i keep feeling like
i'm asking too much of you
that my expectations are too high
sometimes when i text you
i feel crazy
but maybe
i'm not asking too much of you
maybe i'm not expecting enough for myself

please don’t make me feel bad
for wanting to talk to you
if we don’t talk much
of course i’m going
to miss you
i think you forget
that i love you

there has only been
one day
since i’ve been here
that i haven’t cried
and i thought maybe
maybe i would
be able to stop
but today
i crawled into bed
and i felt the same way
but this time
when i started to cry
i felt like
i may never be able to stop

i can’t stop
checking our messages
i can’t stop
waiting for you
i can’t stop
thinking about you
i know
i should be able to
but it doesn’t matter
what i’m doing
i’m always thinking
about you
and the hardest part
is that i know
you’re not thinking
about me

i feel bad calling you
when things get bad
you have always been
the person i called
but now that things
are finally good for you
and you finally got
what you deserve
i don't know how to call

a lot of the time
recently
we don't feel
like an us
you shut me out
when things
get hard
you stop calling
you stop texting
you stop answering
you stop talking
you leave me
and i know
things are hard
but i can't
be the only one
who cares about
us

i even dream about you
except for yesterday
it wasn't a dream
it was a nightmare
and for the first time
maybe this
us
didn't feel like a dream