If you're gonna stay in my life,
please bring coffee.

its funny
how you're
suddenly concern
about my
happiness
while
you're the
reason of
my sadness.

If you are not ready
to swim
her ocean-depth love,
Bring back
your shallow
feelings to the shore.

You know what hurts me the most?

Your actions.
The things you do
and the way you replaced us
like it was nothing to you.

Even the rain screams your name.

Save it in your lips,
If you don't really mean it.

You had me at my best,
I had you at your worst.

You left me at worst,
She had you at your best.

its
time
to
let
you
go
and
finally
set
myself
free.

You were enough for me,
In the best and most specially on our worst days.
Even you throw our love away.

It's so dark here from where I stand,
I can't see even a single light.
Walking alone in darkness gives me solitude,
I guess I am used to pain and I am not afraid of hurting anymore.

You sleep well,
While my heart cry.

Even if I'm not the reason of your smile,
Nor the one who brings sunshine in your day.
Neither the one who gives you happiness,
And not the one you dreamed your future with.
Even my heart is aching seeing you happy with someone else,


I am still happy for you.

I was a game
you played too well.

Before was
sad, empty, and tired eyes.



Now it is
lifeless.

Sorry if I was not enough....


Sorry if I loved you too much....

I wish I could tell all these things
Straight to your face.

But I don't have the courage
To see you hurt.

You don't know
How painful it is to watch,
To let the person you love
Love someone else.

Specially if that
"someone else"
is your closest friend.

Rain
always
reminds
me
of
you.

I still
can't believe
that what we
had and cherished
was all
gone.

....

You said you are afraid to lose me.
I never thought you were that strong,
Until you face your fear and left me.

Behind this strong woman that you admire,
Is a fragile girl who wears a mask to at least ease the pain.
Behind this strong image she portrays,
Is a lost soul who search for a reason to live.
She acts like she don't care about you anymore,
But she still hope it's you and her at the end.
Behind that smile she wore,
Shows an aching heart when the curtains fall.

And it kills her,
To show up to everyone
and pretend that she's okay.

You remind me everyday,
I am not enough.

If my eyes could just speak,
It will scream at the top of it's lungs
And try it's hardest to convey what it's feeling.

The pain,
the pressure,
the tiredness,
the unworthiness.

It will surely shatter
And break into pieces as it explodes
due to pain.

Always me and you.





Always.

"Reality will break your heart.
Survival will not be the hardest part.
It's keeping all your hopes alive,
When all the rest of you has died.
So let it break your heart."


-Paramore, 26

I am tired to be your sometimes.
I want to be your always and forever.
Love me in my weakest,
Not just when I'm available to satisfy your needs.
Make me feel loved when I am alone and lonely,
Not just when it's convenient to you.
Be there for me for always,
Not just when she's not into you.

You're giving me
hundred reasons to leave,

But I'm always able to find
one reason to stay.

I miss your smell.
I miss the way I bury my face in your chest
and sniff you.
The way I close my eyes and try to memorize
the mixed smell of your perfume and your sweat.
I miss the way you get sweetly-angry and smile
when I try to smell your armpit.
I miss the way I am with you.
The way my heart ponder while I tightly
wrapped my arms around you.

Even at my best,
I'm still not enough for you.


And I think, I'll never be.

Pain turned to scares,
Moments turned to memories.
Friendship turned to betrayal,
And love turned to indifference.

I made a mistake.
I made love again with you last night.
I love you,
You do love me, but you also want someone else.
And what's make it more painful?
Because I did know.
We let our emotions take us over.
I let you linger in my skin.
I touched you like there's no tomorrow.
Our lips met again since I don't know when.
And our body missed each other so much.
It was a painful, yet magical memory.
It was so wrong but it feels so right.
Now I regret that it happened,
Letting you in again was a big mistake.
I was on my way of moving on from you.
Now I'm pain again.
And I'm back in the starting line again.

It just happened in an hour,
But the memory stays forever, so as the pain.
It was a mistake,
But it was a mistake I'm willing to commit.