I keep telling everyone I hate you and it's almost like I do but you shattered my heart and I'm scared I might forgive you

I thought you were my medicine but you turned out to be my poison.
I thought I needed you always but now I hardly want you.

Don't tell me you've felt pain until you've loved someone who made words feel like broken glass and fingertips with the feeling of gritty sand paper

Do you ever feel like the words have just been taken right from your mouth
And you're left with a dry,
Empty feeling
Almost numb

Similar to that cold October day when you
Left me

It's an awful thing to feel

Because I can't seem to find the right words to describe it

Nothing measures up to it

2:24 am

do you think it meant nothing
when your fingertips
danced across my skin?

i still have that feeling
in the pit of my stomach

and i have a galaxy growing in my mind
of all the kisses you planted into my body
on my collarbones
on my cheek
on my nose
on my fingertips
on my heart

When you hold me do you feel like you have the whole world in your hands?