A letter to my ex:
I met you 7 months ago. You were a friend of a friend. Always thought you were cute and had the brightest smile, just knew i wanted you from the moment i saw you. We talked, we became bestfriends, and eventually lovers. I stayed the night at your house, you stayed the night at my house. Everything was all good and lovey dovey in the beginning.. Your friends didnt like me though, they thought i was stealing you away from them. I wasnt though, i just wanted to spend every breaking moment with you tbh. I fell in love with you, and when i fell, i fell hard. Im head over heels in love with you. But then came the arguments and the ******* and the trust issues, but still throughout all that, there was still alot of love. You were my bestfriend, boyfriend, RoD, one of my 'girls', my diary, my right hand, my book keeper, my therapist, and the person who picked me up when i was so low i couldnt even get out of bed anymore. You loved me, and made sure i knew that. You showed me you cared, aint nobody ever really love or care about me before. We were very sexually active, *** atleast every other day. God we were madly in love. I spent months arguing with my mom over you because i refused to give you up... You were mine and i needed you badly. But then i ****** up, i started having doubts. With doubts came arguments and our breakup... Through our breakup i've only realized how ******* dumb i was and all my mistakes ive ever made when with you. Ive realized everything i need to change, and the most important thing i realized is that im madly in love with you and will never get over you. I want you & i cannot get rid of you; you are in my veins. Your scent lingers in my room and on my clothes and in my bed and one every single thing that you have ever touched in my house. I love you & only you. You will never fully understand my feelings for you.. Ive been down for you since i met you. & yes ive ****** up but i aint perfect no matter how hard i try... At this point, i was ready to give up, i had no hope of ever getting you back but now i dont know tbh. Im kinda, iffy. I still dont know if i will ever get you back, but lord knows its the only thing i want right now. I just, i need you in my life. You are my cup of tea, you are the reason i look forward to living a new day, you are the calm before the hurricane, you are the Prozac i take to keep my thoughts from being ****** up. You are the blood that runs through my veins, i just cant live without you. I met you 7 months ago and i had no idea i could fall so deeply in love so fast. I would do anything, and everything to be yours again. To be your girlfriend, princess, babygirl... Would do absolutely ******* anything... Just please, let me be yours again.