come,
Where I will have to say goodbye,
When I was sad,
And need of a smile,
In a garden of memories,
I see you standing there,
Angel in disguise,
Who taught me how to care,
I will hold you close in memory,
Till I drop my very last tear,
So sleep now with the Angels,
And your golden heart let rest,
Although our hearts are broken,
We know God took the best,
I'll never forget how much you have done,
So until my hand meets yours again,
Sleep now in the sun.

deep down inside i feel in shock,
like something just hit me,
some one hit me. Knock,
i'm on the ground,

please someone help me,
i messed up in this message,
you may not agree,
but I am in pain,

Lost everyone I loved,
they just flew out like a dove,
going to therapy,
that doesn't even help me,

I wish they could just get along,
and hear what I have to say,
in this song,
life without a bea,

I wish i wouldn't cry,
and let my eyes dry,

I am waiting
waiting
for someone
to see
me

Sometimes my titles don't match my poems
cause i just type in my emotions
didn't go to school last 2 days
i have my ways
depression u could tell
last night I yelled
too much to scream now
too much to make a pow
our world is ****** up
most people would say "yup!"
bleeding a lot all to the top of the cup
come see and say what's up
Stressed (of living)
but never stopped believing
for others i hate
mom say's "just wait"
for what so i need the pleasure for this
there is no bliss
anywhere!!!
having a lot of despair
slutty ******* like you make me *******
punch you so hard getting u a whooping cough
i recall your'e the 1st class *****?
that's probably why you switched
the school you used to go to was Valley
repeating all the classes here instead of dillydallying
hmm, you must have been a ***** over there
with your messed up hair
I don't want to just compare
not yet again full of despair
goodnight for i say at the fair

Well this is it
not just a little bit
try to start over
but no sleepover
look at me in my eye's
please, let's try
i'm sad
don't think that i' m becoming bad
like O.J. Simpson
I don't want to be like him
I am a Dickerson
but not an easy swim.

y do we take drugs?
is it all because of the tugs?
we have in life?
instead sometimes we think of knifes
we have low day's
we have all sorts of way' s
but mine is always depressed
instead of up pressed
feeling low everyday
in different ways
putting on a mask
to follow the only task
that i have?
nothing
that's what i feel
everyday
take off the mask like peeling
so much sorrow in here
because i always fear
i feel pressure in everything
A ping tree sitting in no where
that's how i appeared there

Being strong is a struggle,
being stressed is simple,
My heart is broken,
All my scars are open,
People tell me i'm not worth it,
at least i'm some ****,

math is hard,
I show aggression towards,
the math,
but don't and never would take ****,

I want to see your face,
but there is no time nor place,
I will try to fill in this space,
I have,

Medication is not working,
should I just be falling?
looking back,
to the past,
BLAST!!!,

I'm not suppose to be looking in the past,
I don't know what to do,
I look like a fool,
hoodie up. Nose down,

trying to be positive,
It's hard to be positive,
I'm running out of  words to try,
so i guess this is goodbye,

I use this in vain,
because i am unavailing,
Just another kind of feckless person,
and more worsen,
a scrap,
onto the crack,
you never made me feel any good,
which I have should,
I guess I had never understood,
tried to but misunderstood,
A LOT!!!!
In a isolated area,
feeling nothing but frustrated,
I'm just another nix,
never to fix,