and then, you were 18
just like that
so hard for me to see
who I'm looking at
so eager to grow up
my world shook up
my baby, my smiles
my happiness for miles
ready to take on the world

It's all happening so fast
and I'm not ready
for this show
I've anxiously waited
for this day
and also dreaded it so
where a boy
becomes a man
and a mother let's go

Eshan, I will forever see you
as the boy that saved me
Happy 18th Birthday
my sweet, sweet baby

~ Priya, Jan 7, 22 🕉

Every single day,  
at least three times a day,
I find myself asking him
how could you forget,
or how can you blame me
for wanting to protect
when every moment spent
can so easily be forgotten
How selfish of me
not to understand or see
that this is not about me
How far have I fallen
to miss the simplest truth
that this new path we are taking
you did not choose
and in fact,  how very blessed I am
at how much is truly remembered
The simplest of truths
is that you are  just fine
perhaps it is me that has lost my way

~ Priya 🕉,  Jan 4, 22

The time has taken so many twisted paths
so many moments and memories
and yet, between us, with all the time passed
I imagine you still the same

The rare smile that would light up the sky
and the rough of your hands against soft
A blue plaid shirt and the twinkle in your eye
I imagine you still the same

Now new moments and memories will come to tide
a chance to absorb the joys and pains passed
a bond that even time cannot divide
Because in the end, we are truly the same

Yesterday was frozen waterfalls
and so many broken dreams,
tomorrow's forcast
is unexpected it seems
Perhaps a reminisce of time lost
and a tear or few I think
endless cups of brewed coffee
nerves and anticipation on the brink
I'll share with you my secret wish
of this meeting I needed for so long
for just a hug and to hold my hands
reunite memories that together belong
Simply human but special indeed
someone so very much always in need
Weaving dreams under waterfalls
then enduring pains from broken walls
So many things I have to say to you
So many times I wanted to call
Soon, now soon I can finally tell you
Two words however small
Two words I have lived with
have fought with, have cried with
Two words that sums it all
Words that have lived beneath my breath
these two words, my fallen stars
I'm sorry ...

~ Priya 🕉 2/3/22

You don't have to remember,
I'll remind you
I'll love you when it's dark
and I'll shower you with light  
I'll understand
when things do not seem right
I'll try not to be angered
because you were never with me
I will walk with you
forever, endlessly
Wherever there is dark,
there must be light
I will help you with this fight
I am here

~ Priya 🕉, 2/5/22

What beauty is this
where the cool crisp air
hugs the warmth of the sun;
and where the hands of a tree
in a quieted silence
reach out to me
What beauty is this
where the sun's rays
tickle my face
and a gentle breeze
like an unexpected tease
reminds me of everything you
What beauty is this
where the pitter patter of rain
leaves the unmistakable stain
of my memories
and like the hands of the trees
beneath the warmth of the sun
where magical dreams
are miraculously spun,
all that I feel are your arms
Like a blanket of comfort,
nature's mystical allure
wraps around me
in the quieted silence of peace
What beauty is this

~ Priya 🕉,  2/6/22