Karma decided I hadn't had
A sufficient taste of my own medicine,
So I downed the whole bottle,
And overdosed on my own faults.
Karma decided I hadn't carried
Enough weight in the situation,
So the blocks were stacked high,
Heavy on my shoulders and conscience.
Karma decided I never understood
Just how much my actions ruined others,
So the tables flipped and others did as I had,
And now I'm feeling the full force of those actions.
Karma decided I'd never drowned
In my own lies and deceit,
So she created a pool out of yours,
And threw me in the deep end when I didn't know how to swim.
Karma decided that I was oblivious
To everything you endured,
So she made sure I'd go down the same path,
Alone and angry and cursing myself for all of this.
Karma decided I was deserving
Of all of this,
And I agree.
Karma is a *****, and keeps those like herself in her company.
I severely ****** up and this is about the only way I can cope with things. It may be over dramatic but that's me in general. What I made one person endure is what I've began to endure and I borderline hate him for it, though I retract back to that I deserve this and you can't hate someone for trying to help himself by getting rid of things in his life that brought more bad than good. I always knew I played that role in his life, I just didn't expect to feel this way when he realized it too. It's a lot to handle but he's handled more, so I've just began enduring all that Karma's had cooking for me since I went in and ruined this kids life.