I didn't need reminding
But you told me all the same
Great friends
What a laugh
I laugh
Then fall screaming
I never stopped hoping
I went through those old letters you sent
Summer nights
Sweet perfume filling the midnight air
Toes playing with the surf
As the breeze sweeps my hair
Back from my face
Captured in a photograph
I look so young
So free
So in love
Yet
So vunerable
Lines of love bleed onto the paper
Time never heals
It just sends us divertions
To cover the truth
It's hard to believe that young girl is me
I see myself differently
Through eyes that lost the tinted glass
Remembering
To replace the past where it lays
I move on to tomorrow
Then beyond
Life is sweeter
Life is worth living
Sleep now comes

Letting myself truely live
Was the greatist gift I ever gave to myself

Obcessive
Obcessed
Incircling the lines on the wall
Where I see u carved my name
Don't hold back now
Rip for rip
Head to toe confusion

Pain pumps its self around my vains
Obcession
Depression lurking
Hurtful
Keep pushing
Explosion
Corrosion
A bitterness on lips so sweet
Total nightmare

Daily I think much too much
About you?
Never

freedom came only when I released and let go

Smiling
Letting go
Totallity of all things

Simply delicious
Blood tasting like honey
Thirsty for a recollection
Time flies don't you think?

I don't crave the truth
The one I shall find
Beneath your velvet brown eyes
Bidding on life itself
Time flies  when in the company of strangers

Turn away before you find what I had hidden
Only my truth is illuminated within
Without my heart
I am nothing
Time flies when your soul is yearning

Truth
You wouldn't know it if you saw it
If you could feel truth how would it feel?
Hold your pillow against your cheek
I hunger
And yet
Time still flies

Feathers cascade downwards
Forming a soft pile
Of unspoken moments
Touch me with the truth
That however fast time flies
There will always be a time for us

Forgetfulness makes me weak
Illusion makes me dream
Time
Well time will tell
If this circle of events will ever come full circle
Leaving me spinning,spiralling downwards

Conversation has become somewhat stifled
Communication is tiresome
Company of sorts
Disguised as friendship
Hollowness
A void beckoning for fullfillment
Look closely
Who we surround ourselves with
Creates not only thier destiny
But that of your own sweet soul.

It feels quite numb
An incomplete moment
A recollection of a breath upon my skin
Makes me smile
As still the tears are rolling down my cheeks
Hold on fast to the dream that flows from desires
That stem from hearts
Misted only by ivory towers
Feeling numb
Has become
My new way of handling tomorrow
The only way in which
I've learnt to hold up my head
And smile at the sun
Which often times
Threatens to scorched my very existence