Just a casual conversation,
Between a few friends,
Your name came up,
I don't know how,
I guess I blacked out,
They ask me if that was someone I knew,
Was I suppose to tell the truth?
I couldn't stop my heart from weeping,
I felt the raw pain in my throat,
I replied in a bit if a sob,
and in my last breath I cried,
I used to.

I wonder what it would be like,
What if you changed all those times you said you would,
What if you kept those promises you made to me,
I guess I shouldn't think so hard,
I shouldn't dwell on the past,
I just can't help but feel like I'm living a lie,
All the dreams you built in my head,
I have so many things I've left unsaid,
Out of fear of hurting you,
I wish I wouldn't of bit my tongue,
You aren't even around,
I wish I could of left just like you,
I thought the same things that kept me here saved you,
It was easy when things got rough,
When the bills were due and problems popped up,
You didn't think twice,
I wish you would of cared,
I guess I should of believed the truth, instead of ignoring the lies.

I was just a young lady,
Working to be something that I wasn't,
Night and day, no weekends off,
Minimum wage, flirting for tips,
It was a job, and that was it.
I was bagging up an order,
Grilled Pork chop, green beans and fries,
when a large man took me by surprise,
Said are you really going to work here, you should enjoy your life,
I just blew him off, didn't give him a second thought,
He told me I should be kid while I still could,
But the truth was I hadn't been a kid for a long time.

Are you okay,
Your breathing hard,
Maybe it's finally all sunk in,
Maybe you're losing your mind,
It's been a hard few months,
But I swear to you, me and you will be fine,
That's just what we do,
When you don't have a choice, you just live,
You do what you have to do,
All you do is fight through,
That's what we know,
Don't be ashamed of that,
We're always the underdogs,
But even the underdogs hit it big sometimes.

I saw you at the club tonight,
Dancing with girls that everyone knows well,
You seemed to be enjoying yourself,
Drinks in your hands,
Turning them back like no tomorrow,
Stumbling into guys twice your size,
Hitting on girls who look just like me,
You kept yelling out my name over the music,
Everybody just ignored you like they always do,
For a moment you stopped,
The crowd just danced around you,
You fell to the ground,
Nobody stopped to see if you were okay,
Or even noticed you at all,
If it would of been a few months back I would of been at your side,
Helping your drunk *** to the truck,
However you picked the drinks over me,
But they aren't helping you get home.

I miss you,
To bad to even explain,
I try to fill my time with new guys,
The whole time thinking about the one that got away,
And I'll admit this is all new for me,
Loving you always came so easy,
Losing you wasn't the same for me.
I learned quick that you play for keeps,
You taught me slow and steady wins the race,
and how I loved the chase,
You kept my interest,
Kept me close,
I thought you were all I needed to stay afloat,
I learned from my mistakes,
and I can honestly say,
I miss you a little to much to be comfortable with anyone else,
I don't want to love you like this,
I just want you to come back home.

In the deepest of my despair I missed him,
With more than I had to give, and more than I could take,
It seemed as though the days were longer then normal,
And I was just waiting for him to come back.
I began to become consumed by every thought and hope,
I couldn't bare not to think about him,
He was something I would sell my own soul to get back,
Or maybe I already had.
My heart twisted and pulled right through my chest,
I laid in bed alone with my stomach in knots,
This bed is empty, it only hold me,
Lying in the darkness I didn't say I missed him,
Not verbally at least,
My body was all to aware of his absence,
I didn't have a spare thought to think,
All the people around me are staring,
But I'm to busy to care what they think,
I'm looking all around for anywhere he might be,
Searching desperately,
He consumes me,
Consumes me,
Consumed me.