When I was a child I thought life would be simple
Grow up
find yourself a prince
Then settle into a life which fills up all your desires
Hopes and wishes
Time was mistreated and now years later
Bones crushed and mended
Bruises faded and gone
Tears in my heart still hurt
Because I never did it right
Never found my prince
Many a frog in prince's clothing have come my way
To tease the very thought of love
To beckon and not deliver
To love and to leave
Now I am in limbo
A partner who lives in his own shell
Un needing for a life of companionship
Work and responsibilities taking up precious time
I feel alone so many times and I cant stand it
A hand to hold for just a moment
Moments are fleeting but few
But what else can there be
I fight with my feelings of unworthiness
Or my neediness
But wanting a lover and companion for more than one day in a fortnight surely that's not strange and clingy or needy
Maybe I'm just not cut out for this
I love him
But he never lays his hand upon my cheek whilst I cry
He never rubs my shoulders when they are sore
And he is not there for me to give the love I have in my heart
A crossroads
Tears fall and splash list fully upon my cheek bones
And then I will carry on living the single but not quite single life
Which comes with the absent lover

She was in a hurry as she left home that day
Duvet lay crumpled on the floor where it fell as she rushed from her slumber
How could she have forgotten
This moment
The day she had waited for for so long never really believing it would happen
What a day for the alarm clock to give up the ghost
She knew she should of set the alarm on her phone
But hey
She walks down the street
A street that is embedded into her psychy
It’s been good here
The neighbours are more like family
She wondered if she would ever find a place like this again
The day was overcast but you could see a glimmer of light willing itself out from behind murky clouds
At the train station she was greeted by a rather stern face
She smiled anyway and went through the process of buying her ticket
Just at that moment she turned and caught a glimpse of him
She climbed the steps to the platform
He held out a hand
She would never go back this time
His eyes felt like home
His embrace felt like heaven

Another day
Like clockwork
we unwind from our night dreams
Emerging upon the waking world
Eager to create our dayly existence
Reaching
Ever reaching
Levels in which we can learn to understand
and remember why we turn the clock
Tick tock tick and a tock
Dream time beckons me home
But I will fight to stay alive

Blood trickles
From sapphire teardrops
That radiate hate
Pure illumination

Dare to believe

It's the new dimention in understanding*

Dare to believe*

**What do you have to loose