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R A Sanders Nov 2011
My phone rang a few times last night,
Each time I wished it was you,
But every time I check
It was someone else,
That was tough to do;
I closed my eyes last night,
In hopes when I opened them you'd be by my side,
But when I did,
I was faced with the truth
That you were gone;
I weep by your grave,
I weep in our bed,
I just want to be where you are;
Now if you really must know how I am,
I should let you know,
I'm not doing so well,
Since you've been gone,
You told me to be happy,
But I just can't move on,
And it's tough.
R A Sanders Mar 2013
I wonder what it would be like,
What if you changed all those times you said you would,
What if you kept those promises you made to me,
I guess I shouldn't think so hard,
I shouldn't dwell on the past,
I just can't help but feel like I'm living a lie,
All the dreams you built in my head,
I have so many things I've left unsaid,
Out of fear of hurting you,
I wish I wouldn't of bit my tongue,
You aren't even around,
I wish I could of left just like you,
I thought the same things that kept me here saved you,
It was easy when things got rough,
When the bills were due and problems popped up,
You didn't think twice,
I wish you would of cared,
I guess I should of believed the truth, instead of ignoring the lies.
R A Sanders Jan 2013
I used to hate you,
Really hate you, with every fiber of my being,
I spent so much time thinking about you,
And about how you weren't thinking of me,
You'd leave me messages all the time,
Telling me how it's my fault,
How I was the one who needed to change,
Maybe you were right,
I did.
You had me so convinced that without you I was nothing,
You had to be my sun and moon,
Without you I was lost,
I couldn't protect myself,
I couldn't provide,
You created a small, fragile creature that had to depend solely on you,
And that's what you wanted,
You wanted to ******* me,
So I would never leave you,
But you always left me,
And I was always just an after effect,
When you returned I was expected to fall back in place.
You were cruel,
You knew just what to say to hurt,
And that was your purpose,
You'd throw verses from the Bible,
Mixed with your own ******* up theories,
To create a mix that made me unwilling of everything.
I want you to know,
Now that I'm a little older,
A little colder,
That you are right,
I needed to change,
And finally see the disaster in front of me,
You're the monster,
And I will no longer think of you at all,
Because at the end of the day,
When I'm sitting happily,
You'll be in some God forsaken place,
And I won't be thinking of you at all.
R A Sanders Jan 2013
I closed my eyes,
I blew out seventeen candles,
All thinking of the same wish,
I know I shouldn't jinxes this,
But even as foolish as I am,
I know all dreams don't come true.
I thought back to just a year prior,
The places I had been,
All while staying in the same neighborhood,
And in those new spaces,
Filled with dark and black,
I found a cold little being in the corner amidst all of that terror,
I remember the floor felt a little harder then before,
The room was a little bit larger,
And inside my soul had grown violent,
But you always did that to me,
My mind was empty,
I wasn't thinking about you,
I was feeling you though,
I was rabid,
The raw hatred in my body made it impossible to speak,
You didn't just upset me that night,
You created a new being,
Someone cold,
Someone heartless,
Someone who couldn't love,
You made me this way,
My bones still ache,
My body still pulsates,
The blood through my veins is rushing,
Now my wish is simple,
It's just to do as you wanted,
Just a year prior this time,
I pray you get your wish,
Maybe you should take another bottle of pills this time.
R A Sanders Oct 2012
Miles apart,
Oceans wide,
The other side of the world,
It's not how it's suppose to be,
We're the two to get together,
And together we are suppose to be,
Skies and canyons,
Fields of green,
The world between us is beautiful,
But your still the most beautiful thing I've seen.
Maybe your the ocean and I'm the shore,
Your a bird and I'm the ground,
I'll be here when you land from whatever your on,
We both made our decisions,
Despite our pasts,
I just need you to know,
I'll be here when you land.
R A Sanders Sep 2012
Do you remember anything from last night,
It was all a blur,
Maybe I did something right,
But wrong is what I do best,
I don't think you really know,
Just how lost I am,
I'm reaching for hands,
But there's never anything to grasp,
There's never a end.
R A Sanders Dec 2011
Your chasing a ghost,
Stop beating the horse,
Just let it die,
I respond with;
Trust me I've tried.
R A Sanders Oct 2012
The water pulls back and forth,
It's wild and calm and beautiful,
I want to live there,
In all of that controlled chaos,
I'm leaning against the golden rail,
The lights are shining behind me,
The musics humming in my ear,
People pass by me,
They try to interact with me,
But they don't interest me at all.
All that ocean air is wrapped in my hair,
It's curling at the ends,
I'm suffocating in the smell,
I swear it'd be the happiest death I'd ever see,
Now a hand is on the small of my back,
I don't dare turn around,
His contact against my skin
feels just like getting lost at sea,
His scent and the water,
The whisper of his voice against the wind,
My knees are buckling,
I'm on stilts a thousand feet tall,
Is my temperature really rising,
How does he do this to me?
I pull closer to the cool rail,
I use it to balance myself,
I try to seem calm and cool,
But everything I love is standing on both sides of me,
And I'm wanting to let go,
Falling rapidly into them,
But his arm goes around my waist,
I'm sinking into his hand,
I'm doomed.
He's right there staring into the water,
Leaning against the railing,
The boat has us both a little unsteady where we stand,
But I've never been so planted,
I've never loved like this,
The blue eyes I've came to know so well are shining against the waves,
Then they look at me,
For a moment I lose it,
I cling to his chest,
A chill runs up my spine,
But I'm so warm,
Right there in his arms,
I'm floating along,
I lean in to savor the sensation,
Then with the wind,
There his ghost is gone again,
I lean over the rail,
I did everything to be in his arms again,
Then into both my loves I go,
It's the happiest death I came to know,
Because without him I'm nothing,
Together we're a wave in the ocean,
The high tide on the shore,
Something wild and new,
Don't morn us,
Just look for the boat on the horizon,
That's where we'll be,
Together.
R A Sanders Sep 2012
I apologize,
I love your everything,
but you deserve more then me,
We were together for so long,
but it felt so short,
One night when we thought things couldn't get worse,
You made some bad decisions,
I did to,
There you were wrapped up in her,
Your hands in her hair,
You didn't make love to her,
but you tried,
Even if you wished it was me,
It wasn't us that create a being.

I thought I'd stop loving you,
Then I saw that little child,
I thought I'd hate him to,
Instead I wished he was mine,
and by "mine" I mean ours,
He's everything that's right in this world,
His mother,
Your one night,
Decided she couldn't do it this time,
She left both of your sides,
But not I,
She doesn't know what she's missing,
That little boy takes everything I have inside,
and I thought I could leave,
I'll make promises this time,
He means more to me then I imagined,
I love that he's a part of you,
I love everything he does,
He's a miracle,
How could you walk out on someone like that,
When he reaches for me,
I can't turn away,
It's not just you I'm staying for.

Trust me, I'm not mad,
I never was,
Our mistakes brought him to the world,
Would you have been there that night,
Would you have been so upset,
All those things we said,
The screaming,
Would you of gone to that party,
Would you have drank so much,
Would you have created that beautiful boy.

I apologize,
Not because I don't love you,
Not because I don't love him to,
Because he needs a mother,
Things I can't do,
I love him like my own,
I want, us three to be a home,
but I'm just to young,
to give him what he needs,
he deserves more then me,
I apologize.
R A Sanders Aug 2012
I don't know what to say,
I guess it's just an age,
Everyone cares but us,
They say the gap is insane,
I don't care what they say,
I just know how you make me feel,
How my heart skips beats,
I want your hands with mine,
I'm not running away,
Let the people speak,
Let's show them the truth,
How mad in love I am with you,
Everyone can see.
R A Sanders Mar 2013
I was just a young lady,
Working to be something that I wasn't,
Night and day, no weekends off,
Minimum wage, flirting for tips,
It was a job, and that was it.
I was bagging up an order,
Grilled Pork chop, green beans and fries,
when a large man took me by surprise,
Said are you really going to work here, you should enjoy your life,
I just blew him off, didn't give him a second thought,
He told me I should be kid while I still could,
But the truth was I hadn't been a kid for a long time.
Me.
R A Sanders Sep 2012
Me.
I'm stubborn,
You'll never be right,
I'm temperamental,
Even on my best nights,
I'm cold-hearted,
Even when I try,
I'm not anyone you want to meet.

I take chances,
I run away from my fears,
It's a new place every night,
I can't be controlled.

I can't admit to what I need,
I can't ask for your arms around me,
I'm a mess,
How could you love me,
I love that you love me.
R A Sanders Oct 2012
We always fight,
It's just what we do,
We aren't the same people,
Sometime we aren't even compatible,
I hate the way you use the toothpaste,
You don't like the music I listen to,
If I had a chance at some perfect guy,
Who did everything like me,
Who always comforted me,
Who's always sweet,
I'd still pick you.
What's the fun in perfect,
That means everything's the same,
You keep me on my toes,
In a way that no one else ever has.
I hate your temper,
You hate mine,
But I love you,
And we'll be alright,
Because at the end of the day,
I'm happy you're mine.
R A Sanders Mar 2013
Sometimes I lay in bed and miss you,
And I remind myself that I shouldn't,
I remind myself that you aren't missing me,
I think about how much you didn't care,
How you destroyed me.
Every night when I'm missing you,
With every fiber of my being,
So hard that the muscles in my stomach hurt,
And my hearts beating fast,
I try to stop and think,
All those nights you stayed up for hours screaming at me,
I try to remind myself that you didn't treat me well,
But in the middle of the night,
When I'm dozing through awake and dreams,
I don't remember those things,
And I'm just laying there,
And I miss you.
R A Sanders Feb 2012
You resent me,
I know you do,
It's not what you say,
It's the tone in your voice when you storm away,
When you speak about me,
Acting like I do terrible deeds,
Just because I'm the seed of a man who did terrible things,
But he's dying now,
At this slow pace,
I know the memories could never be erased,
Although, I'm his spitting image,
Don't hate me too,
How long will you make me pay,
Mommy, just say you forgive me for the things I didn't do.
R A Sanders Oct 2012
Your words hurt just as much as your actions,
I don't know what you're trying to do,
All this love I have for you,
You just want to break it in two,
Do you even care if I hurt?
I'd never hurt you,
If I'm really not what you want,
Then just say we're through,
Really, must you torture me like you do?
I've never asked anything of you,
I've just loved you unconditionally,
Then you dare come to me,
Saying it's all a lie,
If I'm lying to you,
Why have I been here since the start?
R A Sanders Sep 2012
Pounding is taking place in my head,
A constant pound that reminds me,
I'm over thinking this,
My heart is skipping beats,
My hands are shaking,
I don't normally act this way,
But I have to say,
To give yourself completely,
That's a fearless thing to do,
I'm trying to jump into this,
It's suppose to be easy,
I'm giving my heart to you,
Protect me please,
My everything's you.
R A Sanders Dec 2011
The halls were dark,
The walls were dry,
And I went alone;
The windows were fogged,
And I couldn't see anything clearly;
Then out of the corner of my eye I saw you.
Everything path I  ever walked down,
Every empty face I  ever passed,
Nothing ever stood out to me,
Then I saw something new,
Something I never knew,
And it was you.
The love you gave me,
The way you saved me,
I've never loved anyone like you before.
Like a new sight,
You were my light,
You lead my way.
R A Sanders Sep 2012
Fingers glide over keys,
The room is covered in smoke,
My eyes are glazed,
Melodies play quietly,
You're sitting like a king,
Everyone can see you,
But you can't see a thing.

First you start fast,
your fingers going so quickly,
then they slow,
just as brilliantly as they speeded,
Before I know what to say,
your eyes are fixed on me.

The way my hearts skipping beats,
it's so foreign to me,
I swore long ago
not to love anything,
but before I know what I'm doing,
I'm drawing closer to you.

My eyes feel wide,
they're so tired,
I can't blink,
I'm scared you wouldn't be there,
You look so brilliant in this room.

Together we're on a wooden bench,
You're speaking so softly,
You're voice like the song you played,
It's soft and touching to the heart,
I don't know where to start,
I start mumbling,
In an absent place of mind,
I whisper,
"There you are",
Or maybe that's what my heart said.

Your eyes are bright blue,
Your sandy brown hair,
It's taking all my effort
not to show you what I'm feeling,
All I hear is your breathing,
The room is hush,
Then a brush of your finger,
A mindless touch,
It sends my heart flying,
Just like I knew it would.

With my heart beating,
and my mind spinning,
I press my fingers to the keys,
You smile at the noise it makes,
Then you took my hand,
between the thudding in my chest,
I hear quietly,
the words brush against your lips,
"There you are",
Or maybe that's what your heart said.
R A Sanders Dec 2011
We'll see him in the news one day,
One way or another,
A feature on business,
Or an obitchuary,
Everybody'll morn,
They'll say they never saw it coming,
But when he pleaded for help;
You were to busy to look his way
Poor kid begging on his knees,
He knew his fait,
When you looked past it,
Now he's gone,
He could of changed the world,
But we all were to busy;
To ever see it coming,
We didn't just lose a number in population,
We lost a child,
We could of done something,
I can't help but think;
We could of done something.
R A Sanders Jun 2012
I'm not the loving kind
I'm the alone type
which is a hard bite
I'm nobody's somebody
so take me if you'd like
nobody's coming for me.
R A Sanders Feb 2012
The delusion of our relationship,
No need to believe it,
We fit no mold,
Even we tried to say we were different,
But we were the same,
Denying the facts,
We'd never be able to stay;

Some couples say they'll last forever,
No false ideas about it,
At the end we'll have played a good game,
Either way, we both lost it,
Now we can wave,
Then apart we can leave,
With no gain, not much loss,
Together we'll never be.
R A Sanders Jun 2013
His arms reached around me,
But mine didn't come around in return,
I just sighed and restrained as he pressed his shoulder to my face,
Once I got free, He just stared,
As though he expected some emotional response,
But no, not I,
With a turn of the heel,
There I go, Down the ***** sidewalk with not even a sigh,
I felt eyes burning through my back,
But I had no need to turn around.
I truly believe some people just aren't meant for other people,
Some people are just suppose to teach certain lessons and move on,
I think I might be one of those people,
I don't desire to stay in one place long,
Maybe that's the lesson I am,
That good things travel,
Or that you can't tame the wild.
R A Sanders Oct 2012
Parted fingers made it hard to see,
I was that girl,
I was scared of everything,
But I'm finally getting older,
This time has made me wiser at times,
I've watched people come, then walk by,
The broken roads threw me off my tracks,
But I'm learning how to get back my feet.
Words hurt me worse,
More then a fist ever could,
I was the girl,
I wouldn't do anything about it,
But through my hard work,
I've learned,
I'm actually worth something,
So I'm wise enough,
To tell you to go on your way.
My hands won't shake,
My knees won't tremble anymore,
When you decided to scare me,
All my insecurities,
They lead back to you,
but I'm not that girl anymore,
I've learned to get back to my feet,
I'm wiser then you think,
I'm not that girl anymore.
R A Sanders Oct 2012
Do you want to be with me,
Just standing here trying to breathe,
Every moment feels like my last,
But without you here, I could care less,
When you're around everything falls in place,
You made me believe in love again,
And that was no easy task,
I've never believed in anyone like, I've believed in you,
Can I just tell you the truth?
Every little thing I do,
Every step I make,
There's only ever one thing on my brain,
And that one thing happen to be you.

If we were ever to separate,
It's be my final cut,
I'd just wander through life,
Not living at all,
But maybe if I could see you happy,
Maybe I could get through it,
And just keep on feeling numb,
I just wonder how life would be worth it,
If I didn't wander through it with you.

Let's be honest,
You drive me insane,
Most of the time I feel like
it's not just my heart you took,
it was my brain to,
Your in every breath I breathe,
How do you do that,
Do I do that to you?
Is that why your around,
Is that why we're clinging to each other this way,
Maybe we've finally realized,
It's not just lust anymore,
There's no way out anymore.
R A Sanders Nov 2011
Shake me like your toy,
Tear me down,
Knock me to the floor,
Leave me looking up,
Hit me with your fists,
Kick me in the side,
Twist and contort my body anyway you want,
Bite me till your tear my flesh,
Break me to pieces,
Oh hate me like you do,
I adore the abuse.
R A Sanders Nov 2011
When I am old and gray,
And walk with a sway,
and a leopard cane,
and this tattoo starts sagging;

When I am old and gray,
With these bones that start lacking,
And these ***** that are sagging
And I start falling away;

When I am old and gray,
And set in my ways,
With a smile on my face,
And a grandchild at my feet,

When I am old and gray,
What a happy little old person,
I'll be,
with curls in my hair,
And a pleasant memory,
What a sweet old woman I'll be.
R A Sanders Sep 2012
Do me a favor?
This is a gun,
It has three bullets,
I'll only need one,
One hand around the handle,
One at the base,
I'll give you a minute,
To decide my fate,
Don't take this personally,
You're just who came by,
I don't care who you are,
As long as I die,
Don't think you're a bad person,
You won't do any time,
I just need some rest,
The best kind.
R A Sanders Oct 2012
I left a trail of broken hearts along my way,
I burnt bridges, Never turning back,
Every man was warned, hurting's what I do best,
But they chased, and I showed how much I cared...
Along the highway, my hair in the breeze,
I'll be out of this town, and into the next.

I warned it was nothing serious,
I just needed affection,
If they can't do one night, then maybe I should be onto the next,
They always fall in love,
They swear they won't,
They underestimated me,
I'm the best at a hit and run,
It never means anything to me,
They never understand.

As I go they always yell,
"Why are you so heartless?"
I always wonder the same thing,
Then I'm taken back,
I almost crash,
I was the one in love,
I was the one left,
Now I'm just taking the highway out of here,
Trying to feel again.
R A Sanders Mar 2013
I spent so long thinking about you, that I can't seem to think about anything else,
The way your hands feel, The way your smile spreads, The way my heart feels when your around,
I've been thinking about how long we've been together, and how I don't know how to not be with you,
I started this relationship with you, but I didn't really have any expectations,
I just thought, "He's gorgeous, I want to date that." but my thoughts quickly changed from looks to,
I like his looks, but I love his heart,
And maybe that's when I really started falling in love with you, or maybe that was point where I was to far to ever come back, but then again; the two moments are practically interchangeable,
I remember our first date, and then our second date, and our third date, and that moment when I realized every time I saw you, it was like the first time; you always gave me butterflies,
So it comes to this, Where I'm about to go to college, and you're to big for this little town to hold,
and I swear I'm not mad, I just hope you remember me where ever you go,
and your heart always has a home with me.
R A Sanders Jun 2013
You always have a way of ******* everything up,
I've successfully excluded you from my life for years,
The choice had to be made at the time;
You're not a kind man,
You have no compassion,
And I've always known in my heart,
That you're no good for anyone,
Especially not me.
I've always had to pick up the lose pieces from the damage you left,
You never want to talk about that,
I've been trying so hard to forget all these hard times,
And now I'm better off since your not here.
I don't want to fight, cause I know I'm right,
You don't change,
You just hurt,
I can't have that in my life,
So I'm going onward with my travel,
You can just stay here.
R A Sanders Aug 2012
Summer's almost over,
What's going to happen to us,
I promised forever,
I guess time flies when your having fun.
How'd you find your way into my heart,
How'd you make me love you this way?
I've been trouble since the start,
For you I was changing my ways,
but now as Summer fades;
Do I go back to my old ways?
All the nights you held me,
The nights we got lost in each other,
Did it mean anything to you?
Why'd this Summer have to end.
R A Sanders Dec 2012
I came to a cross road,
The first one I think I had ever been to,
There I straddled a thin line,
Between my faith and fear,
And I stood there just staring at my feet.
My Grandmother always told me,
Just let life unfold,
But it's a terrible thing being taken from everything you know,
And I had no control,
That was the scariest thing.
I heard faint voices down both paths,
I heard their judgmental tones,
But I couldn't make out what they were saying,
Maybe if I did I could of made a choice,
But sometimes I didn't even know if the choice was actually mine.
I was always a victim of some terrible situation,
One after another, after another,
The same situations had made me cold and indecisive,
After all, there's only so many times a kid can rebuild all those walls,
I had my heart broken more times then I could count,
I got to the point that most of the time I didn't even know if my heart was there,
I had moments where I checked my pulse, because to be living I didn't feel very alive.
So I was standing there,
And all I wanted to do was turn around and run,
And when I knew I should of made a choice between the two,
I cut through the trees,
And made a path of my own,
I disappointed everyone I knew,
But maybe they didn't know me very well at all,
Cause I was self destructing and nobody knew.
R A Sanders Jan 2013
I don't know when I became so dependent on the pills,
I think it was after the third or forth move,
When I was chasing away nightmares that kept coming true.
It started as just a way to sleep,
I was tired constantly,
And my body constantly pleaded for sleep,
The pills gave me that peace.
My life has never been simple,
I never just had a place to live,
Just had two normal parents,
A few siblings,
I never lived a good life,
It used to really bother me,
But for a moment when I swallowed the pills,
I forgot,
It was the only feeling I never fault,
It's not an addiction,
It's a way of life,
Just pass me the oxy,
I'll be alright.
R A Sanders Nov 2011
Police cars and ambulances,
Pills and alcohol,
If you took one, you take them all;

No concern for your daughters,
No concern for your wife,
If you said your sorry, you expected it to be alright;

Failed liver,
Stomach full of pills,
If you wanted to die, you'll succeed it;

All alone,
by yourself,
If you would of kept your promises, it wouldn't be this bad.
R A Sanders Nov 2012
I met him at a bad time, it was so cold, and it was so dark, and the worse part was I was just as cold and dark as the world around me was. The streets were all painted black and gray, and I was just a speck of white walking on my way, then out from one of my deepest thoughts I looked up and saw a ray of light, something small that shined, walking straight to me, and that was the moment I thought; that maybe life wasn’t quite what I began to think it was. Everything began to confuse me; every thought, every word; it puzzled me to the point that I couldn’t even speak about it.
I’ve learned through a list of bad things, that everything good must fade. Somewhere in some book that was written by some terrible man says that they must, because if they didn’t then we’d never be grateful for anything, but they didn’t understand that we aren’t going to anyway, we’re  selfish by nature, especially me. The ray of light was right in front of me, I couldn’t speak, I couldn’t even look up; the better parts of me where ashamed of the creature I was slowly becoming. The light reveled himself as Ransom; I didn’t dare look him in the face. Just standing by his side he warmed me, he shifted everything to the point that made me look up, it was such a different experience that sent me to brand new spaces, and for some reason I couldn’t even mutter the word “Thanks”. I was frozen, and he was just smiling and shining, and I didn’t even know how to say “Thanks”.
R A Sanders Nov 2012
I poured myself a drink,
Sat at my desk,
I tried to write,
But I just couldn't form words,
He was the only thing in my mind,
I couldn't take the remembering,
I just couldn't forget,
I wanted him here.

The bartender poured me a double,
I sat at the bar,
I wanted to call her,
But I didn't know what to say,
She's so good with her words,
I can't take her not being here,
I can't forget her in any way.

They tossed and turned ideas,
One to the other,
They wanted each other,
But they both didn't know what to do,
So they sat with there tears and alcohol,
Trying to figure it out,
An arm reach away,
But they wouldn't reach out.
R A Sanders Nov 2012
We're screaming,
Drunken and reeling back to where we were before,
I just want to let you know now,
That I didn't mean a thing I said,
My words poured out,
And before I knew what I was doing,
I saw that I was the one doing the hurting this time,
The years are rolling by now,
And I'm trying to catch up,
But I always stumble,
You were always so good at getting back up,
I don't have my helping hand this time,
I guess that happens one you keep on hand wrapped around the bottle,
The whiskey doesn't like to stay here,
And it's all my fault,
I know why.
R A Sanders Feb 2012
Calloused hands slid over me then grips desperately;
The skin on my hips cry for mercy when he grabs hold of me,
I feel your head on my bare shoulder;
A beat of sweat drips down from your brow,
A long leg possessively lays over mine,
Your body tenses,
I know you're dying inside,
I feel the shake.
In sleep you're chased by nasty dreams,
Of a war that you remember distinctively.
His teeth set into my shoulder, I start to scream,
In a blink of an eye he was awake;
Panting, sweating, fearful;
His eyes look at me,
See's the destruction that he made,
It makes him feel like less of a man.
Standing to get a cigarette,
I press my cheek to his,
"I'm a monster" He says,
He believes it.
He's disgusted with himself looking at my ****** hips,
That's what a hero looks like I tell him,
He swears for mercy for himself;
I need a cigarette.
R A Sanders Sep 2012
My eyes are still burning,
My rigid body is still yearning for you,
A thousand miles apart,
Yet so close in my heart,
Sometimes I fool myself
I think that you're here,
I'm awoken by my own hopeless tears,
When your life leaves,
What is there to wake up to,
Nothing, but these empty bottles of *****,
These months feel like years,
Return to me love,
Make me whole,
Don't let these pieces shatter anymore,
Be where you want to be,
Be here with me.
R A Sanders Sep 2012
It's a hard road,
There's rocks and pebbles,
Sometimes we'll get our knees scratch,
Or even worse;
Sometimes we'll fall flat on our faces,
There's hills,
They feel like mountains,
There's rain,
There's storms,
But I love you more,
And I know our worth,
It's not easy,
But you're worth it.
R A Sanders Jan 2013
The weather was a little colder then a mild September,
I was driving fast,
Trees and cars blurred as I passed them,
I wasn't quite sure where I was going, but anywhere was better then here,
My phone kept ringing, over, and over, and over again,
Left to my own, thinking, that's what I really needed,
But no matter how far I drove, it wasn't quite far enough,
So I continued,
Through the day, Through the night,
Far beyond where the weeks turned to months,
Far beyond the months turned to years,
Although my endeavor has seemed so very short,
I've been gone quite a while according to others,
I think back to the place I was born,
About the hot Summers and cold Winters,
How the trees turned colors,
How every person had met,
It was such a peaceful place,
Yet, not I a place to think.
I must stop,
I must not go,
But there's something in my blood,
I desire to roam,
There's still whispers and thoughts,
About why I did all this running,
But my thinking is needed,
And my reasoning is simple,
I've just never been to good at staying in one place long.
R A Sanders Jul 2013
I'm lying in bed, Watching the fan,
Wondering how you could say those hurtful things you said,
Wondering how I could of been so dumb,
I guess dumb and love goes hand in hand when your young,
And I'm so young,
And I'm so in love;
And now you're not around.
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R A Sanders Dec 2012
There was something about him,
Something that made you just want to see him succeed,
And you never really knew why you were always pulling for him,
There were times when he failed,
He'd get this look of despair on his face,
He bit his lip,
He cursed to himself,
But the most capturing thing was that look of his,
That I gave my all, and failed look,
That same look tore you down to your very bones.
I watched him rebuild himself,
He would get so frustrated with himself,
I wanted to assure him that everything would work out,
But it was useless,
He only believed things he could see,
And he never seemed to see himself,
He never believed in himself.
Then there were these times when he succeed,
I'd just watch him grin all over himself,
His smile seemed a mile wide,
Those dimples would appear in his cheeks,
But he'd never speak a work about what he'd accomplished,
When you ever brought it up, He'd get embarrassed,
He never thought he did anything worth praising,
The thing is,
I don't ever think he realized that everybody was praising him,
No matter what he ever did,
I don't ever thing he realized that no matter what he did,
I was in love with him,
And I don't ever think he realized it.
R A Sanders Mar 2013
I had a thought today while I was getting my nails done,
Just what if this was meant to last,
I mean, would it be such a crazy thing,
If you and I ended up being the two,
I remember the day we met,
I was such a mess,
A few beers in,
It wasn't my most classiest moment,
But I knew it wasn't the alcohol making me fall for you,
You drove a jacked up Chevy,
I was wearing shoes that cost more then your tires,
We didn't match,
But I've seen crazier things happen,
Then the day I fell in love with you.
R A Sanders Dec 2011
She's wrapped up tightly, with one leg dangling off the bed,
He enters, She hears his every move,
She wonders if there's any use in begging anymore,
His draws open, He unzips the empty suitcase,
She feels her chest tighten,
He tosses things in the bag,
She tries not to gasp for air,
He closes his draws,
She tightens her grip on the sheets,
He walks to the closet,
She chokes back the lump in her throat,
He grabs his shoes,
She can't bare to move,
He walks to the bed, watches her struggle,
She wants to stop him,
He doesn't want to leave,
"Please, no." She pleads to herself,
"Tell me don't go" He continues to think.
R A Sanders Nov 2012
Debris filled the air,
With smoke and fire.
My mind became a blank slate;
My heart was beating so fast.
We stood back,
Standing right next to each other
And we watched the broken building crumble,
Watched brick by brick as they fell to the earth,
There was a moment of silence among the crowd,
For we didn’t know whether to cry or rejoice,
That we slid by this time.
R A Sanders Jun 2012
Their sins were burned on her arms,
She paid for mistakes that weren't hers,
Trembling hands grasp shaky knees,
Control was slipping.
R A Sanders Nov 2012
I don't know how,
Or why,
But I fell in love with him slow,
It was out of the ordinary for me,
For I am somewhat reckless,
And everything about him felt to close for comfort,
But everything he was is what I wanted,
So I stood back and watched him,
For once I waited,
I made him wait,
All his moves were smooth,
With his every word I felt myself inch towards him,
The anticipation before the fall, was almost as good as the fall itself,
Maybe there's something about what you want but can't have,
To make you want it more,
I don't regret,
A moment I wasted,
All while he was chasing,
Now we're free falling,
Never to touch the ground,
It's a wonderful storm reside in.
R A Sanders Dec 2011
Smoke on the mirrors,
Wish I could see you clearer,
But there's something between us,
I should of seen the lies,
I should of caught you in the web,
But when your in it,
You can't see a thing,
So here I am begging,
Let me see what's inside,
Instead of believing these lies.
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