This poison
I feed my soul
Like blood dripping
Burning my heart
Killing all that is weak
Making me empty
Dead inside
Tell all that is left
Is pain and darkness
This is me
Because when dead inside
Your world is not alive

These red eyes
Crimson tide
A blood wake
Rage and contempt
Hatred
War
Firing through my vain
A hunger
To fight
These red eyes

Look to the stars
Broken bits of light.
Sparkling in the dark
Like glimmers of hope
In the darkest moments
Some where there is a spark
Burning in your heart
So lift that chin
And have them guide you
on your way
And know there is hope
When you look to the stars

For years I thought me a monster
Hideous and cold
The creature deep inside I locked away
I fought it every day
I Know this creatures name and it is fear
Acting like it was not there
But that is the way fear is, justified and renamed
Hiding in the shadows
But this thing I was afraid of what was is
and now I know
I was afraid of me and to be happy
And tho I am afraid
I can now face that monster

I think I have backed my self in to a corner. I'm not normal. I am not right. I am an outsider. I am alone. My world has crumbled. The things I love are lost. Or maybe like smoke and mirrors where never real. I can't see any more through these rose tinted glasses. But taking them off. I am the dream. I am the the one who fades. In the corner.  I am the dream that dies. And this is how the story of me ends.

Have ever had a secrete
So darkest
Deepest secrete
The one you forgot
In the bottom of a box
Locked away in the depth of a soul
Come back to haunt me
This was why I am
The way I am
This is who I am
An yet I with all my strangth
Can not face it
Because I am affraid
It's slowly killing me
Shame
Guilt
Pain
And contempt
All at my self
This was why I became strong
To hide it where no one can see

I lied
I needed you