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 Apr 2013 raðljóst
Evynne
I am walking rather briskly
Trying my hardest to enjoy the cold and fast raindrops
That are being thrown at me from all directions
And I am looking down at my feet
Hiding my face from the weather
Attempting to escape the stares of other people
As I always do
I peer down at the puddles my feet are subconsciously stepping over
I look closer, more intently
And I see the branches of the trees from up above
Their limbs so beautifully floating on the tops of these small pools of water
Their images slightly rippling with the wind
What I see are reflections
And the puddles, they are mirrors
And then I think
How curious it is
That their reflections appear so differently than their normal semblance
I stare deeply within each aperture
Continuously
One puddle after the other
My eyes searching for the next one to gaze into
And an illusory aura takes over me
As Time echoes in and out of my eardrums
My eyes take flight
And I realize I am staring into a world
That is so incredibly different than my own
And I so desperately want to step into one of these puddles
And hear the splash
As I would fall deep down into it
And find myself to be completely immersed in their world
As I would escape my own
And explore this new territory
I could swim in the sensation that would envelop me

But instead I keep walking
My eyes still relentlessly searching
My mind reaching ever so longingly
The further and further I walk
The more I feel myself disappearing

And in my mind I become a mere apparition
And cease to exist
 Apr 2013 raðljóst
Evynne
Love is like time
It is unruly
It knows things
You can feel it in your heart
And your eyes when they light up
You want to feel it every single day
Drift away in the feeling
Love makes the world say the words at night
And think quiet things in your mind as you look to the left and see the little cast of light on his face
And you feel the need to trace the shapes with your fingers softly
Lovingly
You long to tell someone about his allure and charm but you're at an utter loss for words when it comes to how he makes you feel
It is something you have never known
A feeling no string of words could ever successfully describe
A feeling deep within your soul
Warm and igniting
Reaching out and digging its fingers in the same places where pain lingers
And it is an uneasy feeling, but it is a good one

The thought of his smile, and the winsome dimple on his left cheek, dances around in your head
As you think about how it feels to kiss his soft lips, you smile a new smile
An effortless smile, emerging on its own
Creeping up your insides until it reaches your throat
Tingling
Then emerging without permission
Relentlessly spreading across your entire face
The sides of your lips curl up and you can feel it all over
All inside of you
It is warm and whimsical
And then you smile even harder
For you have no control over it
No other option than to just keep smiling
You think of his hands and what they felt like while they were caressing your face
What they felt like as his fingers meticulously wove through the long locks of your chestnut colored hair
They hold a sun inside of you that shines on hope and feels like home
Your heart sighs when his lips meet yours
And it is a heavy feeling, but it is a good one

You try to remember a time when someone else, someone else's warm body next to yours, made you feel like this
But you can't
Because it is a feeling unlike any you have ever known to exist
Even in your dreams you have never felt anything of the like
It is frightening
But so breathtaking
Stirring around the walls of your heart
Knocking and being welcomed in with warm impressions and friendly gestures
You lay next to him and it is homely and the feeling of his body next to yours is comforting
And each time he touches you, your skin remembers
And your heart flutters
Oh, beautiful dream

Walking together, the wind thunderous and chilling
He locks his arm in yours, forms a link between your two bodies
His eyes and endeavors reveal endearment and tenderness
It surprises you beyond belief when he talks of the little things he notices about you
When he executes small gestures that are beaming and full of care and warmth
Things no one else has ever done unto you
You've always thought, "I am so full of love and nobody wants it"
But he wants it, yearns for it, embraces it, swims in it
You've always thought, "I am always the one who loves more, always the one who is loved less"
But he loves just as much as you do, his heart just as big as yours, his intents just as intimate and passionate
Finally you feel you have found someone worthy of your love
Someone whose love is equal in size to yours
Someone who willingly accepts all of the love you willingly ration out
And returns the favor with care and ease
And it is a terrifying feeling, but it is a good one

He kisses you and you can feel the ache and desolation drain out of you
Filling your empty parts full of smoldering ardor and love
And you fall into a rapture so sweet, it completely engulfs you
You can feel the cracks of his youthful heart
And it makes you want to be a part of that
For he is a compliment to you
The two of you bounce and beam off the other
Swirling in perfect intervals
Moving in perfect sync
Your similarities bringing you close
Your contraries bringing you closer
And it is a peculiar feeling, but it is a good one

He came to you when you weren't looking
Garnered you when you weren't striving to be found
And yet here he is laying next to you in bed
His arms tied securely around your body
And you can feel it
Whatever it is
You can feel it
For it has no name
As it is not worthy of being named
The feeling, too great
The sensation, too wonderful

Describing it is impossible
But feeling it is enough
 Apr 2013 raðljóst
F Alexis
Ablaze
 Apr 2013 raðljóst
F Alexis
Hush.

Cease your noise.

Fall silent, all you who gather here
To lay down the suffocating burdens
That rest so unforgivingly
Upon your weary souls.

Your lamenting shall bring you
No greater harm,
Nor any relief,
While you are here.
Your cries will go unheard,
For we have either heard them before,
Or we cannot hear them over our own.

Your tears will be free to fall
But none shall amount
To any great difference.
If you must cry,
Water the earth with your expression,
And return to her
What she once gave you.
Do not let your tears
Of loss,
Be a loss themselves.

We are here together
To break free
From all that binds us,
All that holds us back,
Holds us still,
Holds us captive;
All that has broken us,
Beaten us,
Forgotten us,
Used us,
Taken advantage of us,
Looks down upon us
With the kind of sneer
That could only come
With deriving great pleasure
From causing great pain;
All that has brought us anger,
Sadness,
Incredulity;
All that has taken from us
The light by which we once
Tread our own paths,
And as it grew dimmer,
Our paths,
Winding,
Weaving,
Twirling,
Crossing
But never so that we met,
Became one.

And we are here
To let go of all
Of these things,
Because of which
We have harbored
Unspoken rage,
Unshed tears,
Confessions that were
Never made,
Or perhaps,
Never should have been.

We are here to release
The binding ties
Which in love,
Would bring us together
But in their hateful existence,
Have driven us all apart.

I stand before you with a match.
This match,
A rather unremarkable
Piece of timber,
Was tucked snugly with its
Equally unremarkable
Brethren
Into a pouch.
Thrown among a heap
Of the same,
With no consideration
That it might have
Been better off
Remaining a part of the tree
From which it came.
It was one tiny part
Of that tree,
But what of the possibilities,
That it might have been
Something great?

It might have been a branch
Upon which an eagle
Built its nest.
Or, even more incredibly,
A twig that helped compose
Her nest,
And for however long,
Supported the incubator
That would bring her legacy
To life.
It might have been a part
Of a ******'s dam,
A vital part of an ecosystem,
And whose absence could mean
Life or death
For so many others.
Or it may simply have become
Compost
When the tree had died,
Become a part of the soil
Which would support
Future generations
Of every lifeform imaginable.

But now...

Now, we will never know.
This little match,
So very typical,
With its plain composition
And tiny red cap,
Will fulfill a typical purpose,
Today.

I strike this match
And say to you,
The flame that it will create
Will be the new flame
For your personal path.

It represents illumination,
A casting out
Of the darkness you were in,
A reawakening of all that
Might have been lost,
But can now be saved,
Or that has been lost,
But now makes room
For something better.

It is a rekindling
Of the joy that life once
Brought you,
And the magnification
Of that joy
Which it will still yet bring.

It is a revitalization of the good in you,
The light which you shed
On so many unappreciative lives;
A light which
You still have the chance
To shed
On those who truly need it most.

And it is a reminder to you...

...to not be a match.

Do not let them throw you in
With the rest,
Assort you as though you
Are common!
Do not let them pull you
From everything great
That you might yet achieve,
Just so that they may
Assign you a typical purpose!
Do not let them light you once,
Use you,
And then cast you aside,
Having already taken,
In that one small flame,
Everything that you had to give.

And now,
I light this match,
Upon the branches
You have laid here.
The branches that
Have broken off of
Your tree of life,
And now can be no more.

For everything that you have lost,
There is a branch for it.
Remember, now,
That what once was alive,
And has now been separated,
What is now dead,
Can no longer
Serve a purpose.

So I tell you,
Pull from your heart,
Your mind,
And your soul,
What has had the undeserving
Privilege of plaguing you.
Extract it,
Remove it,
Cast it into the fire.
Set it ablaze,
And while it burns,
Abosrb the warmth
From these flames,
Which remind you of
Who you are,
What you are worth,
And the warmth
With which you will
Illuminate
The darkest,
Coldest places
Where you, yourself,
Have returned from.


Cast them!


Cast them now!


Push aside the weakness -
That is not who you are!
Summon every fiber and cell
Of your newfound strength
And let all of it go!


And now,
It is done.


Now,
They are ashes,
To be blown away
In the same wind
Which dried your tears
These many years,
And will do so
For years to come.

Incinerated,
They are swept away -
The broken hearts,
The lost and forgotten dreams,
The stolen opportunities,
The harsh and unforgiving words,
The hopeless, sleepless nights,
The sunrises which brought no new promise
But reminded you of everything
That could go wrong -
They are gone!


They are nothing now!


But you,
In their absence,

You...


...are everything.
 Apr 2013 raðljóst
Jeremy Duff
There is a small patch of forest just next to my house.
When I was little my sister and I would go there and dance and sing.
Today I decided to visit. Beer bottles and empty cigarette packs littered the ground.
I had been there in a while but someone had. I sat down on a rotting log and pulled out my own pack of cigarettes.
I stayed there, sitting on that log, accompanied by my thoughts and the sound of the wind rushing through the pines above.
It's as if the trees were speaking to me.

In an ancient and eminent language they whispered.
They told me stories the Moon wanted to remain unknown.
They sang to me songs the birds first whistled.
And with strength the river envied they swept me away.
The innocence of the pines was obvious in this serene place.
 Apr 2013 raðljóst
SA
Rants (1)
 Apr 2013 raðljóst
SA
I find myself lost at times.
However, not lost enough to say that I cannot be saved.
Some say that there is no hope for me
and I believe so myself
But sometimes I think I am just RANTING
Oh, yes, I am so angry
but not angry enough.
My heart longs for pure liquid love.
Jesus, if I could only take a dose
and rip off the red strands of hair
because they symbolize the devil and nothing else.
 Apr 2013 raðljóst
Odi
Because we both know the sound of gunfire
Except I, didn’t grow up in a war zone
It was a different kind from yours
Our bullets were words
Sounds of breaking glass
And the shards of which made it into my cheerios the next day
Chewed them anyway to spite
The sound that
Breaking makes

You,
you know the sound of falling bodies too readily
  you can mimic them in your footsteps
The smell of rotting corpses
What kind of scars shrapnel really leaves

What the color of blood really looks like
I see that shade of red every time you speak
  The way you keep it hidden in those paintings
In the drawer that I sneak into when you sleep
Know too well what evil looks like

I can find a place for all the words buried in my chest
inside your bullet wounds easily

If I were not a coward

Staring into the dark irises of men in uniforms dirtier than their conscience,
Find it easier to look into a barrel of a gun
Only one of them holds salvation
  
No, you are not afraid of guns
Nor the sound that breaking makes


But I still remove the safety pin
Just in case
 Apr 2013 raðljóst
Madeline
if it were up to me?
   ****. it'd be cigarettes and tea
     and my giant cat by a giant window, and sparse furniture, and wooden floors.
it'd be a certain someone and poems scattered around every paint-splattered surface,
and writing on the walls in sharpie,
and tights and socks and sweaters and walks in the park.
          it'd be mid-morning sunlight and sleeping till noon and no walls separating the rooms.
         it'd be london or new york or maine or ******* canada or something -
something far away and obscure and artistic
where it rains a lot
so that i can dance.
 Apr 2013 raðljóst
Madeline
i'm jonesing for a human being -
can you do that?
i am.
it hurts like a rose-smoke-burn in my throat
and a deep-throbbing ache in my chest -
      waiting for you
counting the days
until you're mine
to inhale
and exhale
and inhale
again.
 Apr 2013 raðljóst
Madeline
i think by nature i'm a gasoline-pourer -
    i don't strike the match but
  goodamn it, do i set up that fire.

i am. i'm a gasoline-pourer and a poison-spreader
and i destroy fragile things.
i'm a gasoline-pourer and i'm afraid
      we might be the kindling.
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