I am blind.
Not completely,
But it feels like it.
Without my glasses I am.
But I dont see this as a curse,
I see it as a blessing.
For I can take off my glasses,
And hide.
I can hide from the world.
All the hatred,
And all the ugliness,
Its a bliss feeling.
To be able to sit there,
And not see anything,
And be separated from the world.
But when you want to be part of the world again,
All you must do is slip on those glasses.
It feels like you have control over the world.

Fake a smile,
And fake a laugh.
Hide your tears,
And hide your cuts.
Polish your pain off with sparkling eyes,
And dazzling teeth.
Don't let them see whats going on in your head.
Don't let them know all the times you've cried,
How you cant stand to look at yourself in the mirror,
How you feel guilty every time you eat.
They cant know.
For all they know,
You're the happiest person alive.

I have a secret,
That only a few know,
They think its just marks,
But its my pain that shows.
I have a secret,
That I like to hide.
People will judge,
And I can't handle that...
I have a secret,
But its becoming more obvious.
I dont even care anymore.
People see the marks...
I'm lost.
I'm just a lost little girl.
Too much for me to handle,
Too much stress,
So much pain.
So much pain that I just become numb.

I want to leave this place.
Get out and see the world.
I have a burning haste,
To get out and see the world.

Im stuck in this small town,
And I want to leave.
It suffocating, and pushing me down,
I want to leave.

There are places to go,
I need to go now.
There are plenty of shows,
And I need to go now.

But Im stuck in this small town,
And for now,
Im not going anywhere.

i wish it were you
saying you're sorry
over how you never loved me
the same way
i loved you
but it's not
it's me
i'm the one who's sorry
i'm sorry i was never good enough
sorry i never tried hard enough
or caught your eye
i'm sorry i wasn't as beautiful
as you would have wished
sorry i was too ugly inside
for you to love me
i'm sorry that no matter how hard
i tried
you never noticed
you never took interest
and never seemed to care
i'm sorry you never felt
the same way
as i felt
for you
i'm sorry
and it should be you
telling me you're sorry
that you never
loved me back
and put me through
all those years
of pain
tears
hopelessness
and
crushed dreams
because you never
ever
took notice in me
or were gentle
when it came to
my feelings
for you
but it's me who's sorry
sorry i was never
good enough
for you
and someday
i hope you
can forgive me too

i learned a lesson long ago
not to trust or believe anyone you know
they are full of it
they think they know it all
what’s best for you
but it’s not true
they’ll do anything they want
they’ll get in your way
as long as there are pleased
you are ** either way
you’ll never get what makes you happy
not if someone rules your life
makes all your decisions
or decides what’s wrong and what’s right
they’ll lead you into the wrong path
the wrong way to go
and I know exactly where it’s headed
but you don’t want to know
you’ll become overwhelmed, panicked, in fear..
you’ll experience unknown feelings you’ve never felt, my dear
telling them what’s happened
won’t help in any way
no one will believe it
no matter what you say
they’ll call you names
they’ll call you crazy
don’t even try, or else they’ll put you in a cellar
keep you locked up, holding you inside
forcing the torture down your throat
it will happen, i know
if you follow in another’s path instead of creating your own