Rai - Hello Poetry

Rai Jul 2023

Why bother ….
Why …..
…….

So if your always the one to start a conversation
And if you don’t
They don’t
So I guess that means they don’t want to talk to you
So best leave it
Just don’t bother
Because always being the one
Is a little exhausting
And if they don’t want to talk to you
Why would you make them
So you sit all alone
Wondering ……
Wondering why …..
wondering why bother …..
……… just this …….

Rai Jun 2023

End of the line …

I sat on the fence.
The end of the line.
Loving every inch of your soul.
From the distance you waved.
And for a fraction of a moment
I really thought you saw me.
An eternity passed before me the first time our eyes met
Yet still
You’re over there longing for something that will never be me.
You don’t know me
You don’t feel me
You don’t see me at all.
I watched as all your moments crumbled.
I cried when your heart was broken.
I begged god and his angels when I saw you falling crash landing into oblivion.
But I do not dream of you on warm summer nights.
In fact I don’t ever dream at all anymore.
Dreams are for those who wander aimlessly through corridors and walk through doors that hold hope on the other side .
On the other side of my door I find angels and demons playing poker at my expense and I catch you from the corner of my mind laughing.
I choose to leave you there knowing my soul will burn for less than this.

Rai Jun 2023

Friendship in tatters

You drink to forget
The mistakes that you’ve made
You lie to your friends
So easily nowadays
I’m not here to save you
Your like a vulnerable child
But back to those vices
I watch as you cave in
So chiselled and calm
Like there’s no care in the world
That can’t be put right at the end of a bottle
I hate I can’t help you
I love you you know
But off to your vices your readily go
A friendship in tatters
You beg me to not let go
But your making it difficult
Hell don’t you know
Seeing you all tattered and torn at the edges
You don’t love yourself and get into all kinds of messes
I wish we could jump back to when life was more mellow
Gardens and sunshine and fires and music
The love of connection
I’m worried we’ll loose it
You drag round or carry a sheep saved from slaughter
But back she must go as soon as gets older
Your court case is looming
You hurt that beautiful man
Was breaking him apart part of your plan
You tell him you love other people or had flings with your friends and where did you think this would end
I sit and cry tears
I’m not sure what to do
You just don’t listen
You will always do you
And I love you whatever but a distance prevails
You lied to me I don’t take that well
A friendship in tatters
Or a lesson on love unconditional and true
But right now I find it hard to be around you ..

Sometimes friendships are hard especially when they span over the years and come crumbling

Rai May 2023

Luna

_Moon madness
Energies harnessed
Like a wild beast
Yearning
Anxiety rising
Thoughts ever running
In spaghetti hoop roundabouts
My feelings are reeling
Nature is screaming
Inside my head
Wild winds are blowing
Sunrise is slowing its embrace of the day
Captured still in sunsets that have gone astray
Chaos silenced
Silhouetted heart shaped nothings
And I beat my drum
Trying to find my way through
The dark woods of night loom too close
The full moon pulls , shifts , enlightens and helps me let go of my ego
What is left
Will drift freely
A bride to the ocean
A servant to the air
Harnessed by fire
May the earth below my feet consume all that is not needed here.
As Luna sits quietly, most powerfully above us
Let us remember
Just how insignificant
We are here
Nature runs riot
And we scream for help
Nature screams loud
We have nowhere to run
We are not listening
But we will be made to to feel
Without any doubt _

Rai May 2023

Fly

I wrote a letter
To the wayward girl
The one that used to be me.
I apologised
For letting the wrong people in.
For walking away from opportunities which would have been good for her and just generally not being the best version of who we could have been and become.
I quite like being me most of the time.
It’s the rest of the time
When I don’t quite feel like I belong.
When the world just feels overwhelming.
When I take the smallest rejection as something more.
So I’ll say sorry that she needed to learn how to build walls to protect us.
I’m sorry the foundations weren’t more stable on the rickitty ole life we’ve shared.
But we got here
Wherever here is
And there’s many days left to let the sun shine on our faces and for the breeze to caress all that needs healing within us.
I wrote the letter , then made a paper aeroplane
How far I wonder
Just how far …

Rai May 2023

Moment

Just for a moment
I could breathe.
For a moment
I thought I had it all.
That moment taught me that anything is possible.
But also that everything is always changing
Morphing
Renewing
Everything is temporary.
Even love …

Rai May 2023

Trample

She said she loved you.
Then trampled on your desires.
She said she cared.
But preferred him in the end.
She held you close as your heart broke.
And she then turned away as you surrendered your soul