Life
Death
Inbetween
These three things are what hold me

Life
Happiness
Love
Family
Friends
Life isn't just about living for yourself it's about living for others,
Life isn't just about waking up and and breathing it's about loving and caring.

Death
Sadness
Pain
Sorrow
Death isn't just about letting your final breath go its about letting everything go the love the happiness the life,
Death isn't just about pain and sadness it's a sweet oblivion and sweet place to go after all the pain and sadness.

The Inbetween
Is where I'm stuck
Stuck living for others my soul and heart is dead they have let go but I can't stop caring for the ones I care about they are two people who helped me through but soon I will let go for good and go to my sweet oblivion.

Life death Inbetween
All three are different
All three are painful
But I will stay through the pain for two people once they are safe and happy I will gladly take deaths hand an let him lead me to me sweet oblivion.

I can't hold on
I'm losing my grip
My fingers unravel from the edge I'm holding onto
When I fall it will be the last time
I can no longer see the reason I hold on.

I can't see why I try any more.

I hold on for the last time.

Black,
Grey,
These are the colours i see,
These are the colours that cloud my vision,
Cloud my eyes,
Cloud my judgement,
The black of pain kills my heart kills my soul,
The black of pain blocks out the white light of the sun,
The white light of happiness love and warmth,
The grey of sorrow drowns my heart,
It pulls me under,
It fills my lungs,
It chokes me,
There is no white light,
No warmth,
No love,
No happiness,

There is no white light,
Only,
Black,
and,
Grey,

These are the colours i see,
These are the colours i live with,
My life passes by in and black and grey.

The pain like cuts deep into my soul,
Release a bliss,
An ecstasy,
The pain like deep cuts of a razor blade,
The blood running over like an eclips of bliss and pleasure,
Why does pain have to give pleasure and yet take so much,
Devoid of feeling I'm left hopeless the pain is the last thing I hold onto,
Like the cuts of a razor
A ladder further into
Insanity
The pain like deeps cuts into my soul,
Release a bliss
An ecstasy.

When you saw the world, its colors and textures and sounds, I felt I felt the way you thought, hoped, felt, dreamt. I felt I was dreaming and thinking and feeling with you. I dreamed what you dreamed, wanted what you wanted--and then I realized that truly I just wanted you.

i will always in my heart or hearts realise that all i want is you to have you in my arms and in my heart to have you take me away to a place where our dreams are life and our love never ending.

I dream of a life without these bars,
I dream of a life when the darkness no longer holds me down,
I dream of a life where the darkness does not my dreams and turn them into nightmares,
I dream of a life where my nightmares no longer plague my days,
I dream of a day where my pain dose not make me cry out in horror,
I dream of a day where my sorrow does not destroy my heart,
I dream of a day when my heart does not break at the mere thought of your name,and
I dream of a day when my eyes are not filled with tears.

But these are mere dreams and fantasies but in reality, i am in pain and always will be for i lost my love my hope and my passion,
these are but dreams of a fool, because  my darkness is my own it cannot be taken or hidden or made to disappear because there are my fears and my loss and sorrow,
these are the but the dreams of a madman,
a madman is what i am,
I only see you when i close my eyes, i hear your voice like a whisper in the wind and when i wake at night a search for you but only find memories which drive me further to insanity.
I dream but as i dream i fall further into my madness further into insanity.

Remember me and smile,
For it's better to forget me
Than to remember me and cry,
Remember me and laugh at the happy memories,
For it's better to forget me,
Than remember me and cry,
Remember me for what i was,
And not what i have become,
Remember me for my love for you,
And not for the sorrow that now is in my heart,
Remember me and smile,
For its better to forget me,
Than remember me and cry.

Smile my love for the once happy thoughts and happy memories.
smile.