Rachel Cloud

Rachel Cloud Mar 2014

There are days life feels like a story
And I'm not the main character
Just support
The one with the ideal life,
but who is,
for no reason,
just as ******* up as she.
But I'm not important here.
This is hers.
I've watched her parents ignore her, and
I've watched her fall in love.
I've watched her cry and laugh and scream.
I've seen her at her best
and worst.
I saw her love leave her,
and she smiled.
And that hurt.
Because I'm the support,
and I can't solve her problems.
All I can do is watch her pain
with a look of concern,
and hope
That
She
Finds
Her
Happy
Ending.

I think this would make her happy. But I can't even make myself give it to her.

Rachel Cloud Mar 2014

Broken t h o u g h t s

Sometimes I'm afraid of angels
other times I look for demons
Sometimes I'm loud and lonely and lost
other times I'm silent enough to cry
I only ever have motivation
when I'm sad
and yet, nothing ever gets done
I'm so rarely happy
I remember when I was bright
and people looked at me
and smiled
I remember when I knew what I wanted
whether I had friends
or not
I remember when the cold
bothered me
and I would drink hot chocolate
and be warm
Now it only makes me
sick
sick
s i c k
I remember when I used to
feel safe at nighttime
and I could look at mirrors
and I could talk to people
I remember when I was
a
l
i
v
e

Rachel Cloud Mar 2014

Love lasts forever

Love lasts forever
Love never dies
Love is eternal
Love never cries

Love is a blessing
Love is a song
Love doesn't falter
Love will last long

Love will support you
Love will not fade
Love will reward you
With you, Love is made

Love is protective
Love is a friend
Love has a secret

Love has an end.

Rachel Cloud Mar 2014

Bittersweet

Love isn't for happiness.
   Love isn't for joy.
      Love is for screaming in agony, and knowing your pain will pain
      another.
          Love is for sharing sorrow and finding comfort together.
               Love, when you're sad, hurts when they're happy. And
                  Love, when they cry, brings a warmth you crave. Their tears give
                  you more, as pain makes love acute. For
               Love is revenge, and Love is fear.
            Love is destruction, and Love is rebirth.
         Love is the phoenix reborn, only to be shot in the heart.
      Love is disgusting, and Love is beautiful.
   Love is hard and dark and spiteful.

Love is kind

And Love is Death.

Rachel Cloud Feb 2014

Sacrifices

Children of the sky
the earth
the sea

Their lives
so short
seemed not to be

So safe
and calm
amongst their peers

Each
a victim
of their fears

Speech
and image spoke
of light

But even
doves can pick
a fight

Drops of sun
released from
heaven

Angels of
death to most
did beckon

A burning
change
took the land

A broken world
was close
at hand

A moment
year
a century
Time
found its
serenity

The sun
is
god

The
people
sod

The new world
no longer
known

Peace and change
have solely
grown

Yet an evil
grows
along

A Darkness
that does
not belong

Invading peace
and safe
and warm

There must
always be
some harm

The sky
once more
will fall

Only not
the sun
at all
Night’s dark
shadows
seep below

For fear
and sorrow
to bestow

I don't write outlines for stories. I write poems and see where they take me.

Rachel Cloud Jan 2014

S's

A
shuddering
shivering
sniveling heart

shattered and
shunned and
scorned from the start

It
screams and it
sobs and it
shrieks in its pain

yet it
sings with its
sorrow
and
soars with its
shame

The
safety of
sadness
so
strong in its
start

Slid into a
seething and
self-killing
heart

Rachel Cloud Jan 2014

Madness

Mirrors, mirrors,
left and right
and I can't see a thing

The clicking clock
goes tick tick tick
so I can't hear you sing

All I see is
me me me
but can't bear the sight

I'll rip it open,
let the red
block out all the light