I will give you my all,
My heart,
My soul,
My love,
I do not want anything in return other that you are happy,
Smiling,
Laughing,
I will give you all that i have,
I will not ask for anything,
I will not beg,
I will not stand in your way,
I will give you everything so that you may open your wings and fly,
So that you may find your happiness,
Find your love,
Find your solace,
I will give you everything so that you may be happy.

I give you everything so that one day you can love and need nothing in return.

I heard a quote today which made me smile but cry at the same time, this is as much a poem as it is an anecdote.

"Love is both friend and foe, it keeps us sane but creates a madness also, but love and hope go hand in hand and let us go by in life, let hope be our guide and love our protection"

On hearing this it made me smile it made me hope but most of all it made me remember, it made me remember my loss my sorrow my pain, it made me remember that i have lost you and although you are there miles from me i know i have lost you but it also made me remember my love, my love for you it made me remember that no matter how far away you are that my heart will always be filled with love for you.

It made me have hope, i may not see you or be with you but it made me hope that one day i would see you happy once more but until that time let hope be my guide and let my love be your protection.

When I wake at the middle of the night I see the shinning moon high in the sky, a glowing symbol of hope that no matter how dark it may be in the world or in our minds it shows us that there is always light to be found.

But when you have lived in the darkness for so long that it becomes the only thing you know it's hard to find that light that hope.

That hope which fills our hearts and souls, that hope which tells us to keep dreaming, that hope which makes us climb to such heights but is never there to catch us when we fall.

When I wake I see the moons rays and hope that one day soon I will be able to sleep without out pain and sorrow with out anguish and sadness with out loss, but for now that hope the moon gives me drives me to madness.

A madness which pulls me to the darkness of hopelessness and pain ad sorrow, a madness which pulls apart my mind and my soul, a madness which makes me a fool to believe in hope.

A fools hope is all that I have left.

when the night comes my heart drops with dread for what is to come,
the darkness
the pain
the sorrow
the nothingness
when night comes and my eyes close i hope that the nightmares won't come,
but they always do,
the plague me
the destroy me
the plunge my heart and soul into fire
when night comes i scream for mercy,
but all i get is silence and the continued pain,
when night comes another bit of my life slips away.

What is the point in searching for the light at the end of the tunnel, if when you get there is no bulb but a dark expanse of nothing, no rail road no dirt track no embers nothing just darkness, no hope no love no life just darkness what is the point in creating a light for others if all your creating is an illusion, why should I keep looking why should I start again when I know that all I will find is darkness.

When the tunnel has ended will there ever be light all will it always be darkness.

When its night you are my solace,
You're my warmth,
You're my hopes and dreams,
When's its the day you're my energy,
You're my passion,
You're my drive.

You are my everything,
you're my heart,
you're my soul,
you're my happiness,
you're my love,

you are the light at the end of my tunnel ,
you are the light which drives away my darkness,
you are the light that chases my nightmares away,

but now you're gone,
the light has been extinguished,
now you're gone the tunnel begins to darken,
now you're gone the darkness returns,
now you're gone the nightmares return and plague my dreams.

now you're gone;
my hopes and dreams shrink and disappear,
my warmth begins to seep away,
my passion dwindles like a fire with no fuel.
now you're gone;
my heart drains of love, hope and happiness,
my soul tears it self apart,

Now Your Gone.

As i open my eyes from the nightmare that plagues my sleep and attacks my thoughts i only see darkness, an expanse of nothing;
No Light ,
No Warmth,
No Life,
This Darkness cannot be seen by others;
It is my Darkness,
My Fears,
My Demons,
This Darkness cannot be heard, cannot be smelt it is cold it devours the light that i once held in my heart it takes all that i once held it takes;
My love,
My Happiness,
This darkness leaves me with nothing but despair,
It leaves my once beating heart an empty shell,
It takes my warmth and replaces it with sadness,
where once i knew love and happiness now all i know is
Loss and Sorrow.